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A rose so red you can see its beauty
A small sniff of its scent
And you can imagine your dreams
In your head they become realities
Although in life they are still mere thoughts
Specs of reality that hold no light
To watch one grow would be a challenge
To see one cower would be a bewilderment
Just to hold one in any form
To feel its power
See its emotions
To feel my own
I want its peaceful life
Its beauty
Its steady growth
To have its thorns released
If I could just find someone to help me release them
To cure my pain
Solve my fears
To feel my wounds and allow them to heal
To cry to with my problems
Someone to be there
As I would be for them
A quiver of darkness
I know not who it is
We will one day discover each other
I feel we already have
Only we don't realize who we are
A candle - it burns in the darkness
Until it becomes darkness
A friendship though
A true friendship
Will burn for all eternity
I sense this heartless creature
Sitting all alone
He feels for you and I felt him too
He hungers for your touch
To feel you within himself
To sacrifice what was once saved
For it is lost forever
Creeping up toward you
Luring you to his lair
Intriguing you with his brilliant contraptions
He tells you stories
You sit
You listen
You're believing him aren't you?
Vulnerability shining through
He knows your weaknesses
He knows your fears
Bounding now toward your heart
He lashes out and tears it apart
Ripping through it senselessly
His primal instinct still intact
You're hurting now - like never before
He's done this before
Said he was sorry
You believed him didn't you?
Felt it was true
And now you lie, torn apart
Wondering if he meant it then........
Wondering if he means it now........
The heavens above
Have something in mind
For the man who walks alone
And is blind
He talks to himself
And prays to those above
He wishes
He wonders
But still he cannot see love
I look into my own two eyes
And see a world full of confusion, vagueness and love
I don't know how to express it
But I know the world has grown bigger
Or am I getting smaller?
To cower
To whimper
Then I am smaller
Don't resent me when I am small
Don't hate me when i am small
Just accept me the way I am
Like the way I accept you
A pint of pixilated pixies
went picking pink petulias
petite in size with large protruding eyes
they plodded along persistantly
Weak people push
Whilst cowards whimper
Under their 'power'
Push the weak
Toward the strong
And watch them turn into the cowards
Whilst the cowards
Observe the weak becoming weaker
They now become the strong............
Can you read between the lines of this madness and insanity
And discover who you really are?
Or are you unwilling to reveal yourself to the world?.........
Or to your soul
Do you ever look into yourself?
Have you ever wanted to?
Perhaps you're afraid of what you might see
To look and see everything you are against
Everything you hate
Everything you wished you weren't
Do you fear being different?
Do you envy those who are?
Do you wish sometimes that you were someone else?
Sadness is not to be feared
For it is an emotion and nothing more
Accept this as it is and realize many things later in life............
It's funny isn't it?
How love seems to prevail over
all that tries to destroy it
No matter how hard it is tampered with
The love still remains
Growing stronger
And growing passionately
As though it were a flame
Bright and glorious
Yet quiet, peaceful and full of beauty
No force on earth can destroy the beauty of that flame
Nor could anything destroy our passion
Our thoughts
Or our love..........
Piggy is cute
Piggy is pink
Piggy is you
And piggy is me
Pink fluffy pig
With a blue vinyl chair
Velcro on his toes
And velcro on his knees
Keep him in time
He commits suicide
Not enough love
Convinced him to crime
Hooked up on drugs
No one's around
Snorted up some speed
And piggy went down
SQUEAK!!!!!!!!
Dare I love with this heart again?
Dare I take you there with me?
Even though we are miles apart
You are the only one I wish to see
The only one I want to have with me
I think about you all the time
Feeling your presence in the night
Take me there........ where you are
Surely life isn't meant to be this hard
I wake every morn and think of you
I feel your thoughts thinking of me too
Why can't you be here?
It's your soft whispers I'd love to hear
Your soft touch on my face.......
Laying in your warm embrace.......
It's so hard this way.........
Please let there come a day..........
As I lay my soul to take
I wonder if this day I'll wake
For inside me I am full of pain
My soul it is feeling slightly stained
And as I lay there in the darkness
I feel him there, like a soft caress
I close my eyes and see him there
In this place we made together
Our hearts intertwined like woven hair
Everything inside ourselves we wish to share
In the darkness................ I feel him there
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
Her heart, for him, burning fast
Hoping he won't turn out like the last
She's loving him
Completely from within
She needs to know nothing more
Except the fact it is she, the one he adores
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
Knowing he loves her more than his own being
It is he in the morning she wishes to be seeing
To be held strongly in his arms
Protected completely from all harms
To be covered softly with his kisses
It is he romantically that she misses
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
She wonders why it is they lie so far apart
For everything they've shared, lies strongly in their hearts
To be one together
Would trully be a pleasure
To be with each other forever in life
He to be her husband, Her to be his wife
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
Yet still she lies alone in her bed
Wondering what it is he is thinking in his head
Closing her eyes she feels him there
A soft wind blows through, as though he is stroking her hair
She opens her eyes and looks into the darkness
Feeling him there and imagining his soft caress
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
It is he who inspires all of this
He who leaves her in complete and total bliss
He in which she cannot stand being apart
He in which she holds close to her heart
To her he is a creature that is purely beautiful
And just once to be in his presence would be more than pleasurable
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one that she seeks
If ever there was a moment she could steal
It would be with him, only this time it would be real
If ever there were a moment she could drink
It would be with him in lip synch
And,oh,if there were a moment where she was above
It would be whilst they were passionately making love
Tears
They run down her cheeks
Each one for, he, the one she seeks
Lying alone again in her bed
More lonely tears ,forhim, she sheds
She closes her eyes and there he is
Together again in this sweet, yet lonely, bliss
Feeling his words right there in her heart
Why ,she wonders, it is they lie so far apart
True love like this could never be wrong
This is what reminds her that she must remain strong
Her eyes still closed so that with him she stays
Hoping she won't wake so then he'll never go away.....
Life is a cruel, sick joke
Seeping through my body
Making me so sick
I almost begin to choke
Floating on this morbid cloud
Hoping I will one day wake
Then realizing just how cruel,
and sick this joke really is
Feeling my heart and my soul
Growing black with pain,
cold with reality....
One wish I have within me
To sleep away this sick, horrid world
And awake in my immortal dream,
my immortal paradise where I belong
To be at one with mother nature,
And her rich beautious earth
To reap in the one thing,
I could never, ever sow.....
happiness....
Awake me from this cruel, sick world
Or else leave me to dream,
and awake in my immortal splendour.....
A seed in me was implanted
It should have made me feel enchanted
A lack of love to create this sensation
Left me alone with no explanation
I felt I had nowhere to run
Like I was the punchline to a pun
The sower of this loveless seed, had left me in the lurch
No one could be bring me my salvation, not even the 'holy church'
Left alone quivering in my own fear
Nothing left inside me, not even a single tear
I had managed to fertilize this seed
Something denied to many... And accomplishment indeed?
So I gather up my courage, I gather all my strength
I go into a room, and sign my seed to sudden death
I wait inside the little room, feeling naked... alone
I look around, everything kicks in, then I'm in another zone
As I laid my soul to take
I hoped that day I would not wake
Hoping this dream would magically end
Never wanting to see what comes around that next bend
But ,alas, I wake all cold and empty
Something has been removed from my soul completely
Never again can I get it back
Part of my soul has been left pitch black
I ask myself 'What am I looking for?'
As I collapse in a heap of tears on the floor
Whatever it was I have lost it forever
And I shall mourn that loss, with that something, forever
So now I wander, a little more empty
A little less care free
Now I roam the world as I did before
Wondering if ever I will understand my inner core......
Sadness seeping through her brain
'looks to me like we're in for dismal rain'
Must give her earth the time to reconcile
'yet I can feel my soil crumbling and becoming vile'
The stench of suffocation almost as strong as her pain
'how long must i wander through her with this stain?'
And why must her self hatred still remain?
'do I dare urge myself to complain?'
And with a soft blow of the wind in her hair
She felt him there.....
'I shudder and cringe, open my eyes and he is nowhere'
She looks around now a feeling of discontent
'I feel myself wanting to erupt with repent'
She stops me
'Do I feel resent?'
She cradles her roots around my soul
'I crawl back down to my dark, lonely hole'
She sings me a song to help me sleep
'yet all I can do is quietly weep'
She begins to slightly fade
'but I dote on her as though she were my loving maid'
And together we stay in my mind
'Me oh so loving and her, oh so kind'
I hear the war cries of a broken heart
Those blood curdling screams tear me apart
A pained silence lies deep within my soul
Perhaps it is now that life's lessons are taking their toll
Pain pulling at my strings
Sorrow launched into my heart
A grappling hook of despair sliced straight into my sternum
Chasing everywhere to give you, your comfort
Searching every realm to release to you, your sanctuary
Attempting to catch for you, your peace
Only now realizing I'm not as fast to chase as I thought
I've not got the attention to detail within me to really look
That I've ben trying to catch things with a hole filled net
Never thinking once just to simply be...
Trying desperately to make everyone so happy....
Never realizing what I was doing to myself....
Never thinking what could be happening to you...
Reaching so far to touch you with comfort
Never seeing how far away I trully was
Stumbling about in my own darkness of naivity
And never thinking once to light up that darkness
I've rammed myself into a wall of reality
Sitting on top of it looking down upon the recent past.....
How terribly stupid my actions, my attempts to make you happy really were......
I tried so hard...
Maybe too hard to see what I was trully doing
It feels like I cannot quench the dryness of this pain
I was in one of the most intricate maze's of mu life
And even now I'm not at the exit
I've simply gotten past a hard bend....
If I threw myself backward I'd just keep falling and falling
AT first it appears blissful
Then a little strange
~looking around~
Where am I?
~It feels weird~
Then unusual and unsettling
If I reached out would anything or anyone hold onto me?
It's cold...
falling, falling
It's dark....
still falling
'feel the warmth of your strength'
turn that light on
floating
Reality punches through
Land hard on the floor
It hurts unbelievably
curl up in a ball and shiver
'I'm here with you..... always'
look at yourself
'Who are you?'
I should know this answer shouldn't I?
'You already do...'
Do I need help?
'Do you think you do?'
I... don't know...
'Embrace who you are dear one....'
It seems hard to do
"I'll help you.... take my hand'
Okay....
Together, hand in hand with her soul,
She walks along now....
Where will it lead?
She'll know when she gets there
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