June 19, 1998 - June 25, 1998
(June 19) It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to
*LOL* Okay, so I lied...well, wait. No! I didn't..it is my birthday, but
I'm not gonna cry. *chuckles* This is going to be a short update because I'm
going out for a bit…..I would like to thank Ellen &
Nan (for the adorable monkey!!! *squeak*),
Angie,
Catherine
(teenie beeeeeeanies!!), Erin
, and Sarah Jayne
for thinking of me on this day. *hugs* I
appreciate it more than you know. :-D
Last old entry
was June 16.
(June 21) Father's Day and a song
Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there. :-D
I've been losing touch with my net peoples lately, mostly because I'm home, so
time online is limited and such. Plus, I've been busy doing stuffs.....I
hardly remember what even. Haw. And my connection sucks at times too, so I
can't get on to make updates.....and lately I don't feel like updating I guess.
But I'm not dead. I just wanted to clarify that. *chuckles*
Dave Matthews Band's "The Stone"
"I've this creeping
Suspicion that things are not as they seem
Reassure me
Why do I feel as if I'm in too deep
I've been praying
For some way to show them I'm not what they see
Yes I have done wrong
But what I did I thought needed be done
I swear
Unholy day
If I leave now I might get away
This weighs on me
As heavy as stone and as blue as I go
I was just wondering when you'd come along
To hold up my head when my head will not hold on
I'll do the same if the same is what you want
If not, I'll go
I'll go alone.
I'm a long way
From that fool's mistake and now forever pay
No, run
I will run and I'll be okay
I was just wondering when you'd come along
To hold up my head when my head will not hold on
I'll do the same if the same is what you want
If not, I'll go
I'll go alone.
I need so
To stay in your arms, see you smile, hold you close
And it weighs on me
As heavy as stone and a bone chilling cold
I was just wondering if you'd come along
Tell me you will."
It's a beautiful song...I thought I'd share it with everyone. Go and get the
CD too, it's wonderful. :-D
PS: Isn't Dave Matthews cute, too?! *chuckles* He's in the middle!
(June 21) Part deux....A song a friend was singing
Our Lady Peace's "4 AM"
"I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
What's wrong.
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinking in this box
Blame myself for being too much
Like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
What's wrong. (3)
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
What's wrong." (3)
(June 22) Bjork's "All is Full of Love"
"you'll be given love
you'll be taken care of
you'll be given love
you have to trust it
maybe not from the sources
you've poured yours
into
maybe not
from the directions
you are
staring at
twist your head around
it's all around you
all is full of love
all around you
all is full of love
you just ain't receiving
all is full of love
your phone is off the hook
all is full of love
your doors are all shut
all is full of love"
Okay, I bet you are all sick of my song lyrics and not actually writing something.
I guess I'm just in a musical mood. Nothing much going on here. I put this
song up for a friend of mine. I hope he's okay. He's going to take some time
away for himself. Which is good, but I'll miss him terribly. And I hope he
comes by my page to see that I'm thinking of him.
No calls for jobs yet, but I was told I can prolly work a month at the place I
worked at last summer. Which is definitely goo. *hehe* I'm still living it
up at home though. Not quite ready for work and I'm glad I'm not taking classes
this summer. (Poor, Ellen!! *Hehe* ;-) D'awwwwwww) I should get nice and
bored by July 1, though...
Oh yah!! It's been a year since I started chat! Weeeeeeee...*breaks out the
party stuffs* *hehe* Cool cool cool. And!! I saw the X-files movie
yesterday. I no likey. *shakes head* It was like a two-hour episode of the
show...of course. But the two main plot lines have already been exhausted
by the television show: that black cancer and having Scully abducted and put
into peril. ("Save her, Mulder!!") I thought the movie's pace was slow except
for a knew notable scenes. But a few scenes do not make up a good movie, but
I do recommend this movie for people who are just becoming "x-philes" because
it's easy to understand and there were very few details that only fans of the
show would know about. Like, how the time was 11:24 at one point, Chris Carter's
wife's birthday I believe....and how Scully has a mole on her upper lip but they
covered it up. yadda yadda. My friends liked the movie, though...so I'm happy.
Don't you hate it when you fall asleep (when you don't mean to, 'course) and
when you wake up...you're all disoriented and feeling almost pissy and whatever?
And you're like really tired, but if you're like me, you "have" to go online
to chat. *chuckles* Ah well, c'est la vie!
(June 23) More to say
My connection wouldn't behave long enough for me to finish yesterday's update.
(June 25 some more) @##$! *&*^%!! @(*&@!!
Geez louise..this morning was the most ridiculous thing ever!!
So I'm sleeping at 10am because I went to bed at 5am because I was
downloading some mp3's. (new Aerosmith..weeeeeeeee) I woke up
somehow and turned off mah compy at 9-ish and go back to sleep.
Next thing I know...
*pound pound pound pound!!!*
What the freak?! Then I hear, "Call your mom...call your mom."
Excuse me?! What the hell is going on? Somehow, I managed to squeak
out, "Who is this?!" It was my damned neighbor. Um, ooookay. So she
tells me again to call my mom. And I'm thinking someone died,
okay? I thought someone died or was sick or in an accident....
I rush out of bed (damn) and dial my mom. And do you know what
she says? Do you know?!
"You have a job interview."
"What?!"
"They want to talk to you right now."
"What?!"
I begin to swear under my breath at this time...
Okay, so you get the point. Geeeesh, I mean, come on!! Did I need
all this drama? Uh, NO! So then I started yelling because everything
was just so stupid to me at that moment...still is. And my mom got
mad at me for being 'ungrateful.' Haw. Whatever!! I mean, really,
did she need to call the neighbor and get her "involved." I
think not!! And! My mom told the job man that I was sleeping.
Okay, great, just RUIN my chances for this job before I even open
my mouth....
So fine, I call him up...my mom had said this was a phone interview
but NO! I called him and he wanted me to come in for an interview.
Nice. There's no time for anything, so I scramble to get ready and
go over there.
The interview was pointless. He didn't even ask me any questions and he
didn't give me a chance to talk, pretty much. I guess he just wanted
to look at me, or something. I sat in there for a whole freakin'
30 minutes though. Definitely not fun. But, Ha Betty, I have
a job. So I still get the car. HA HA HA!! And now you
can sheaddup about the car because I need the car
for my job! HA! :-P Mine mine mine!
*whispers* Aren't older sisters great? Especially mine...she goes to
my page, even. Haw.
And so, even though I'm like 'happy' for my job (I start tomorrow) and
I'm definitely happy that I have the car..I'm still pissed off
at this morning and how things went. I mean...come on!! Come on!! It
was just freakin' ridiculous! Argh!!!
(June 25) One year to date
I met Tinky babes and Sarah Jayne on this very day! Awwwwwwww. *hehe*
*hugs both* :-D
No job in sight, folks....but I'm not sure if I want to work because my parents
just brought up a tentative trip to in August. If
I'm working then of course I can't go. So I no wanna worky!! *LOL* That's
about all going on here. I'm gonna make my dadda buy me a scanner this week
too. Weeeeeeee. *hehe*
claireluv@hotmail.com
