in the everlasting lifetime of my eternity i'm learning to be taking hold of my destiny assertively and yearning to be simple. but things get complicated when i'm my own worst enemy, the synergy, chemistry, symmetry in our minestry gone. well maybe if it was meant to be my destiny'd be sent to me or lent to me by one of my friends. it's kind of funny how my will bends to the will of my so called friends. the ends to which i'll go to avoid the word no. white people making fun of my fro.
at night i go out and shout at the moon. give myself room to struggle with the invisible demons teaming up, screaming around me lately. like hate be leading the people that surround me. give my conscience the chance it never had when it found me. tears stream down my face. emotions encased in my mind. i'm wading through paste in time but laced in mine is the ability to succeed. feed my soul the energy that it needs to lead me through muddy creeks and swollen reeds to the sandy banks. where i fall to my knees and give thanks that i am my own person.
