Now Playing: shou fang kai
at last rite?
im never going to figure out in my whole life this thingy hw to use
wat the fuck
watever
had BBQ.
nw...
err... half tokin to julian on msn cuz he is also tokin to other 8pple
planning gf bdae party
haiz.
love?
has not found me yet
will?
dunnoe ba
going to quit red earth le
god bless everyone

Mood:  lazy
happy new year folks.
i know i tis few days a bit weird again.
the depression thingy w my grandma and all.

maybe i cant hold out any longer.
maybe maybe.

oh yar.
happy valentine's day

Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: ga chia
Qing bu yao guai wo¡­ it¡¯s not that I want to suffer the feeling of heartbreak again¡­ haha¡­ who do you think is so pervertic to like this kind of feeling ar?

I forgot to add. Yesterday there was something memorable which happened during the rehersal. You know the wen rou [huan wo zi you v] got a part where Ashin sing: wo gei ni zi you, wo ge ni zi you, wo gei ni quan bu, quan bu, quan bu, quan bu zi you!!! [den he starts screaming that part] rite? They rehersal, then Ashin not there mah. Den shi jie take his guitar and test for him lorx. He sing¡­: wo wei ni jia you¡­ hehe¡­ till now I still remember very clearly his voice in my head.

Juz uploaded the pics into my com. Ok lar¡­ muz agree that the best ones are those took during afternoon. Those took during the nite¡­ aiyo¡­ cannot be seen at all¡­. Waste all my effort. Might juz as well spent the time looking at Ashin more worth it¡­ haiz¡­ whatever.

Now¡­ they go back to Taiwan le¡­ this time¡­ actually quite less ¡°feel¡± than last time. Hehe¡­ really¡­ maybe becoz I went alone last time so¡­ the feeling is stronger¡­ not that I say going alone is better lar¡­ but¡­ I¡¯ll always rem wad they say, we are good friends, one big family together¡­ so¡­ seeing them¡­ like seeing one of your family members again¡­ for the first time, was to confirm that they was not juz a fantasy again¡­ they was real. And the next time¡­ more like seeing a very missed bunch of friends.

You may think I¡¯m mad, crazy or whatever¡­ but I think got many who really understand their music will feel the same as me¡­ they wei wo men jia you, we, in turn, jia you for them. Maybe we might not see them in real person everyday¡­ but, the ¡°feel¡± would be there with us. Whether they know it or not, I dunnoe¡­. But I¡¯m sure zhi yao wo xiang xin, jiu ke yi le.

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Mood:  silly
Now Playing: Ashin's voice... wo gei ni zi you!~
Juz came back from seeing MAYDAY. Brought yue rong along this time. Hehe… evil…

12.00pm: reach Fajar LRT station. Saw 3 mayday fans on LRT. Was hoping we were not that late… in the end was ok. Juz a bit of pple. All red of course. [WHY RED?: cuz Ashin say de mah… muz wear red, for chirstmas and Chinese new year. And ward off bad luck…] the pple in front… again the same lar… the fan club pple. They really hor… super arz. Save seat for 20 over people. Next time hope wunt sit very near them again. Hope they’re behind me… hehe… which is like… impossible. Hehe… whatever.

2.00pm: ice cream man come. Heard the pple in front say mayday coming for rehersal at 2pm…. Where got?!?

2.30pm [bout that]: see shi jie!~ rem him frm the last time? That “hungry” guy? Hehe… and the one who look like sly… I know wad’s his name le. Is “xiao hou” I think “hou” as in monkey. Hehe… wadever. Cute!~ shi jie again…. Yi fu chou lian. Wadever. But… they not hot de meh? Wear long sleeves during afternoon?

2.45pm [bout that]: I think they come le… got a white mini van… REALLY IS THEM!!! I see… MASA!!!! And stone… and… they both go up and test the instrument. All of a sudden everyone stand up… dot.. hehe… can see him really near. I think I saw yan ming! [cough cough] he wear RED~ hehe… but he go back and hide in the van again. Is Ashin and monster inside? Wadever. They play zhi ming yu chun jiao AGAIN. Haha… everytime test also this song. Only song shi jie know all the cords ar? Hehe… but this time the band got four pple. Hehe… shi jie took monster’s guitar leh! Where monster? =p den they got play the sun wu kong in front abit. Shi jie was saying that he oni know the infront how to play. The rest all dunnoe. He gao xiao lar… only know one note?! Den also got the du shen beginning. I think was for masa to test his bass.
But in the end the other two dnt turn up. I think they was not in the van also. Maybe at the hotel doing wad they like best: SLEEPING!~
Masa cute leh! Wanna go that time keep bowing [typical mayday] to us and saying he’ll be back later. Hehe… cute~ yan ming [cough cough] and stone totally disappear. Then we all rush to the behind. Backstage. Saw yan ming real CLOSE and masa also. The girl scream for yan ming to sign for her. He really did… nice guy… and becoz of this I got a really close-up take on him. He still make pose for us to take. Cute~ but the only NOT cute thing was he was smoking away. Ha. Dun let ma see this. Yan ming [cough cough] why smoke ar!!! The mini van number: 1090

3 plus: go back after all those excitement… haha… made friends with this three girls. They help us look after our bag and so me can go toilet… hehe… yi jun, jolleen and zuo en. Nice people frm TP. Hehe… [hi there! See this mgs me orh!]

5 plus: the RC people start asking us to make space for them so they can make out an area for the VIPs to stand. Then this uncle ask us not to got over the line… hehe… I told him let us see mayday den we’ll not go over the line lorx! Den he really said if we dun hav go over he’ll let us see mayday! Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!…………. hehe… make us all of a sudden so xing fen. Hehe…
7.45 plus: the concert start le lorx. Got lotsa other people like fan fan, cai xing juan, cai li lian, chou pi jian, ben yang shang bin, Jeremy yang jia chen, li shen jie, lin zi liang [I’ve got his poster!] the host is yuling and the… yang jun wei. Long time no see him le… hehe… miss his voice a lot.

At last, mayday come out lar.
That guy performing infront of them so poor thing ar. When he sing the song, everyone scream… not becuz of him, but becoz of shi jie and xiao hou standing behind, arranging the instruments. Den they start presenting the cheuqe of money to the MP or whoever. But mayday cute leh… saw Ashin, Masa and Monster peeping from the side of the stage.
Them really hor… shou bu liao. The DJ make us cream so long for them to come out. In the end when they come out all so… leng jing and cool. Dot dot… cant be more HIGH like us meh?
But… really… SHUAI~!!!
They sang sun wu kong, John Lennon, wen rou [huan wo zi you Version] (this become their trademark song le… hehe… more powerful than ga chia) , jue jiang… and… chao ren! Did I miss out anything?

Really… something till now is still on my mind…

HOW can Ashin be soooooooooooo white?!?!

Hehe… Watever. Continue tomorrow… no… sorry… later. Going to collapse le…

[0202] 16012005

more six hours and twenty eight minutes… Mayday’s gonna leave… hope that they’ll be safe and well…

Mood:  sad
Now Playing: yong bao

Maybe working life has starting to take its toll on me. I start having werid dreams…. Like… the heart beating faster… my face getting hotter…. When that guy hugged me… maybe it’s really lame… but… I really dreamt of it! Yikes! Really wanna be hugged… cant help but miss those… lotsa people around me… may, jiali, sk, a-kiang, jared, jun ting. Miss the noise, laughter and all… I was very blessed… was…. But now… time for me to endure everything by myself? I’m so afraid that I’ll break down. Miss… everything…. Miss jun ting singing tuo diao. Miss may holding my hand. Miss eating mee soto with yali. Miss hearing a-kiang’s voice. Miss staring at jun kai. Miss my 1A. miss… seeing him…. Even thought I saw him that day… I was so close… but yet so far… but glad I had the chance to see him again… thought I’ll never have the chance to see him again in my life. Haiz. Dot… miss… xiang nian…

Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: yuan ren [live V]
This tsunami thingy… came so suddenly. Juz a trip to KL and went we came back… got this type of thing happen. Haiz. At first in KL, everyday there switch on tv and see news bout this thing. At first tot was only in m’sia. Only after return to s’pore den realize how BIG this thing was. How much people died. Like grandma said. Heaven is calling all the people back. Juz look in this year… how many people were gone. Not only this year. These few years. SARS, war, bird flu, tsunami. More and more people dying. When it’s time, it’s time. No matter wad you cant run away. Now watching CNA and see so many people dead.
On the other hand. You see… thousands of people donating money… millions… billions… haha. So touching also. Maybe… we still got a heart. Though I know there are still so any partying during the countdown.

Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: qing gong
Shan wei¡¯s leaving wan yu. Now. I think he left during 2004¡­ the last day. Why he left¡­ I think only he truly knows why¡­ and I am sure he did not do it very willing¡­ coz he¡¯s awei. I think¡­ he¡¯ll rem his roots.
I¡¯m not going to say anything damm sarcastic. It¡¯s his choice. Juz wanna remind everyone that¡­ remember ur roots. Rem where you came from. Even when you are forced to leave it¡­ or when you have to.
Everything has to come to an end. I admit I¡¯m sad¡­ angry¡­ it will past¡­ yes I know. But are you really sure that the mental thingy will past?
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Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: zong jie gu dan LIVE version on TKZC
these few days all quite lucky cuz can get to see 56, wan yu, mayday, wei. saw wei on the kuai le shi zi hui. he orh... cry and cry... poor thing. saw all the times he kanna injured. and when on wan yu he kenna beat by ren fu till bleed that one... heart ache for him. and all he an lian de ren, the girl he an lian for whole primary school oreadi get married and going to have a baby. angmoh husband sumore. haha... a wei heart broken le... sit on the floor and cry.
saw wan yu TWICE. once is got shan wei and ren fu. same lar... they two... yuan lai... everything has not changed yet... though it will if wei going to leave wan yu by the end of the yr. WTA...
juz nw went and saw shao nian te gong dui. ren fu really huo gai. once he step into the ice area everyone go put lotsa ice in his pants. haha.
saw mayday on wan yu. now... they shd b having their final home concert in tainan now. wish that they take good care of their body... haven concert jiu all kenna injured le... haiz... i think y yan ming dissappear muz b becoz he go for the zhen jiu. haiz.
me monday going KL le... update soon.

Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: shi guang ji
Thought I’ll update in my blog rather than the multiply journal.

Yesterday went back to school for the briefing. Ya lar… me really miss that “white” a-kiang. Yesterday that one… err… look too strange and far away. Haha… wad toking me ar? Mei xiang dao, miss a person… and finally get to see him le… in the end have such a weird feeling. Maybe is my impression of a-kiang will forever remain at when he was in sec.5. when he stand in the sun and ask us help him do his Chinese homework… haha… dunnoe whether yinren and siew kiang got kiddat think or not… see how they laugh with him yesterday, I guess not lar… but at least for me… haha. That’ll be the a-kiang I know. The jie jie I had. Or never had. Whatever.

And yesterday jared suddenly mgs me and ask me whether Melissa got go for the camp or not. Me… haha, of cuz is surprised lar. I think he also dunnoe that I know lots bout him de shi. Him, junting and Melissa right? Of cuz I know… but still the same, I mgs him back why leh? Cuz… for him to say out better bah? If he dun want anyone to know… wo ye cant do anything mah. But he got tell me lar. At least, I hope he thought I was a trust-worthly person. Haha. Haiz… sometimes see they all… all love until so tong ku. Lyk jared. Lyk siew kiang. Lyk julian jie jie. Haha… on one hand will be thankful that I dun have to go through this. On the other hand… haiz… why I still dun have the chance to go though this?!? Haha… contradicting myself right? Wadever.

p.s. me yesterday fever like siao... now still brain not fully functioning...

Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: sun wu kong: shen de hai zi dou zai tiao wu AKA Falling angels with a flying soul
Hiya¡­ Since I have the time, might as well type lotsa rubbish.

Today, jiali come my house. She yesterday come back frm hong kong le. Which means yali yesterday few off to hong kong lar. Juz receive mgs that sk is also back¡­ on Friday. Haha¡­ juz lyk maybelline. Dint know that germany got lotsa castles. Ok¡­ then she came my house and give me see the twins effect II dvd. She so excited¡­ even bought the HK version of the twins cd. Yar lar¡­ there buy better. Cheaper and got more things. That¡¯s why I wan go Taiwan mah. Coz I go net check out the anniversary tee mayday got, with the big hand there that one, is Taiwan money $450, is bout $22.50 s¡¯pore money¡­ plus the air fare¡­ haiz¡­ I wan buy two, the black and the white one¡­ hehe¡­ when I work. I¡¯ll get it. I swear! Ok, jiali come den we watched the qian ji bian, which mostly was the mu hou thingy lar. Still pk lar, dint show much on chen bo lin mah. Den watch the tian kong zhi cheng [again, yar, I know]. Show her the funny stuff mah. The yan ming dancing the tian er hu and the ¡°hosee¡± and the masa sayin his speech.

In space->In love->Infinity

Now it¡¯s like¡­ every night I stay up till very late. Like 1 or two in the morning before I can fall asleep. Juz cant get asleep. Life is like¡­ meaningless¡­ not totally meaningless lar¡­ juz¡­ aimless. Day by day it juz pass. Everything vent on music.

Unless you want me to get back to the fakeyness in people lar¡­ but den¡­ sianx. Jiang tai duo hui rang ren jue de tao yan. The case with mayday is juz the same lorx.

Found out something cute. Mayday is actually a call for help, sumthing like S.O.S lar. Wu yue tian will have this name cuz masa. He go on ICQ wan use his name but it¡¯s oreadi been used mah, den he thought of a movie with the ¡°mayday¡± thingy. This is how their band name come from lorx. And why guai shou will become their band leader, cuz they cai quan, long jum pass, den he win lorx. So he is leader. Lame right? Dot dot man¡­ they hor¡­ and the other 4 can say why yan ming dun look the oldest in the grp. He like wearin bright color clothes, dun allow anyone to disturb his hair [etc, perming or coloring], and that he like to use scented oils. Dot. The others is like¡­ sometimes really cant stand them bullying yan ming. But it¡¯s really very funny¡­ haha¡­ but sometimes they¡¯ll get their retribution. Like guai shou on his bday lar. Being forced to wear the short with the ¡°wo shi se lang¡±. Dot. They really very cute arh.

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