November 15, 1999
Hello everyone.
It's time for another rousing commentary. :)
What's up with me? Well, I've got a nasty cold. *Gags* I hate being sick. I feel like I'm trying to hack up my spleen. Or my lungs. *Punches her organs back into place* Geez. Did I mention I hate being sick?
Listen, I want you guys to go over the official page for Matt and Jeff Hardy page. Read Matt Hardy's Nov. 14th commentary. It is a great thing. It's very touching. The second and third paragraphs really touched me. Go read it. By all means, go and read it. Matt is right. More than I can explain. Go read it. www.mattandjeffhardy.com
I admit that I've sat around at times and question what I was doing. If I was doing the right thing or if I was just wasting time or if I should give up. I can't count how many times I've sat and pondered if I should give up. Yet I keep digging for the guts to go and train twice a week. I work hard and sometimes I feel like I don't get anywhere. Sometimes I feel like I'm never gonna make it.
Then I just have to dig deep and come up with that extra bit of courage to struggle through and keep going. Honestly, I don't know where it comes from, but I continue to pull myself up when I fall into he gutter and I keep going.
I guess the point I'm trying to make, if I ever had a point when I started this, is that all it takes is a little faith, a little determination. I remember, before I started training, how I'd look at the people in the ring and wish I could be there. I'd dream of being a wrestler, but I'd think that there was no way I could do that. I have to admit that the Hardys had a very big part in my going after this. I had a brief, chance encounter with them in May of this year.
I think what really did it for me...I remember this and it shocked me completely. I've always had this big thing with both guys, but Matt. I had this huge crush on Matt. He surprised me. I somehow managed to speak with him and he responded. He actually talked back. Later was when it hit me that they seemed perfectly normal guys, like the guys I hang out with.
Some time after that I finally got off my butt and went in search of wrestling schools. In early August I found the VWF school. Now here I am, training.
I've been told I have the heart for this, and that's all I need is the heart and determination to make this happen. I think that if anyone has the heart to do something they should give it a shot. Because no one wants to sit around and kick themselves when they're 67 and say 'Damn, what if I'd tried that?'. Even if I never get any further than becoming a top star in the indies, at least I had my shot and I tried.
Katya, a very good friend of mine, once told me when I was ready to give up. I mean, seriously ready to quit everything and walk away. She told me that I wouldn't be disappointing anyone if I quit so long as I'd tried my best. I know it sounds irrational but there's a long list of people I worry about disappointing. I don't know if everyone does this or not, but I worry that if I don't go through with this I'm going to be letting a lot of people down.
There have been times when I've wondered if I'm alone in this. No one is ever truly alone in their dreams I now realize. I started out on this and there are people who are standing by me every step of the way. There's Ty and Shelby, who made this page for me, even though I was joking when I said all I need was an official page. There's Katya. I don't know what'd I do without her hitting me upside my head and putting sense back into me when I need it the most. There's my good friend Sarah/Pooh Puppie with her 'Mumma' signs to cheer me up.
I don't know what I'd do without my friends.
Ty - I still can’t believe you actually call me 'Mama' when you answer the phone! And all those righteous things about Chrissy Cakes. Thanks again for all the help and generosity the kindness you've shown all, and me. *hugs*
Shel - Girl, I was KIDDING about the page! You didn't HAVE to go and make me one. But I'm flattered that you did. Honestly, what'd I do to deserve this?
Katya - Baby Girl, I don't know what I'd do without ya. You told me once that I'm strong. You seem to give me that extra boost of courage I need to keep fighting and keep trying. Thanks a million, Kitty Kat.
Poohlet - I swear! When I get to the WWF and I win the Women's Title, I want you to be in the front row and I want you to bring your Mumma signs. :) I'll have a cheering section of 4 then. :) Love and Shammy Snacks to you!
Bright Blessings, Sage.
Exist 2 Inspire - The Hardy Boyz
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