You know, sometimes it's hard when you're alone. I mean, I've dealt with it all my life, but some important people in my life have shown me the coldness that the void once shed in my heart. I had thought that knowledge had purged the feeling from my heart, but it is an endless struggle. There are days when I feel loved and at peace, while others make me feel like I am alone on and island, where the murky waves crash bitterly on the rocky shore.

Regardless of my feelings, God has truly blessed me greatly. Sometimes, only the knowledge of how He loves me can get me through. The people I love try to be there, but they cannot always purge the feelings. Everyone has these feelings, but God is the one that can make it go away.

Yes, God blessed me with Andrea, and being with her has purged most of the loneliness from me. But being so far away from her can be difficult. It's nothing that can't be fought for, but just the physical distance can sometimes leave me lonely. Sometimes, it's like I'm an eternity away from those I love and I can't get any closer.

Like I said to a friend once, it's okay to be lost in life, if you have friends with you. But the worst feeling by far is to be both lost and alone. I would prefer not to know where I must go than to be alone. It's hard being apart from those you love, but I believe it helps to strengthen the love. And I silently thank God a million times over for the blessings He has given me. It's worth feeling lonely when you know that there are people to return to.

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