The New Girl
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She's skinnier than me.
My only bias on beauty is my own
Self-loathing.
She seems to make you laugh a lot
I remember when that was my goal.
It's good if she makes you happy..
It's great if she doesn't.
Don't really want to see you in pain
But maybe that's the only thing I'll gain.
In my heart I want you to come back
But that won't happen. If not,
I want you to fall in love,
Find true happiness,
Feel complete
Then have your heart shattered into a milion pieces
Feel what I did.
Don't really want to see you in pain
but maybe that's the only thing I'll gain.
The only one who sees my depression
Feels it's coldness
Senses its aura
is you, who
Started it, without knowing.
Not your fault, not truly, but I hope
I hope it brings you down (down to Chinatown)
Makes your heart tighten
Makes that spark
In your eye
Disappear
For just a moment.
Don't really want to see you in pain
But maybe that's the only thing I'll gain.
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