Rating: PG13 not appropriate for those under 13
Spoilers: none
Contact: Klowie84@aol.com
written by: Jen aka Chloe
Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine, I wish they were, but they belong to the WB, etc..etc..etc. So..don't sue me, I'm just having fun.
The Rape
Part 1
Joey, gets off the bus and is crying...she starts walking fastly, but not running. As she is a few blocks from her house, she realizes she can't go home. She can't face Bessie yet...not yet. So she finds herself walking to the boat, and gets in. As she starts turning the oars and gets going into the water, the screen fades into the opening.
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Joey is off the boat, and having calmed down a little is walking to the part of Dawson's house where the ladder is. She starts climbing the ladder, and over hears Dawson and Jen's conversation. All of a sudden she jumps down the ladder quickly and starts running....
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"So, what is it Dawson, I know you have feelings for her. What are you going to do about it?"
"Jen..you-----"
Interjecting, "No Dawson, I know this isn't fair...to either one of us. I'm not going to go through this...either you want me, or you want Joey."
"I can't pick, I don't want to hurt any of us. I don't know what to do Jen."
She starts toward the window. "I'll give you time to think...you know where I'll be." As she trys to step out, he grabs her wrist. "Jen..."
"Goodnight, Dawson." she steps out the window and vanishes.
Dawson doesn't move to the side or anything, he just falls back on then bed, and puts his hands over his face.
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Joey, standing outside the movie store, looks in the window at Pacey and wonders why she's there. Not knowing what to do, she walks in the door. The bell on the door jingles as she enters.
"You look like hell...." he says looking at her tear stained face, and ripped up dirty clothes.
"Don't start with me Pacey. I don't know why I'm here....maybe I thought you could
be serious for once, "Listen, Jo...I'm sorry. What's wrong?"
"I don't know if I'm ready to tell you, tell anybody." She lowers her head.
"Take your time, I've got all the time in the world for you." Her head rises...and she
gives him a VERY partial smile.
"Thanks, Pacey...I need it."
"C'mon, I'll lock up the store, and we can go to my place. Deputy Dog has the night
shift at the station....and no one else is home."
She doesn't say anything.
"If you want to...I mean."
"Hold it girl, explain the sob story to me when we get there."
"Ok. But one thing about all this...."
"Yea..."
"You cannot tell Dawson any of it....under pain of death."
"Ummmm okay Jo..I understand. You'll tell me why right?"
She doesn't answer him. They get into his car, and they start driving.
The screen fades...and goes into commercial.
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The Rape
Part 2
There is a knock on Dawson's door.
"Go away..."
His dad, behind the door, opens it, ignores his son and walks in.
"What's wrong son?"
"My life."
"Do you want to talk, or do you want to be left alone."
"I need help."
"Tell me what's wrong."
"I have to pick whether I want Jen, or Joey."
"Joey? I thought you were just friends."
"I have more feelings for her than that. And I think she does too. Dad....I can't pick
one of them, I'll hurt someone."
"Well, you have to think, who do you have more feelings for, who can you count on,
who you can trust." He lowers his head...obviously thinking about his wife, and the affair.
"Joey's my best friend...and I don't want to lose that. But, I couldn't possibly live
without Jen. I'd see her everyday, going out with other guys...rubbing it in my face. I
couldn't take that."
"Then I guess you have your answer, don't you Dawson?"
"I guess so. Maybe Jo doesn't even know that I have feelings for her, and me and Jen
can just forget that I do. Thanks dad...I got to go talk to Jen." he says trying to get his dad
out of his room so he could leave.
"I get it....I'll go now."
He climbs out the window very quickly, and is out of his father's sight.
"They grow up so fast, don't they?" Dawson's dad says to himself and walks out of the
room.
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"Joey, wake up." Pacey says slightly nudging her.
She had put her head down the minute that they started driving, and had been asleep
for the ten minute drive.
"Pacey?? What are you doing here? Get off me."
"Joey...Joey, calm down. Don't you remember where you are. This is my car, we're at
my house...and your going to explain to me why your so freaked out...by me, and
everything." he says in a calming voice.
He gets a blanket from the back seat and puts it over her shoulders. He helps her up,
and they walk to the front of his house. He has his arm around her shoulder....because
she's about to fall over. At the door he pulls out a key, and opens it.
"Go sit down. I'll get us some coffee."
She sits there silently for like 2 minutes, and he comes back with two cups of coffee.
She starts talking...slowly, and softly.
"Pacey.....I was raped tonight."
"What?? When?? By who???"
"I was visiting my dad in jail, and we were alone together in one of those meeting
rooms. I don't know why there weren't any guards....but he raped me Pacey.....he hurt
me."
She starts crying again, lifts one of her shaking hands and wipes the tears away. Pacey
moves closer to her and puts an arm around her, and she puts her head on his chest,
cuddles into him, and starts the hysterics again. "I'm here Jo, your safe now."
"Pacey, what am I gonna do? I can't tell Bessie.......I can't."
"We have to get you to a doctor and call the cops.. When we tell them....your dad will
NEVER get out of there. It makes me so mad to think that he could do this to you."
"If we tell the cops, and go to the doctor, they're gonna tell Bessie. I can't go
Pacey....it's ok, I'm fine now."
"You are NOT fine. Listen, your gonna call Bessie------"
"I can't Pacey..I can't."
"Let me finish. You call Bessie, and tell her your sleeping at my house.....(thinking)
we have to do a project or something. It's not a school night, so she probably won't care."
"I can't talk on the phone, can you here me? She'll know something's wrong."
He stands up and starts to pat her shoulders.
"You've just gotta calm down, Jo. I know it's hard, but you don't want anyone to
know yet, right?"
"What do you mean yet? I'm not going to tell ANYONE, Pacey. You're the only one
that I'm telling, and I want it to stay that way."
"But----"
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The Rape
Part 3
She pushes him against the wall and chokes him.
"Pacey, I'm warning you."
"I knew you had feelings for me.....here, come a little closer." he says cracking a grin.
She lets go.....the disgusting thought filling her head.
"Yea, you wish Pacey......you wish."
"That's right.....but it will never happen, will it?" he says, acting discouraged and
looking downward.
"Sorry, but no. You just keep on wishing."
Trying to get away, "I..I think I'll make us some more coffee."
When he comes back with the two cups of salvation for them both, they sip...and then
gulp, not wanting to talk.
Pacey breaks the silence, "The phone's right there.....call Bessie."
"Pacey....."
"Call Bessie, or do I have to?"
She reaches for the phone, and picks up the receiver, her hand and it shaking all the
while.
When Bessie picks up the phone, you can hear the baby in the background. Focus
stays on Joey.
"H...Hi, Bessie? It's me. I'm "What, Jo?? You've gotta speak up, the baby's howling. Bodie........get the baby!!"
"I'm staying with Pacey tonight. We have to do a project together."
"All right, Jo that's fine. Hey, is something wrong? You sound out of breath."
Answering very quickly, "What? No, nothing's wrong. I'm fine, Pacey's fine, we're all
fine."
Pacey interjecting in a very low voice, "Calm down Jo, your doing great."
"Well....ok, I'll see you soon."
"Bye Bessie."
"Bye Jo."
Joey hangs up, turns toward Pacey, and lays her head back on the couch. She turns to
lay sideways but notices that Pacey's sitting at the end of it, but doesn't care, and puts her
legs up on his lap. Her head lays on the cushion, and Pacey rubs her legs. They sit there in
silence, as the screen fades into commercial.
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Dawson knocks on Joey's door. "Joey, Bessie....anyone there????"
He knocks again, even harder. Bessie opens the door, with the baby in her arms. "Oh
hi Dawson. Joey's not here.....she's at Pacey's house doing a project."
"Pacey??? Bessie, are you kidding? Joey doesn't like Pacey, much less be with him this
early in the morning."
"She was there last night, and slept over. They must be working hard on that project
of theirs."
"Project?? For who? We don't have to do a project....well....I don't."
"Umm....she said it was for science.....I don't know what it was about though."
"Bessie, that doesn't make any sense....I have that class, and I don't have to do
anything. Maybe I should go over there, and see what's up."
"Good idea.....I'll drive."
She goes inside, puts the baby in the crib, and says, "Bodie, I'll be back soon!"
There is no reply, but Bodie just enters from another room, and goes to the door
where Dawson and Bessie are.
"Where are you going?"
"I'll tell you when I get back.....it's a long story. Love you."
She gives Bodie a little peck on the cheek and goes off with Dawson to her car. Bodie
stands at the door until they pull away and drive off.
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Pacey wakes up, and realizes that he is in the same position as last night. He has
almost forgotten what had happened. There was Joey, laying down, her legs on him, and
sleeping soundly. When he tries to get up, and move her legs off him, she stirs slightly, and
then falls totally asleep again like nothing has touched her.
She only realized she was alone when she smelled the coffee and bacon. Pacey heard
the scream from the kitchen.
"Paceyyyy...." she says tossing and turning with her eyes closed.
"Yea Jo, I'm here.....it's ok...."
“Where am I?? What happened?"
"You don't remember? You came to me last night, and----"
"Stop! I remember now. Oh my God, what time is it??? Bessie's gonna worry."
"You need to eat....and now. Bessie's not going to worry, because she knows where
you are....and that your with me, doing 'the project.' Nothing can go wrong."
"DING DONG," the door bell rings in the background.
"You sit here and get some breakfast, while I answer the door." He pulls out one of
the chairs for her, and she sits. He goes into the other room to answer the door.
The door bell rings again, and Pacey replies to it, " I'm coming, I'm coming."
As he opens the door and sees Dawson and Bessie there, he panics but stays calm.
"Hi Dawson, hi Bessie, what are you two doing here?"
"Where's Joey?" Dawson replies angrily.
Joey, hearing the noise at the door, goes to Pacey to see who's there.
"Bessie, Dawson? Why are you here?"
"There's no project, is there Jo?" says Bessie.
"Wh-what are you talking about? Me and Pace----"
"Joey, stop it," Dawson interjects, "How could there be a science project, when I'm in
that class......and I didn't get one?"
She doesn't answer, but she's looking down.
"Joey...." Bessie says calmly.
"Just leave me alone!!" she cries as she runs out of the room. Focus stays on the door,
where Pacey defends her.
"I'll get her, she just wants to be alone right now, so if you don't mind, I'll ask you to
leave."
"Pacey, I'm her best friend...."
"And I'm her sister, I want to talk to her."
"Well, you heard her, she doesn't want you right now. So I'll see you later, I'll get Joey
to call soon..when she's feeling better."
He escorts them out the door, and the screen fades into commercial.
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The Rape
Part 4
Pacey finds her in the kitchen, her head low and a tissue to her eyes. He approaches
her and puts a hand to her back, as she tenses up. "It's ok, Jo...no one's gonna hurt you
now...I won't let them." He starts rubbing her back.
Joey thinks, "Why is he being so nice to me? No one pressured him into it, I barely
treat him like a human...and still, he's here for me." The tears lessen, and her breath starts
to regulate.
He leaves her side, and goes to a chair across from her. "Deputy Dog will be home
soon..."
"He can't know Pacey....we have to go somewhere, anywhere."
He feels for her. For some reason, out of all the people she knows, she told HIM! The
person who she refused kiss for Dawson's movie, who she wouldn't do a project with to
bring his grade up...well, willingly anyway. He was going to get to the bottom of
this...questions needed to be answered.
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The car ride back to Bessie's seemed like an eternity to Dawson. Millions of things ran
through his head, and not one of them logical. He thought, "Why Pacey? Whatever she
told him, she could've told me...unless it was about me. But if Joey has those feelings I
think she does, then what am I supposed to do with Jen?"
He goes off onto another tangent. "What if she's hurt...and she needs help but won't
let anyone know?? And Pacey to trust of all people? It just doesn't seem right. Think,
Dawson, think...Joey needs you the most now, and you can't be there for her. You're too
hung up on Jen to even think straight."
Bodie is waiting at the door when the car pulls up. "Where's Joey?"
"Where's the baby?!" Bessie exclaims.
"Don't worry...the baby's fast asleep....so that leaves us time to talk. Dawson, why
don't you come in, maybe you know something that we don't."
"Sure.." As Bodie leads Dawson and Bessie into the house, and shuts the door behind
them.
"Sit down, Dawson.. we've got to figure this out."
"Well, all I know is that there is no science project. Oh, and do know that Pacey has
this *thing* for Joe---wait a sec...maybe that's what's going on here. Maybe Pacey and
Joey are getting together and for some reason she doesn't want to discuss it with anyone
else."
"Are you sure Dawson?"
"No, Bodie, I'm not...but it's a pretty good guess, if I do say so myself." He says,
sounding full of himself. "There are a couple weird things about that though...I thought
that Joey disliked Pacey, to the point of causing him bodily harm. Even if they were
involved...why would they want to keep it a secret? It's not like they're married and having
a wild love affair." Dawson shudders at the thought.
"Dawson, you're scaring me. I know you care for Joey as much as we do..but why all
the silly presumptions?" Bessie wonders.
"I do care for Joey, more than anyone on this planet knows. But I'm in a sticky
situation here, and this whole ordeal makes it even worse. Can I have your advice?"
Bessie and Bodie look at each other and nod to Dawson.
“What if you had to choose between your best friend, someone who has been there for
you for uncountable years....or the new girl, who makes your heart twist and turn every
time she's near?"
He automatically knows who Dawson was talking about. "Dawson...you have to pick
then, Joey or Jen. I know it sounds easy, but obviously you know it's not. I have
confidence in you though....you will make the right decision.
"Bodie's right Dawson. You are a smart kid..use your brain."
"Thanks Bodie. Thanks Bessie." Looks at a clock above. "Well I've got to get going..I
have to talk to Jen."
"Alright Dawson...good luck." The door slams behind him.
"Who knew....our little Joey has an admirer, and a possible love affair going for her.
Who knew?" Bessie gives a little giggle.
**After the commercial, we're back at Pacey's house.
"C'mon Joey...eat something. I don't want you wasting away on me."
Joey just looks up, grins and rolls her eyes. "I'm not worried about 'wasting away'
Pacey..."
"I mean look at you, don't get me wrong...you're gorgeous, but you're not exactly an
average weight."
"Me? Gorgeous? Pacey..you must be thinking of some *other* person..and I'm NOT
under-weight. I'm not gonna fight you on this either. I know myself...I'm right."
"What I see of you is gorgeous to me...whatever some jock doesn't see is his loss..."
"After everything I do to you, why are you still with me..helping me?"
"It's all very easy, my friend...I care..deeply as a matter of fact. And that you don't
even recognize me sometimes...just well....hurts me that's all."
"Pacey....I've been through a lot in the past couple days, and I rather not start
something now, on top of everything else. We'll discuss it another time..." She chokes
down the tears..trying not to show her true feelings.
"Alright..'nuff of this mushy stuff...just eat."
"Fine...fine...I'm eating." She shoves a piece of bacon in her mouth, an *un-Joey*
thing to do. She's thinking to herself while eating, "I'm so hungry....when was the last time
I ate? It must have been d..dinner with dad, that night." A tear goes down her face.
"Joey...what's wrong?"
"Everything's wrong Pacey..I was r-raped. My virginity as I know it is gone. My first
time, which was supposed to be full of love, and romance....was with my father, Pacey.
That's really something to brag about to friends."
"Jo.." He expects her to look up, but when she doesn't he takes her chin into his
hands. "Jo...do u *love* your father in a romantic sense?"
"God, Pacey....no."
"Then that does NOT register as your first time Jo...it wasn't out of love. It was out of
some need that sick man had to have satisfied."
"Pacey...stop. He's still my father....even though I feel this way toward him now. If
only my mom was here..." Another tear runs down her face.
"If your mother were here, she would beat the crap out of your father."
She smiles..."If she did....well, I'd just like to see that happen. But it can't...it won't."
"I know....I know...."
She looks down again, and realizes that she had eaten the whole plate of bacon. "You
must think I'm the biggest pig."
"Jo..you're never a pig to me....just a hungry gal..but hopefully no more..."
"I couldn't eat another bite.."
"That's good to here.... So, now do you want some clothes to change into? I have to
take a shower myself, if ya don't mind." He grins..
"Ummmm...do you have anything in my size, Pacey?" She smirks right back. "Why
would I mind if you took a shower..it's your house? The thing is if you would let me take a
shower."
"I'm sure I could find something to fit you. For now, I'll go take a shower, and you
won't be. It's not smart to shower after you've been...."
"You can say it Pacey...after I've been r-raped."
"Right...we have to take you to a doctor..so no showers."
"I'm NOT going to a doctor, Pacey."
"I'm not looking to force you, Jo..but you have to. Maybe if you tell the doctor that
you don't want to tell anyone, maybe they'll keep it confidential."
"Maybe..."
"K..so I'll go shower..and I'll be down with some clothes in a couple minutes."
"Sure...I'll just wait here." He walks upstairs, and out of Joey's sight. She just sits
there at the kitchen table, thinking.
*Episode's end*
