You Should Have
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by Tim Flanders
(a.k.a. Agent LATHUS)
e-mail: (lathus@hotmail.com)
"You Should Have" copyright Tim Flanders 1997
You could have been a saint Mulder
You should have helped
You should have told her
You should have tried
You should have stayed
Even if she didn't want you to
You should have ...
She was yours Scully,
She was yours to love.
You should have tried
You should have ...
I loved her,
I would have loved her ...
You should have tried,
I would have ...
Why didn't you try?
Were you scared?
Were you tired of trying?
Were you giving up?
Did you not care?
I WOULD HAVE CARED!
WHY COULDN'T YOU!
YOU COULDN'T YOU TRY?
... go away.
leave.
You didn't try, ... and she is dead.
You didn't care like a mother should.
You didn't die like a mother should.
You believed, . . . but you didn't try.
And so you failed.
Go away.
You didn't try,
She's dead.
You failed.
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This episode really pissed me off, it was a great episode but
it trashed my perspective of Mulder and Scully . . . this episode.
showed me they were overly-fallible. I kind of had this idea of Mulder
as being an almost-saint. He's a martyr for a cause, selfless in his
pursuit of truth, he wants to bring down the evil, he's a hero
to believe in, and he already has one miracle under his belt
(he cured Scully's cancer). Through-out the whole episode I
wanted to slap Mulder and yell at him "TELL HER, HELP HER, DO SOMETHING!"
I got the feeling that he was being less than himself, that he
could have (and SHOULD have) been more. I still have no idea
of what the ending of this episode meant. Was the sand in the
casket symbolic or were they hiding the body, the cross in the casket,
and Mulder knew more than he was telling in the end. Did Emily REALLY
die at all. PLEASE!!!! someone tell me what it meant. Anyway, let
me know what you think of this poem (it's not one of my better ones
if that helps), drop me a hint.
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