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By: Kenneth Cabrieto

           Like our domino effect,
           You set this into place.
           The bad things I've done in life,
           That I wish I could erase.
           Maybe I would kill you,
           If you weren't already dead.
           Why did you place all these Ideas in my head?
           I used to think it was just fun,
           But you caught me by surprise.
           You pulled me so far in,
           And I bought into your lies.
           "It's all a game." You said to me.
           I followed all your rules,
           Lost good friends along the way,
           Caught up in endless duels.
           "You too could be a playa."
           I've said to many kids.
           I warped their fragile mind,
           The same way that you did.

           "Life isn't fair."
           You used to always say.
           "It could all be fun." You said.
           That chased much love away.
           Of all people why me?
           Why did you poison my heart?
           I knew you knew that in the end,
           This would tear my world apart.
           You told me that in this game,
           I would be the king of hearts.
           I found you again lying to me.
           You've lied right from the start.
           I was nothing but a pawn to you,
           And I always played my part.

           This game I'll play no more for you.
           A pawn I am no more to you.
           If it wasn't for you I could have realized,
           Learned who I really am.
           You told me who I was.
           You lied to me again.
           No one has that right.
           That right you bestowed to me.
           No one should hurt others for fun.
           Why did I watch them bleed?
           You told me of pleasure through pain,
           So you must have recieved from me,
           Laughter and wrongful joy,
           From my current misery.

           Go to hell you damn regret!
           Evil person I should have never met.
           I did all that you asked of me.
           I've runined many lives.
           That I now see.
           Becuase of all the things I've done for you.
           I have forgotten how to be true.
           I have forgotten how to be me.
           I was blind back then, but now I can see.
           What a waste I have become.
           Why did I fall for it all?
           I feel so dumb.
           People look up to me now for the wrong things I did.
           Now it's too hard for us all to re-begin.
           They never got to be kids.

           I blame you for all of this.
           For our day to day sin.
           I am a playa no more.
           No longer your creation.
           If I must I'll be a has-been.
           A has-been to you,
           And all your mannequins.
           Farewell.
           Adieu.
           I'm done for good.
           No more chapter.
           No more brotherhood.
           I used to think you were my friend,
           But this game you brought me into,
           Even brought your life to an end.
           I may not have seen it then,
           But my eyes are open now,
           You died because of this game you taught,
           I know you must be proud.
          
           -June 6th, 2001

     To Alex Mendoza