July 2, 1998 - July 21, 1998
July 2, 1998 - July 21, 1998
July 2
Okay, I'm on my last day working "upstairs." I'm not totally looking forward
to working downstairs again because I just didn't like the atmosphere..*snorks*
Oh well, what can you do. Well, I have another job offer, but this one pays
$1.50 less than this current job I have now. Which to pick? It's tough cuz
there are good points on both jobs. But I dunno. It's goo to know that I have
other options though, I don't like being stuck with something and not having a
way out.
The Fourth of July is this weekend and the State was gracious enough to give its
workers Friday off. So I'm gonna have a 3-day weekend. Yay! *heheh* I'm not
doing anything special on that day. But I'll be spending Saturday with my family,
those who are here...so just mah parents and me...and this other family because
we are going to the coast! Yeah! And I'd also like to spend some time with my
friends because my parents bitched all weekend and the beginning of this past
week that I went out too much. I haven't gone out all week! And I haven't talked
to anyone in days, people. Sheesh.
I redid my page, if you're a regular here, then you know what I'm talking about.
I was hoping to do the right code to get it so that your links wouldn't have
that annoying underline. But I gwess I did it wrong because the links on the
main page are very clearly underlined. *snorks* Whaeva. Haw.
July 3, 1998
You know what? I hate being let down. I just hate it. What's
the deal with people letting me down lately? It's just not fair.
Okay...my trip to the coast, to Westport. Cancelled. It was
cancelled last weekend too, by the other family going with us.
So my parents said this weekend. But then the other family
cancelled again. Great. Notice a trend? Know what their
reason was? "It's going to rain."
Hello!!! We are in ,
it freakin' rains all the time! Geeeeesh, people! So, that's that.
I ain't going to the coast. Screw them. *snorks* But they
said we could go over there for a dinner....hell no. I'm gonna
sleep for as long as I possibly can and then I'll try and sleep more,
or else go out and spend money or waste gas or something!
I went out for the first time in a week. Last Friday was a disaster.
And my parents bitched about everything I did...so I became a hermit,
to make them happy. Bahaw. They suck. I went shopping with Annie,
but she laughed at what I tried on because they were too big, pants
and a linen shirt. *shrugs* For once clothes are big on me instead of
the other way around. *chuckles* Then we went back to her place and
I stuffed myself. Nick and Danny came over, wanting to 'go somewhere.'
They always want to 'go somewhere.' Where? Anywhere. Oookay.
So we ended up going to the bay somewhere, but it was locked off.
Nice. So then we drove downtown. They are making Capitol Lake
smaller. Uh, sure. Annie had a dream about that so she was
disturbed and stood there for a long time looking at the grass they
put where the water once was. Nick and Danny got all pushy, gropy
with me....so I bit Nick and threatened to bite Danny, too. They both
stopped, the fools. No one messes with me and gets away with it.
All my friends know this..but they were being huge idiots tonight,
thought they could get away with it. I think not!
We went to Safeway because I wanted doughnuts, but, this is disgusting,
there was a fly in the doughnut case! *barfs* So then we
left there and went back to Annie's. She decided to go around her
neighborhood loop w/o pressing on her gas, just coasting. And it
worked pretty goo, up until the time she ran Nick's foot over. *chuckles*
We're coasting along at 3mph, or something....Danny jumps out of the
car and Nick decides to follow suite. He's a tall guy, about 6'4"...and
he couldn't unfold himself from the backseat fast enough. So Annie
just rolled over his foot.
He complained, the night was getting slow, so I went home. What a
boring day. This weekend is already sucking. The parentals did say
we could go to Westport on Sunday. But that's Sunday! And I
have sucky work on Monday. I really want to quit. I hate not knowing
how long I have this job. I hate the girls I work with. I hate
what I have to do for this job. I just hate it. And the other job,
makes my eyes bleed. I actually don't want to work at all, but do you
think my parents will allow that? I think we all know that answer.
Mmmm Hmmmm.
Allan's finally coming back from OZ. I say finally as if I really
really missed him. But I don't. Not as much as Annie...and one does
get tired of her missing him and stuff like that. So I think I'll just
let those two alone for a few days. My sister gave me the last part
to my birthday present, a Mr. Bean teddy bear. I just found out he
had a bear last week. It's weird though, my 19th birthday and I've
mostly gotten stuffed animals. I hardly have any room on mah bed to
sleep in.
So, now I'm agitated about my internet connection. It's ridiculous
tonight. My icq keeps disconnecting, my aim takes forever to connect,
and my internet is shitty! I need ethernet, or else pay for an ISP
because UW's server is worthless. It keeps me from updating and
rearranging my page...the "look" isn't quite right yet..and I have more
text to add in. And I can't do an mp3 search/download cuz that will
just kill everything. Right now I'm typing this up in Notepad....
later I will paste it into my Angelfire Editor, if it's working.
*snorks*
On an upside...I found "Get It Right." It's this program that you use
when you d'load your mp3's. It keeps them from getting cut off. And
I didn't know how useful it was until this morning....
I left my 'puter to d'load a few mp3's while I went to bed at 3am. I
was woken up at 6am because my dad came in and said that Mom tried to
make a call. So I was pissed because they messed up my saving process!
He was mad because he thought I'd been awake this whole time, and I
was mad because I couldn't see my saving status..so I just shut
everything done. I woke up later today and turned on my computer to see
if there was any sort of message. I reopened "Get It Right" and was
able to resume downloading! Isn't that great?! Not all servers
do the 'resume' feature. But it's still pretty damned cool. "Get It
Right" and "Uncook" are my salvation. *chortles*
I gwess I'm gonna stop now because this is turning into a negative
update and shit. Uh, whoops..*LOL* Let's see if my internet
connection dies!
July 4, 1998
Independence Day, a day where people can blow things up and hoot and
holler like goons. *shrugs* I spent the day inside, after that
cancelled trip...like hell I was going anywheres. My parents
went over to that family's house for the day and I could have gone to
the airport with Annie and Nelson to pick Allan up but I didn't feel
like getting out of bed until 3pm.
I went out for T-NBC and stuffed myself. Then I went online to check
for updates on my friends' pages. I found a few, which is cool. I
like to see progress. :-D And of course there were slim pickings on
icq because everyone was out doing something. *snorks* Oh well.
I haven't mentioned my cranes in a long time. You all probably think
that I gave it up, eh? Well, nope! I finished all 1000 of them two
weeks ago, I just never said anything about it. Right now they're all
sitting in a triscuit and wheat thins box. *hehe* I decided to
spend the next few hours painstakingly making ten boxes. Ten boxes!
It took the entire movie of Austin Powers to make the
pattern, test it out, and then make ten replicates. How nice. Well,
they're all done and I'm just waiting for the glue to set. :-D
Mailing them out will be another story. *chuckles*
My parents came back from that house and said the people there said
that we could go to Westport next weekend. Well, um, do you think it
will rain next weekend? *snorks* I said, "No." I'm really peeved at
them still, so I'm not going anywhere with them...not for a really
long time.
Still not looking forward to this job. They said something about
"training" me for the front desk, which is really hard. I'd rather
be set behind a desk and type or make copies or something. Like what
I did all last week. Now that was nice. Pleeeeeease don't make me
go back there. *whines*
July 6, 1998
Today is my friend Laela's birthday!!
I'm at verk, of course. This time I'm on a MAC compy. *gak* It's a bit disconcerting when I go to my
own page and see that it's all messed up. I guess that's what happens when you're on different
computers. But it sucks cuz I want my page to look the same on any computer! D'awwwww. *LOL*
Anyhoo, bawk to verk. They immediately sent me across the hall, which is goo cuz I didn't get lectured
for not 'checking in' last week. Bahaw. I'm subbing for this lucky woman who's at some beach
somewheres. The phone calls have been few, and for some of them, I feel like I'm apologizing for the
fact that I *am* a temp, so I do NOT know anyone here or what they are talking about. So, thank god
for the transfer button, cuz I transfer my calls to Jim. Well, the peeps end up asking for Jim as soon as I
start to say, "Well, I'm a temp....."
It's getting hot here again. I no likey!! But that prolly has to do with how I'm wearing a light
sweater today. The morning was cold!! But now it's all sunny and things like that. But I'm indoors
with the air conditioning. *hehehe*
I was talking with Laela around midnight-ish, which was when she reminded me of her birfday, she
said that she was going to see The Truman Show with her mother. I think I got an invite, but I'm not
sure. *chuckles* I'm not sure of many things these days. ;-P
Lessee, what else is going on? Well, not much, verk is slow, but I'm thinking of the money and I'm
thinking of my bed..and I'm thinking of someone too. *nudge* The only thing which would make
today almost perfect is if I were on a PC instead of this MAC! *LMAO* I gwess this is a goo enough
update for now. We'll see how the day ends...I have under two hours left! Weeeeeeee!!!
July 7, 1998
Today is my sis' birfday..she's old. *LOL* :-P
Know what makes me chuckle and cringe at the same time? It's when I'm driving. And it's either my parents or their friends...but they pull up behind me, or are in front of me, or are passing me
going the other direction....they think it's just the coolest thing. So they honk and wave and smile...and more than likely they shall call at home (if it's the friends) and tell my parents that they saw me
driving, as if it's some miraculous thing. *chuckles* But then if they DO see my driving they will also see how I speed and cut people off (not intentionally, I swear!!) and they can also tell my parents
that, which I no likey. *cringe* I would just like to be able to drive...and go to the store without seeing any of them. Is that so much to ask?
Another "funny" (funny, as in not really funny...haw-thing) thing the other day. I was trying to make a long distance call on my Sprint Fone card when they said they suspended my services?!
What the fish! So yesterday I got a letter in the mail saying they did that cuz of "the high and unanticipated use of this card." They just want to make sure that it's me making all dem calls. *LOL*
So I called them and they activated my card again. Yay! But my bill is huge! So I asked him about the rates they were charging me. I wanna dat dime! So he forwarded me to someone else, and they
put me on hold for like 20 minutes. So I hung up and called again and was put on hold for 30! *snortles* Oh well, I will call again when the bill actually comes.
And, cooool. Yesterday my page passed the 4000 mark. You like me, you really really do! *LMAO*
July 12, 1998 A Partial Week in Review
Haven't been updating lately because my computer access has been
restricted. *snorks* Will get into that in a sec.
Well, on Wednesday I continued working the "Express." I talked with
an interesting woman. And the first thing out of her mouth, practically,
was that her friend works as a whore. Pardon the word, folks.
*LMAO* She went on about that for a while, and then tried to sell me
some of her Mary Kay beauty products. *LOL!!!* She was only around
for the morning, though. "Express" was finally completed at noon. I
was exhausted! I went to sleep in the car during my lunch but people
kept parking by me and looking, so I went home. I went back to work,
and they sent me home! *eye roll* Geezus. I should have asked what
I was going to do after finishing "Express," but then again, I thought
I was going to sleep in the car and not go anywhere. So I went to see
Annie & Allan before she went off to work. Then I went to Ross and
bought a new outfit. Iya, Rebekah's Japanese exchange student was
going home Thursday and we were all gonna meet up.
We all went to Sharis and it was nice and all. Nick and Danny were
acting like morons. So everyone left the big table and went to the small
one, which is meant to seat three people. We had six! *LOL* The
night ended earlier than I wanted it to, but everyone was going home..
except for Nick and Danny and I wasn't about to go and hang out with
them.
As for Thursday, they sent me to yet another department. And I
was briefed by the head of that department, which is very intimidating.
My main duty was the phones. I spent the morning doing absolutely
nothing. In the late afternoon, I decided to do a real quick email
check. Everyone was busy at their cubicles and the head woman was
on the phone, door shut. I login and next thing I know, she's right
there! She came out from nowhere. And I got in trouble. *frowns &
scowls* I know I wasn't supposed to, but I was really doing nothing.
And even though I was yelled at, I still admired Judy's (the head
person) business ethic. So, fine, I spent the rest of the day doing
nothing. They're paying me for doing nothing. Haw.
On Friday, I checked-in upstairs and Marleen (checker woman) wanted
to "have a word with me." Um, okay. And she hands me this inter-office
memo about checking email and using computer for personal gain.
*Groars!* So, freakin Judy called upstairs and
on me!! And I got Lecture #2 on this topic. Ayi yai. Before I left
for the day I had it set that I was going to take a half hour lunch
and go home at 4:30. But after this? I was gonna feign sickness and
leave early! HA HA.
I spent the morning doing nothing, even though everyone was gone until
lunch for a staff meeting. I slept in the car again because I hadn't
been sleeping well at nights. I came back in and started on my sick
act. Judy was on the phone all afternoon, and only Lori noticed and I
got to go home. Yay! It was difficult to even look at Judy, knowing
how she went and did that behind my back. I spent the afternoon
observing her, everything about her..and wondered.
I went to Annie's work and talked to her for hours. Complained. Bought
us Taco Bell. *hehe* And then I went home. I laid around the house
until I called Annie again. The three of us (Allan included, of course)
rented As Good As It Gets and bought snack foods. The movie
was goo, kinda long....but then again I was tired. I went home after
1am. Missed someone...*nudge* But I spent the night in shapes and on
icq. Busy, and someone else(!) wasn't on....Ellen!! *Cries*
*LOL* Just teething! ;-) I went to bed at four-ish.
So then on Saturday, I actually did go to Westport! *LOL* Now
I know why I didn't like it SO much. It's a tiny town!! I was bored
after walking up and down the main street twice! And my parents and the
parents of the other kids with me were being really annoying. One goo
thing though..the other parents, they felt bad for cancelling out on me
those times before so they bought me all the food I ate there. *hehe*
The best waffle cone/ice cream and clam chowdah!! Nummy! Home in
the eve. A less than happy time out with friends. I somehow ended back up at
Allan's with just him and Annie, so I went home.
Today is Sunday and I just plan on moping and thinking ill thoughts
of work and the people there.
July 16, 1998
okay, well i've not updated for a few days now..mainly because of the
email fiasco last week at work...*snork* and also because nothing
has been going on. i've abandoned using the shift key at times
as well.... anyways, work is fine. the other day
they sent me to work in their other department on the other side of
town, which was fine with me cuz i got away from the witches i report
to daily. haw. and today i was upstairs with actual NICE people to
work with. it was very boring because the phones were slow and because
i pretty much did nothing at all except read old people
magazine and write my letters. oh and i also got my first paycheck
for this job...small, compared to what i'm accustomed to, but once i
get more hours. i'll be just flying.
it's too damned hot here, so i'm all whiny and complainy. i sure hope
they let me off verk a lil' early tomorrow. still hating work because
of the biatches there and how they handle matters and such. and
hey, they still hate me. and i hate them back. isn't this lovely?
also pissy about things
going on....how things go back to the old ways. what's the point?
nothing really changes if you do that. you spend your time
and energy on this...whatever-thing...and then it's gone all to waste
because things just revert back to the way they were. and i honestly
give up....for once i shall sit back and remain mums while this takes
its course..and knowing what i do about it all? it's gonna end in a
big ole fireball. and four words come to mind: i told you so.
the words, "again and again...etc," don't count. but i suppose they should.
just kinda shows you what i've been dealing with.
i guess that's it for now...my better judgement tells me i should shut
the fook up before i get into details. i think the heat is melting
my head....gnite.
July 18, 1998
Work. It's fine. I don't see quitting any time soon, but then again..
lately they've sent me off to work for nice people. Nice people who
let me go home early! Ha. And today I just spent the day watching
cable tv (Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Moll Flanders,
The Last of the Mohicans, and Jerry Maguire)
and waiting for my friends to call me out. Which they did,
at their sweet time..it was 9pm for crying out loud. Mebbe even later
than that, I don't really remember. I've not seen my friends in a week.
Geezus.
We went to Lakefair and walked around. Too many lowriders/losers,
hootchie girls and their wife-beater-tank top-wearing-boyfriends...
I ran into my sister there too. (she's home for the weekend) It was
okay, gave me some tix for rides, but we ended up giving them away too.
Then to Sharis, Mary Colleen was supposed to meet us but didn't. Her
brother was selling cigarettes at Lakefair. *LOL* I had to drive Nelson
home and on the way back I was guess I was tailing this character, so
he pulled that 'stop and go' crap with me. Whatever. You want to mess
with ME? As if! No one messes with Jeanny and her driving. But lucky
for THEM, my turn came up...so I gave them one final really close tail/
brights/combo and turned. What dumbasses. Thing is, I coulda used a
side street and got ahead of them!! HA HA.
The night was interesting, I'm glad I didn't put much effort into it
cuz it would have been wasted, in my opinion. I heard some good gossip,
though. *hehe* Gossip involving a net boy..really a man cuz he was 25.
Last year my friends and I hung out with him while he was in Washington.
Ken was okay. He bought me dinner one night cuz I was going too fast
for him to realize what he was doing. *LOL* He deserved it though,
he said he was gonna drive us to the airport to pick up Irina (Rebekah's
last year exchange student) but I ended up doing it..and it just sucked.
Anyhoo..I think that's all I'm gonna tell you about Ken.
Ahhh...but so many of my friends are getting married.
It's really weird! Kate went to two weddings. Played oboe at one..I
invited her to play at mine. *LOL* She's really good. And another
friend of mine is engaged...and she is a really weird girl, people.
This is like freakin amazing here..and I wanna see her fiance! *LOL*
Lotsa changes....
I was just remembering this billboard I read. It said, "Change is
inevitable. Growth is optional." I think many people need to grow up.
Myself included, of course...I'm not perfect. ;-) But people go on
about change and how you have to accept it. Well, no actually they
are the ones who should accept things and they should mature from
these changes and we, as their friends or whatever, should be just like,
"Um, yah, okay." Not in so few words, though. That's just what I think.
And the most valuable thing to a person is learning from their
mistakes. But I guess for a few people, they have to keep making
mistakes until it's pounded into their subconscious that they shouldn't
be doing this or that. And I guess I wouldn't be bothered at other's
trial and error, but it's just like hello? You can learn from
another's mistake too, so you'd save time making that mistake...but I
guess some people never listen. Outie.
1000
July 20
So you lucky people get two new entries in one shot. Angelfire's been
real mean lately, so I haven't been able to get in and save my
changes. *grrrrr*
Anyhoo, not much to talk about. I just wanted to complain about my
job again. Some more. Okay, so I come into work on time!
And I go over to the desk with the list of charge codes for my time
sheet. (I hate time sheets.) And the boy temp goes, "Have you talked
to Marleen yet?" I say no, because obviously I haven't..I'm standing
next to him with my time sheet!! *grrr!* And says he: Well, you
should do that. Um, duh? I know, okay? Geez, what's with all the
idiots here bossing me around? I know I'm the newest temp here, but
they don't have to be all hoity toity around me alright?
And then! I talk to Marleen. First I ask her some Qs about the hours
I verked on Friday and about the State reimbursing me for the gas I
use going to their various departments. And, goo news: She told me
to round up my :45 time to the next hour. *hehe* So I get a free
30 minutes. *hahah* Bad: She said it was apart of the job to go
all over the freaking county to verk. Haw. But!! She says that they
don't have anything for me to do, and the next available thing is
at.....*roar*...1:30!!! AHHHHHHHHHH! What the freak! You have me
come into verk and then send me home again. Nice.
She should have friggin called me to say that. But I *know* if I told
her that, next time? to call me before I leave the house..she'd say
that she doesn't know these things until she comes in in the mornings
herself. Haw. Biatch. So now I'm home and the connection is
behaving, once I get this update in I'm gonna work on another page I have
going. It should be done...um, later. :-þ
Oh, and more nasty. I went to Safeway because I still need a doughnut
with sprinkles!! And they had some..*drool* But then I saw...*drool
pause*..a big, fat fly in the display case! *ralphs* If you scroll
down to an older entry of mine, the one with me biting Nick, there is
a mention of a fly in that very same display/store! So I told the man
at the register and he said they knew. And they're still selling
doughnuts outta that?! *incredulous* That is one big, fat, freakin
health violation there, people. It makes me nauseous.
Oh, and it's Chunky's Birthday today. Only I don't know what to get
him and he hasn't told me so right now, he's getting jack. *LOL*
Oooookay. I went back to verk and I was only there for two hours and
then they sent me home. LOVEly. Why didn't I just have the day off?!
*grrrr* But! At least I talked to the woman and she said that
she would call me tomorrow to see if there was anything to do. Bahaw.
Why didn't she do that today?! *whines* I haaaaaaate this.
July 21, 1998
this is freakin ridiculous here. okay. so yesterday they said that
there was nothing for me to do for them..but that they usually get
assignments at 7:45. okay, fine. so i almost wake up around that time
and stay up until 9am. no call. fine! i get ready and stuff and leave
the house for a bit...errands, yadda yadda.
i come home and there are two messages on the machine. neat. we hardly
get messages during the day time like this, so i know it was work-
related. and it was. the first one was saying that i'm gonna do the
front desk today from 1-5pm. okey doke. the next was my mom saying
to 'wake up.' haw. as if her message has some power over me to wake
up? even though i'm already up? so if she's thinking like that, then
next time i am sleeping, a message from her ordering me to wake up
should work. *snorks*
i call the verk voman and let her know that i know...etc. and then i
call my mom and she starts bitching me out. and, get this! she told
me that she got the neighbor lady to come knocking on my bedroom
window again! *grrrrrr* what the hell? i mean, at least i wasn't
there this time, but come on? *throws hands up in frustration*
i get a quick bitch fest cuz mom has someone else on the other line,
so i go and begin getting ready for verk...she calls again. more
bitchiness. WONDerful.
verk. i couldn't find a parking place. even better! justin/bossy
boy temp who's sitting at the reception desk goes, "have you talked to
marleen yet?" i said i talked to her before i left the house. he
says, "well, you're coming in at noon for the rest of the week, not
1pm like before, okay?" what the hell then, why didn't marleen tell
me that? they're always messing with me here, i swear. GRRRR!
the four hours i spent there were so long. i called mom to tell her
i parked in a reserved spot in the garage, so she said she'd move it
to the annex parking lot. cool. come the end of the day, i make
the trek in the heat to the annex...to find: no car. great! i end
up walking all the way around her building, which is big..and all the
way down into the garage. so i just wasted like 10 freakin minutes here.
i find her just sitting in the car.
i tell her (angrily) about how she didn't move the car. and that
spouted into another last-monday-morning-fiasco. great. let's see
how many times jeanny can make her mom go psycho this week! she cried
and moaned and groaned and said i was an awful daughter/person. and
i sat there and took it. how loverly.
seems all my days just suck ass lately. i "make" my mom get all nuts,
my job is ridiculous....i'm not freaking 'on-call'..okay?! jesus.
so they (verk people) just expect me to be sitting and waiting for
calls. how friggin unfair is that?! *roars* and right now, i'm
feeling like i'm melting, it's so hot...and the Rx i'm on makes
me feel all weird. *urrrrr!!*
*melts into oblivion*
claireluv@hotmail.com
