Trying To Remember
by Hayley

Chapter Eight

Four weeks later

Faith woke up to the sun shining brightly through her bedroom window. She brought a hand to her head, trying to block the light from her eyes. She looked around the room, noticing her's and Buffy's clothes on the floor before looking back to the bed and the blonde herself.

The older slayer was resting on her side, facing away from her. The sheets only made it halfway up her body so her smooth back was on display for the brunette. Faith just watched her for a minute before turning away and sighing.

The last few weeks had been a whirlwind for her. She and Buffy were actually an item. They were going out on dates and hanging out together. Even better, no one had a real problem with it.

The same day the chosen two decided to try a relationship out, Buffy had called Xander and Willow over to the house and told them about her and Faith. The younger slayer just stayed silent while Buffy told the two everything and both of them took it surprisingly well. The redhead had a little harder time accepting than Xander but after a short argument with Buffy, she relented and gave the pair her blessing in a sense. The argument came to an end when the blonde slayer hinted she would choose Faith over her best friend, a move that shocked Faith more than anyone.

Faith had never been in that position before, one where she came out on the winning end. No one had ever chosen her over someone else. The brunette thought the conversation with the pair would be quick, ending with Buffy denying she felt anything at all for her, that it was all a mistake. She didn't though, and within a day Faith found herself in a relationship.

As far as Giles or Mrs. Summers went, the chosen two decided not to tell them unless it got very serious. They both didn't want to hear the lectures they knew for sure would come from their watcher and Faith knew Buffy was terrified at how her mother might react. They knew the conversations would eventually have to happen but right now avoidance seemed to be the best option.

Buffy had told her she was sure Faith felt the same way about her as she did for the brunette slayer. She just needed to get used to feeling that way and having someone feel that way about her. Every time they were together Buffy made sure Faith knew exactly how she felt about her. She treated her so special and it took awhile for the younger woman to get used to it. No one had ever done that for her before.

After a week or so, Faith started to love how Buffy treated her. She had never been around someone who treated her the way the blonde did, like she was the only person in the world. She slowly started to feel happy all the time and saw her life in a whole new light.

She didn't think about dying young anymore. Faith realized there was more to life than living from one day to the next and found thinking that way felt better than her previous life philosophy. It seemed Buffy was only changing her life for the better and the brunette found herself becoming happier and happier every day.

They didn't spend all their time together, though. They each had their own lives outside of being with each other, Faith's consisting of the occasional job and Buffy's revolving around her friends. After a day separated, the two slayers usually met up for a meal, either at Buffy's house with her mother or at Faith's apartment, and then went patrolling. That was now the favorite part of her day.

If the night was slow and the vampires weren't in the mood to play, the chosen two spent their time making out against a tree or crypt. Faith had tried to push it to be more than that but Buffy stopped that quickly, saying all the sex the brunette would get from her would be indoors. Faith really didn't mind that answer at all since she knew as soon as they got inside, she'd be getting some lovin'.

Faith also discovered that they didn't even need to have sex every night. As much as she loved fucking the older slayer, she like just seeing her now, too. After they finished slaying for the night, they didn't feel the need to go act on their post-slayage hormones as soon as possible. Instead, they either ended up at the Bronze let loose some pent up energy or to a diner just to get some food and talk.

She was actually able to let the blonde in and talk to her. Faith found that Buffy was very easy to talk to and that she could listen to the other woman talk for hours without even thinking about the time. That freaked her out at first, but now she didn't even care. She knew it was part of the fact that she was falling for Buffy.

Buffy only spent the night with her half the time even. They both knew the blonde's mother would start asking questions Buffy didn't want to answer if she spent all her nights at Faith's apartment so she just couldn't stay sometimes. The nights she didn't stay usually ended with a heavy make out session on the younger slayer's couch and Buffy struggling to get out the door.

When they did have sex though, it was incredible. Faith knew the older woman didn't have the experience she did, but Buffy more than made up for that with stamina and tenderness the brunette still wasn't quite used to when it came to sex. She couldn't get enough of the blonde and for the first time knew what it felt like for someone to feel that way about her.

Looking over at the clock, Faith saw that it was only nine in the morning. The brunette groaned as she realized she'd only gotten a few hours of sleep. After the pair got back from patrol, they'd fucked until nearly dawn before they finally went to sleep, exhausted.

Faith looked at Buffy again. The blonde was beautiful sleeping so peacefully. There was one thing they never really did that Faith now had the urge to do. The pair never cuddled. Buffy had told her that she tensed up whenever the older slayer tried to hold her while she slept and after the first couple times, she stopped trying. She had said Faith would have to be the one to initiate it next time.

Faith shifted closer to the blonde on the bed and gently ran her hand down her back. It still amazed her how smooth her skin was. Taking a deep breath, she slowly moved even closer and wrapped an arm around her. She pulled at Buffy a little and the older woman rolled over, her head coming to rest on Faith's shoulder.

The younger slayer held her breath for a second, the new position she was now in causing her to readjust to her surroundings. Buffy mumbled something and shifted so now she rested completely into Faith's curves with an arm draped over her stomach and her head still nestled on her shoulder.

It felt so good and Faith didn't realize this was what she'd been missing. She placed a light kiss on Buffy's forehead as the blonde slept and leaned her head back on the pillow.

The last couple days the brunette had been waging an inner war with herself. With each day, Faith had more evidence that she loved Buffy. The only problem was she still couldn't say it. No matter how hard she tried, the words just wouldn't come out.

In the last two days, and really most of the day before, she even began to practice just saying the words out loud when no one was around. At least, when she thought no one was around. She had been muttering it while she was working at a construction site and her boss overheard her. He'd laughed his ass off for at least five minutes and Faith blushed in public for the first time in years.

Faith was hoping she could say it now. She was sure the older slayer knew already but it would probably mean so much more once she could actually say it. She knew how good it felt when Buffy said those words to her. The brunette wanted Buffy to feel that, too.

She felt Buffy start to move against her just a little and Faith held her tighter. She pulled the sheets up to cover both of them and started rubbing the blonde's back, waiting for her to wake up. Buffy always slept longer than she did.

Buffy started to shift more and groaned as she started to wake up. Her hand started making circles on Faith's stomach under the sheets and her leg slid against the other woman's. Out of instinct more than anything else, she placed a light kiss on Faith's skin before realizing the position she was waking up in.

"Morning," Buffy greeted groggily, looking up at Faith, "sleep okay?"

"As always," Faith responded, pulling the blonde up for a good morning kiss. It started as sweet but quickly turned more passionate as their tongues began to dual in each other's mouths.

"Wow," the younger slayer gasped as they broke away, "that's always a great way to start the day."

"Yeah," Buffy sighed and snuggled into the brunette. "So . . . this is new." She gestured to their current position.

Faith shrugged. "Thought I'd try something." She paused. "It's nice."

Buffy laughed. "Just nice, huh?" She moved so she was more on top of her. "Was last night just nice?"

"No," Faith rolled so Buffy was now on her back and she hovered over her, "that was beyond incredible. I mean, wicked awesome." She rested her forehead against hers. "It always is."

The blonde's only response was to pull Faith down to her, giving her a heart-stopping tender kiss. Faith let more of her weight rest on the woman below her as she caressed Buffy's cheek with her hand. She knew she could say it now. She had finally found the strength she needed and the trust necessary. She finally made herself realize Buffy wouldn't reject her.

They broke apart and Faith rested her head in the crook of Buffy's neck. She placed kisses behind her ear as she felt the blonde slayer's hands go straight to her ass. She kept one hand resting gently on the side of Buffy's face as she whispered into her ear.

"I love you, B."

Faith felt the blonde still beneath her and she moved back so she could look down at her again. Buffy was looking at her in disbelief but a small smile was starting to form on her face.


Faith grinned. "Yeah." She softly kissed her. "I love you."

Buffy grinned back. "I love you, too."

Faith quickly found herself on her back again as Buffy flipped her over and began to kiss her hungrily. She put her hands in the blonde's hair and let the older woman take control. She was more than happy Buffy was reacting this way.

Breaking away from Faith's lips, Buffy licked down her neck, stopping to suck on her pulse point. The brunette moaned softly, feeling her fellow slayer's hand now massage her breast as she bit her neck gently.

"Fuck, Buffy," Faith breathed out, moving her hands over every inch of the blonde slayer she could reach.

Buffy moved down from her neck a little way before looking up at Faith with a small grin. "Hmm . . . well, we can do that but I think I wanna fuck you first."

Faith laughed. "I'm not gonna stop you. Do your thing, baby."

The blonde smiled and started to kiss down the other woman's body. She bypassed her breasts, kissing between them, but stopped for a moment to thoroughly kiss her stomach. The sheets moved down the bed with her, leaving Faith's body exposed to the cool air in the room. The brunette could barely feel the change: Buffy was heating her up in other ways.

Buffy easily moved Faith's thighs further apart and settled herself between them. She placed light kisses on her thighs, teasingly making her way up to her pussy. She licked at the younger slayer's inner thighs for a few seconds before stopping again and looking back up at Faith.

"You're so fucking wet for so early in the morning, Faith," she commented, smirking wickedly.

"Mmm, and you're just a fucking tease," the brunette responded, bringing her hand into blonde hair.

"Maybe," Buffy said, casually running a couple fingers the length of the younger woman's slit, causing her to moan, "maybe not."

Without any other warning, the blonde buried her face in Faith's pussy. The brunette cried out into the room as she felt Buffy's lips latch onto her clit and start to suck, using her tongue to flick against it occasionally.

Faith could feel her juices flowing even more for her blonde slayer as she starting grazing her teeth against her oversensitive clit. One hand gripped her head as the other had a firm grip on the sheet below her.

Buffy quickly moved her mouth lower, making her way slowly to the brunette's hole. Once she reached it, she dipped her tongue quickly inside, tasting the wetness there. Faith groaned out, wanting the older slayer inside her in the biggest way and knowing she was being teased. The blonde did it a couple more times before shoving her tongue inside her as far as it could go.

"Oh, fuck!" Faith screamed out as Buffy began to move her tongue in and out of the brunette quickly.

Buffy kept a firm grip on the brunette's hips as she kept Faith's pussy pressed against her mouth. Faith bucked her hips and arched her back into the other woman, trying to control the pace even a little but the blonde was having none of it. All Faith could do was move with her and hope she would make her come and soon.

Faith got her wish as soon as she thought it as the blonde slayer fucked her faster and faster, using her tongue to fill Faith in the best way. The brunette couldn't stop the constant moans from escaping her lips nor did she want to. She wanted Buffy to know how good she was making her feel.

"God, baby, just a little more and I'm there," Faith groaned out, feeling herself getting closer to falling over the edge.

Buffy fucked her faster still, keeping her hands on the younger slayer's hips. She pressed her face as close as she probably could, making Faith wonder how she was even breathing down there. The thought left as soon as it entered her mind, however, because before she even realized it she was coming hard and fast.

"Fuck me! Oh, Buffy!" the brunette slayer screamed out into the room. She could feel her inner walls pulsing tightly around Buffy's tongue as she continued to move in and out, slowing just slightly.

Faith kept a hand clamped on Buffy's head as the older woman helped ride out her orgasm, drinking down the cum that gushed into her mouth. As she felt herself start to come down, she tried to catch her breath as the blonde continued to keep her tongue buried inside her pussy.

After a minute, the blonde pulled her tongue out of her and started cleaning off the brunette, licking at her clit and then moving to her inner thighs. Faith continued to moan softly, the actions from Buffy causing her to be quickly turned on again. Just when she thought Buffy might continue as well, the older slayer placed a soft kiss on her clit and started to make her way up her body, kissing various places on the way up.

Faith grinned as Buffy moved up, her eyes never leaving her own. The blonde looked so hot and sexy making her way back up to Faith's lips. The younger woman's cum was still on her lips and chin and she thought for a second about just grabbing her and fucking her until she begged for mercy. She held back on that thought though, feeling a moment coming on. Sex, and lots of it, would surely come later.

Reaching her finally, Buffy hovered over her with a smirk, still making eye contact. Faith figured she could stare into those intense green eyes forever. There was no doubt in her mind she loved her.

Buffy lowered and kissed Faith softly, allowing the brunette to taste herself on her lips. She broke away after only a few seconds and moved down enough to rest on Faith, her head on her chest. They stayed quiet for a few minutes before the younger slayer decided to break the silence.

"You know, even when I think you can't get any better at that, you do," she said, looking down to grin at Buffy.

The blonde looked up and grinned back. "You taught me everything I know."

"Damn right, baby," Faith responded, pulling Buffy back up to kiss her again. "I really do love you."

"I know," Buffy smiled, quickly kissing her back, "I love you, too."

They both sighed and Faith wrapped her arms tightly around Buffy, not ever wanting to let her go. They kept in that position until the blonde moved off to Faith's side, keeping a hand on her stomach and drawing patterns with her fingers.

Faith turned her head to her and let out a breath. "Are we doing anything today? 'Cause all I really wanna do right now is stay in this bed with you."

The older slayer laughed. "I don't need to be anywhere." She paused. "But I was thinking of something we could do together later."

"Really?" the brunette asked seductively, waggling her eyebrows.

"Not that," Buffy giggled and swatted her shoulder, "we can do that all day. I'm talking about tonight."

Faith furrowed her brow. "What are you talking about?"

Buffy glanced away shyly. "I was thinking we could have dinner with my mom and then have a talk . . . about us."

The younger woman looked at her in shock. "Are you ready for that?"

Buffy nodded slowly. "I think so. I mean, I didn't want to before because I was a little scared you didn't love me back. I didn't want to fight with my mom if it was for nothing."

"So it's not for nothing?"

"No," she shook her head, "I'm sure of that. I want to spend all my time with you, not just when I think I'll get away with it."

Faith sighed, knowing it would be an uncomfortable conversation to say the least but that it would all be worth it. She was finally going to be with Buffy for real, without any restrictions. "Okay, that sounds like a plan."

Buffy grinned and threw her arms around the brunette, peppering her face with kisses. "I love you." She giggled as Faith shifted her so she was resting on the brunette once again. "I never thought you'd go in on that conversation."

"I don't want to," Faith said quickly, "but I want to be there for you." She paused. "And I want to keep fucking you." She ran a hand down her side. "All day long."

The blonde slayer kept giggled as she placed several light kisses on her lips. "You know . . . we don't have to be over there until like five."

"Hmm, that means we don't have to leave for most of the day," Faith responded, moving her hand to her ass and giving a little squeeze.

"I wonder what we can do to keep ourselves occupied until then," Buffy said coyly, running her hand through Faith's hair.

Faith quickly flipped them over so she hovered over her. "I can think of a few ideas," she said, leaning down to kiss her passionately.

Faith knew the night would be difficult but right now all she could think about was the feel of Buffy under her, moving against her. No matter how good or bad the talk with Buffy's mom went that night, Faith knew they would have each other and that's all that really mattered.

The End

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