Introduction to My Life History
I'm would like to state at the outset of my endeavor to write my life's story that there will be some readers of my story, assuming there will be any at all, that will be shocked at some of my self-revelations. I had the options of telling either a white-washed story, a superficial recounting of what I did and where I lived, or a story that was honest, revealing, and introspective. I chose a course closer to the latter, because I wanted to tell the true, revealing story as much as possible. There will be some things that won't be fully explained and expanded upon, as that calls for an interpretation of certain events, and it also encroaches upon certain areas of confidentiality. For that reason, I will always try to use discretion when writing about certain events in my life; yet I will also try and reveal as much of myself and of my inner workings as I can, for there are those who will intimately know more in depth of what I am talking about. I will refrain from referencing certain events and personality traits with any specific person or persons, and I will also be mindful of whether or not certain things should ever be revealed at all.
Some people may end up rejecting me as a worthwhile person, and may turn against me after reading some of the things that may appear in the recounting of my life. In the course of my story, a number of people will be mentioned that have already rejected me, and have turned against me. They have already judged and condemned me. Looking through our society's eyes, I cannot blame them. I am not a perfect person by any stretch of the imagination. I have made countless mistakes, and I have hurt a number of people because of who I am and because of some of the things I have done. Nevertheless, I never once meant to hurt anyone at all. And nevertheless, there are those that believe things about me that are simply not true. They have turned against me for at least some false reasons, and they will probably never know or understand the real truth of things, nor forgive what they believe about me until after this life is over, if even then.
Most people recognize that I am not a very open person in many ways, that I carry many secrets. This story will reveal, or at least will hint of many of those secrets. There is a small group of friends of mine who already know much of the dark side of my personality, yet still accept me the way I am, and who still see enough worth in me to remain friends with me. These are the people that give my life meaning and purpose, the people that make me feel like all my striving has not been in vain. These people are members of my true family, and it is especially to these people that I dedicate these writings, because they, above all others, deserve to know about me from all angles of my being, and because only they will ever, and can ever, know, by the fuller revelations of myself, who I truly was. And it is to these people I express my deepest love and appreciation for showing me their love and acceptance in spite of myself, for if it weren't for them, I never would have lived long enough to even start this huge project.
Finally, I would like everyone who reads this, to know from the very beginning that, though there are some elements of my life that I would very much like to go back and either erase completely or change in some way, I am very glad to be who I am. My life has been a very exciting adventure thus far, and everything I have done, mistakes included, has helped me in various ways: to be more accepting and understanding of others, to be forgiving when forgiveness doesn't seem to be deserved in any way, to be very careful in my judgements of others, no matter what their crimes seem to be, to love others, when hating them seems to be the more appropriate response, or simply to make my life more rewarding, fulfilling, and memorable. I have always thought of myself as a free spirit, and this is the way I have lived my life. I have not been disappointed.
I have divided my story into two major parts, with additional subdivisions in each part. Part One will contain basically the course of my life from beginning to end. I will break this part up into smaller divisions such as "My Childhood," "My Teen Years," "My Mission Years," and so on. I have found that my life is easily separated into individual compartments which have few, if any, ties or resemblances to each other as I move from one to the next. I will most likely add to and alter these sections from time to time, and I will try and indicate when and where I have done this.
Part Two will be an area for personal musings, impressions, and expressed beliefs regarding different topics, specific events that carry hidden or unusual significance, and selected people that I wish to name as important people that have impacted my life in good ways. If I write about any of them, which I probably won't, I will write only the best things I enjoy or enjoyed about them. The subdivisions in this part will not conform to any chronological order, except sometimes in the initial listing, in which I will simply list the names, places, events, and topics that made my life interesting.
Final sections will be used to offer miscellaneous items that are of special interest to me, including favorite jokes, anecdotes, thoughts, and virtually anything that simply doesn't fit anywhere else.
With all of that said, I am now ready to begin this very large project.
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