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Mistress Saskia,
Firstly, thankyou so much for the incredible session that we shared seven days ago. The experience remained at the front of my mind for several days afterwards; its fair to say in retrospect that you blew my mind - and as I shall detail, my body has only just recovered.
I'll try to keep this short, but long enough to say what I mean - mostly for my own benefit, but if feedback helps, then here it is.
It occurred to me that the most important things about a session (perhaps one could say the same thing about many other things) is not what occurs at the time, but what you bring in, and what you take away - and the net difference. I certainly left a different person when I said goodbye to you.
How? I'm not sure.
I walked in at 10.15. You took my dignity, you took my pride, you took my ego, you took my bladder and my mouth and my body. And yet I walked out onto the night street more vital, more energised more essential than I had >felt in a long time. Stripped to the bone and rebuilt.
I was so impressed by the way you opened and closed the session. Took your time, got me relaxed, a glass of wine and some room to breath. Some time to explain, to generalise and to detail, to get comfortable and to psyche up. And then we began.
You must have memorised that piece of paper that I brought, because, looking back, i can think of only a couple of bases that weren't touched. And yet to your credit (and my relief) you brought in your own ideas, supplemented and expanded on my own fantasies, which is exactly the way it should be.
Its difficult to name what you want, because by communicating the desire, you lose the surprise that would have otherwise provided half the sting. Believing that your debasement is actually from another's imagination is a so much more thrilling experience than to just be played out through another's hands to your own instructions. So to be confident that a domme will understand the cues but fulfill way beyond expectations is fantastically reassuring. Both our imaginations are the most important tools at your disposal.
Something that's hardly ever mentioned is when things don't work out as planned. I guess its natural for a submissive to expect the dominant to be totally in control throughout a session. But things don't always stay where they should, or go where they should, or work as planned. I was amazed at how well you dealt with the situations that I found most unsettling. Strangely, not when I was at my pain threshold or at the limit of my endurance, but when I wasn't feeling what I should have been, or when a knot slipped off when it should have stayed for instance, things beyond my control. That's the difference between embaressment and humiliation.
I imagine that's quite an English trait.
If it is, then I'm glad you're Australian, you were cool, you just took it in your stride and got on with it in a way that was extremely reassuring.
I was amazed at the amount of pain you could inflict without leaving noticeable marks.
That electricity was incredible - I've never had that before, but I loved the fact that you could control the pain and its pace so accurately. Its a really great tool for an interrogatrix. The humiliation and degradation was more than I'd hoped for, you really took to me to my limits, and I had to call mercy. Its the first time I've ever had to say no and I'm really so pleased that you took me that far. To me, there is no point in a session that does not reach the limits, without finding the walls, you don't know how big your room is, so how can you know how to live to the extent of your means?
I was so pleased that I found you, and look forward to sharing another >extreme session at some point in the future, perhaps when I'm in Melbourne in the middle of April.
Where can you take me next time?
Thankyou.
Mark
London
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