Just were I am going to
write down my thoughts
for the day and such, doubt
it will interest anyone, but it
keeps me sane
July 2, 2003
losing somethign you
only dreamed about it shouldnt hurt it shoudlnt bring feelings of regret the same
dream night after night the same regret day after day if only i was wanted if only i could be to her, what she
is to me.
YOU
are your own poison.
YOU
create your own hell.
YOU
destroyed the family.
YOU
destroyed childhood.
YOU
don't know the Truth.
YOU
pitiful mindless fools.
And I claim I’m not
excited with my life any more So I blame this town, this job, these friends The
truth is it’s myself And I’m trying to understand myself By the time I get
things figured out I’ve change the whole damn plan
I
know now what I knew then
But
I didn’t know then what I know now
7/11/03
I am trying to be
sober but it seems to fail every time. I just want to be content again. It won’t
happen. I dug a hole so deep I have no chance of getting out of. Saddest thing
is no one even realizes I am no longer who I use to be.
