the rain falling from my eyes
blurs the words i'm writing
but i'm not crying
nor for all the lost nights
i wish we could make up for
nor all the ones we spent together
not for all the missed opportunities
to make things right
nor the few times i swallowed my pride
just so i could see you smile
not for the fights we had
and the angry words we said
not for all the precious moments
that you said "i love you"
not for the tears
or the pain
or the complete happiness you brought me
that made it all worthwhile
not for the anticipation in my throat
when i asked you to marry me
and definately not for the joy in my heart
when you said yes
not for the hurt in your eyes when i ended things
and not for the agony in your face
when you learned the truth
about my betrayal
not for all the nights i've sat alone
thinking about you
wishing i could take it all back
erase all the doubts in your mind
and be in love with you again
like we once were
i'm not crying