Title:Here We Go
Part: Three
Category: P/J
Name: Erin
E-mail: RinnaJJ@aol.com
Disclaimer: I am in no way associated with Dawson's Creek or characters or the actors or anyone who is at all involved with the show. Kevin Williamson and the WB own everything : (
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Dawson was sitting at their usual spot with Joey and Jen at their usual lunch table in the cafeteria of Capeside High the next Friday.
Notes: Sorry this part's so short, the next one's long to make up for it.
"Joey? Are we going to do movie night tonight?" Dawson asked Joey about their ongoing Friday night tradition. They had skipped it last week in lew of all that had happened. "Jo?" Dawson asked when she didn't answer.
"Hmm? Oh, sure. Jen, do you wanna come?"
"Yeah! That'd be great." Jen answered excited that she was going to be part of one of their rituals.
"Hey, you guys seen Pacey around? He should come." Joey asked, oblivious to Jen's excitment. "I haven't seen him since English 1st period and he's been the last person in and the first person out all week. I haven't had a chance to talk to him at all."
"I have a few classes with him and he's the same way there too." Dawson commented.
"Nope, I almost never see him in school, I haven't laid eyes on him since last Sunday," Jen explained. "He can't keep avoiding us. He can't bear the pain alone." Joey, Jen and Dawson had spent the last week depending soley on eachother to get through their grief. They had talked through their feelings about Andie and death and they were begining to heal.
"I know I'm worried too. I can't concentrate in any of my classes." Joey said. "Either I'm thinking about Andie or I'm worried about him. I didn't take my eyes off of him all through English." At least when my mom died I had Dawson. Pacey doesn't seem to want anyone around.
The bell rang and they slowly packed up their things and headed for their classes.
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The final bell rang and Pacey bolted out the door to try and lose Dawson in the croud. He and Dawson had biology together last period. Once he was sure he had lost Dawson, he left the school and headed for the only place he knew of to wallow in his sorrow . . . the ruins
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Pacey became so caught up in his mourning he never noticed the beautiful girl with dark brown hair follow him out onto the sidewalk.
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Jen and Dawson got tired of waiting for Joey to meet them on the front steps. She was a half hour late. They decided to go to the video store without her. It was Thriller night so they chose Halloween H2O, Disturbing Behavior, and Urban Legend.
At 5:45 they were still waiting for Joey and they'd called both her house and the Icehouse, she wasn't at either place. "I say we wait 15 more minutes then start watching Disturbing Behavior. She'll just have to be sorry she missed it." Dawson said.
"I don't mind waiting, it will give us a chance to talk." Jen turned to face Dawson.
"About what?"
"Whatever. With all this Pacey and Andie stuff, everything else has been moved to the backburner. Like things with your parents and you and Joey. Just stuff."
"I see what you mean. You first ,what do you want to talk about?"
"How are things with your parents?"
"Dad's still gone and not showing any sign of returning and time soon. He comes around every once in a while. We do a Monday night sports thing every week. Mom seems to be coming to terms with it all. She's been feeling kinda sick lately."
"Do you think she might be pregnant?"
"It's a possibility, and I'd be lying if I said it hadn't occured to me. I just wish she'd talk to me about it." He paused, "What about you? How are things with your parents? Have you talked to them lately?"
"Yeah, a few days ago. This whole Andie thing has me kinda weirded out. I wanted to talk to them and let them know how I was doing. I was hoping maybe that I could go and stay with them for the summer. But my father wouldn't even talk to me and my mom said they were still trying to recover from the last time I was there."
"I'm sorry, Jen."
"It's okay, I got my hopes up, it's my own fault. Besides I can't think of leaving you guys now, not with Pacey still the way he is. It wouldn't feel right to leave when he's not talking to anyone."
"Summer's still five months away." Dawson pointed out. "It's hard to believe. So much has happened in so short of a time." Dawson changed the subject. They agreed earlier not to talk about Andie or Pacey. "How are things with your Grams?"
"Same ol' same ol'.'If you need help, God is always there to listen.'" Jen mocked, "But seriously. She's a little more lenient these days. I think she's starting to approve of my choice of friends." she paused. "My turn, let me think . . ." She pretended to think about it, but she knew exactly what to ask. "What about you and Joey? How are things between you guys?"
"Me and Joey? Nothing we're still best friends."
"Do you love her?" Jen asked bluntly. She wasn't going to bother to beat around the bush.
"What! Of course I do."
"Well, then what's stopping you? Jack's been out of the picture for a while now." Jen held her breath, hoping Dawson would tell her he didn't love Joey that way. Jen had never stopped loving Dawson, but breaking up with him had been the right thing to do. She couldn't be with him and constantly worry that his heart belonged to Joey. She had hidden it well.
"I don't know, something has changed, that's all. Once I figure out everything then maybe we'll get back together, but from where I'm standing, she doesn't seem to want to get back together. Frankly, I'm not sure I want to." Dawson confessed. "But now isn't exactly the time to discuss it with her."
Jen released her breath and smiled. It wasn't what she'd hoped to hear, but it was better than the alternative. "Let's start the movie. I think we've done enough bonding for today."
Dawson looked over at Jen as she started the movie and was struck by her beauty, as he always was when he looked at her. "It's okay Jen. Maybe Joey and I were never meant to be. Nothing ever seemed to go right for us." Dawson said grimly. "Maybe I should give up."
Jen wanted more than anything for Dawson to be happy . . . with or without her. "Don't give up until you talk to her. Maybe you'll still work things out. You still have plenty of time to decide what you want before you talk with her." Dawson nodded as the previews began to play.
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Sorry all you Jen haters, I like her and in my story she's a good worthwhile person. Please send feedback, do you hate it, like it, what do you think should happen. Anything.
