Allow me to introduce myself. My name, as you should know by now, is Staci. I am a 3o-something heterosexual male living somewhere in the New York metropolitan area. Recently, I was remarried to a wonderful woman who not only condones my transgenderism but helps me with my wardrobe! I hold a professional job in the transportation industry and, when I'm not working, have a few kids that keep me busy (and occasionally stressed out...). Oh, and I almost forgot... I am a crossdresser too.
With what little time I have left following work and parental duties (not to mention this website...), I have numerous hobbies and interests. These, unfortunately to my chagrin, often go neglected until the mood really strikes me. I enjoy building models and have been working on a three-foot version of the carrier Enterprise for the past few years... good thing I'm not a government contractor! I like role-playing games (gee...male CD....go figure), Magic: The Gathering, and lots of different computer games. I like to read alot and on varied topics: biographies; history, especially the Civil War period; science fantasy from Tolkien to Terry Brooks; action from Tom Clancy; and lots of scholarly stuff. I love the natural sciences, particularly vertebrate paleontology. Like every girl, I enjoy visiting museums, especially the American Museum of Natural History and MOMA. I have been active on environmental issues and enjoy ornithology. I also have a love for photography, which I've been pursuing for over 15 years.
As for feminine issues.... I desire to be trendy and fashionable in appearance and aspect, intelligent and not the 'trashy' look. I like dresses and skirts, primarily in the darker colors, and I do like a good pair of pumps, especially white ones. Foundation-wise, I like to dress in more of the 'confining styles'.... long-line bras, long-leg girdles and all-in-ones, for two reasons: one, they make me look slimmer; and two, I really enjoy the feel of it all underneath my dress. I wear pantyhose for ease-of-use and again my color of choice is in white, which does influence my clothing. I do like to accessorize with a string of pearls, earrings, bracelet... Recently I purchased my first wig, and then the package will be complete.
My goal is to look as complete and as realistic as I can for a typically sized male. I guess that I really want to experience what it's like being a woman while I "change over." Not that I want to do so full-time, because I'm happy being a man and I still love women, if you know what I mean! My goal now is to go out... to visit the Village again only transgendered and do some shopping, eat in a trendy cafe, maybe even get some stares from guys.... More on all this stuff later. Promise!
Of course, its not that simple. Everyone expresses themselves differently, whether they call themselves a crossdresser or transvestite or transgendered. Individual expression is, of course, what it's all about. To me, transgenderism is what it implies: transforming my gender. I am a crossdresser and I consider myself transgendered. When I crossdress, in a sense I am no longer the person I am but "become" Staci fully (hopefully) in looks, mannerisms, emotions... everything that I have identified as the female ideal. When I dress as a woman, it is for the express purpose of transgendering to an exclusively female persona, even if only for a few hours. Others may be perfectly contented in simply dressing the part, and that is ok too. But for me, the underlying desire is to emulate, as realistically as possible, the actuality of being female, of being feminine.
Transgenderism, however, is actually more than this. Transgenderism, whether realized or not, is something we as crossdressers possess... it is a part of our innate being. Each of us, whether we wish to admit or deny it, exhibits masculine and feminine traits to some degree on a daily basis. A better term that could apply, and one that I like, is transblended. I consider myself a transblended individual... but only to the extent that society defines what exactly is masculine versus feminine behavior. Yes, I cry at the end of romantic movies, yes I get easily slighted when friends don't call me or I don't get mail, and yes I do love the romantic aspects of my marriage to my wife. Does that make me feminine? I also like to play ice hockey, go backpacking and watch football... does that make me masculine? No, of course it doesn't. So, within the context of societal definition, I guess that I am transgendered, or transblended, and I don't have a problem with that. More on this later....
What's your opinion?
