Tuesday, August 24, 1999

Dear Journal:

That still doesn't sound right... Anyway, It's been Hell! I can't stop thinking about Andie. Everything reminds me of her. I just keep wishing she would come back. Just one day appear out of nowhere saying how much she's missed me too and we'd ride off into the sunset and live happily ever after. Man, I'm starting to sound like Dawson! I just can't help it... Andie saved me, in more ways than one, she was my savior and I still can't stop thinking about the fact that the only person who actually believed in me was taken away. It just doesn't seem fair. Why should the only person who took the time enough to actually believe in me, see me as something other than the town loser, the class clow or the screw up everybody always believed I was... Why should they have to be taken away from me as if they ment nothing? She was such a big part of me... She was my everything. And I couldn't be there for her... Like everything I just let her slip through my fingers. True I had no choice, it was the best thing for her. I just wish... God I miss her so much! Trying to occupy myself long enough to not think about her just doesn't work. I can't do anything without being reminded of my other half, my better half. I better stop torturing myself, go and get some fresh air. Anyway...


This section of Pacey's Journal was done by: Kathy