***Obsessive Thinking Disorder***
I go to a psychologist, for family problems...a whole 'nother story, and my psychologist tells me to tell him like everything that bothers me about any and everyone, and if possible why. Even if it's not an actual person who is bothering me...so I told him about something I do that bothers me...and now I found out, that I have an "obsessive thinking disorder" very confusing, yet kinda funny...one of the main things with my otd is this thing about everything being equal...
Exp: If I write an A then a B I feel it's unfair to B for being after A so to even it out I should write BA so then it's ABBA and if you look at it, it starts and ends with A so it's only fair to start & end with B, like BAAB but then it's ABBA BAAB so then ABBA starts off, and BAAB should get to start once...so then its, ~ABBA BAAB BAAB ABBA~ Then it's unfair cuz it starts and ends with ABBA and BAAB should get to start and end the set...
ABBA BAAB BAAB ABBA
BAAB ABBA ABBA BAAB
so to be fair now it should really start with BAAB ABBA ABBA BAAB and it looks like
ABBA BAAB BAAB ABBA
BAAB ABBA ABBA BAAB
BAAB ABBA ABBA BAAB
ABBA BAAB BAAB ABBA
...I'm getting carried away again...that can go on forever, and if I was not interupted by anything I would! That's my main problem...then I also have this thing about when I was younger and even now, I had floor tiles in my kitchen at my dad's house that were just boxes straight up, so I had this major thing with moving through the kitchen only in the way knights move on a chess board when no one else was around...please, don't judge me by that! it's not really my fault...I'm about to get to start taking medication for it so I won't do it...there are more reasons why I have the otd, but I don't wanna get in to them right now.....
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