Ah, the future...inevitably coming, faster and faster and we can't blink, for in a second, it'll pass us by. The future brings happiness, but it also brings fear. Our stories have reached the end of the prologue and it's time to see where the Lord will take us. He is writing our story--has written, and will write--but we are unsure of what we will encounter in the future. Stories always have conflicts; always have drama, enduring struggles, and moments of happiness. But what will we have to leave behind?

I know that Andrea and I will be over 500 miles away, and it scares me. We are forced to make a decision in the near future, and regardless of the path we choose, we will face many struggles. Losing her is one of the greatest fears of my life. But making her endure and face loneliness is a decision I hesitate to take. I want to be there for her all the time; to feel the pain she feels and to help ease the burden when she is weary.

But regardless of the decision, I am forced to sit on my hands for at least a year. Do I have to lose her? Do I have to feel the pain of her body so far away? Her gentle hands and her wonderful hair? Does it all have to be barred from me by oceans of dreams and miles of emptiness? If I had it my way, it would never happen. But God is in control, and I can only think of the trials I shall face.

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