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Skinner was
tired—bone-weary, wrung-out. It had been two weeks since Mulder's
meeting with Krycek. When he'd asked Fox about the meeting, he got only
the most meager of answers: "Yes, the meeting had gone well. Yes, he'd
told Krycek that there was no chance of their being together." Fox did not
tell him, however, of the nude beach; did not speak of Krycek's state of
arousal at the time; he certainly didn't tell Skinner of his own feelings
of arousal while he was around Krycek. There was no way that he'd tell
Skinner exactly how he felt as he watched Alex speed out of his life. When
Skinner pushed Fox further for answers, all he'd got were mere
monosyllables in return. So he'd stopped asking. Something had definitely happened
between Mulder and Krycek; Skinner knew that. For two weeks now Mulder had
been jumping his bones, at any opportunity, at least twice a day. The sex
between them was brutal, ferocious and all consuming. Mulder was like a
man possessed; a man needing to work out some inner demon by slamming his
flesh into Skinner or having Skinner slam his flesh into him. Yes, Walter
knew something had happened during that meeting.
The AD closed his final dossier of the day
with some force. He sighed audibly with relief that his day's work was
done. He was slightly surprised when he looked at his watch and noticed
that it was only five p.m. He couldn't remember, for sure, the last time
that he completed his day on time. He removed his glasses and put them on
top of the file on his desk; massaging his temples, he worked the tension
of the day away. Mulder was out of town for the weekend
on a case and Skinner looked forward to a few days of peace and quiet. He
thought he might do a little cooking, putter around the apartment, or
maybe even read some of those novels he hadn't been able to find the time
for. With a
satisfied smile on his face, he put his glasses on again, put on his coat
and left his office. "Caroline, you're still here?"
"Yes, sir, just
finishing up." Kim was on vacation and a temp from
the secretarial pool had replaced her. Skinner had been very surprised by
her efficiency: he'd only had to show her the workings of his office once.
For the week she'd been here, she hadn't asked one other additional
question, and the office ran like a well-oiled machine. Skinner always
anticipated Kim's vacation with a certain sense of dread, but this time he
was more than pleased with her replacement. "Good night Caroline. Have a good
week-end."
"I will, sir, thank you." Walter had almost made it out the door
when he heard Caroline shout his name. "Sir," the woman said, "don't
forget your dinner meeting tonight." "Dinner meeting? What dinner meeting?"
Skinner's plans for a quiet evening at home just went up in smoke.
Caroline looked at
her boss and clearly saw the look of confusion on his face. "It's at The
Inn at Little Washington," she said. "It's a long drive—about seventy
miles—and quite posh for a dinner meeting," she clicked her tongue against
her teeth as if to emphasize the luxury of the restaurant. "My husband and
I celebrated our 15th anniversary there; it was the best meal I've ever
had."
Skinner still looked terribly confused. She took out his day planner. "Look,
sir, the entry is in your handwriting." He crossed the short distance to her
desk quickly. He looked at the entry in his day-planner and when he saw
the handwriting, so similar to his own, all the colour drained from his
face and he had to clutch on to Caroline's desk for support. He'd been
wondering when the sword would fall—it had been two weeks since Mulder's
meeting with Krycek. He wasn't naive enough to believe that his
disobedience would go unpunished; after all, Krycek had told him to drop
Mulder. Instead, he had had Mulder meet with Krycek to tell him that
Mulder was taken. Surely, Krycek realized that that meeting was Walter's
idea. "Are
you all right, sir," Caroline asked with concern. "Yes! I'm fine."
Skinner stood
slowly and looked around the office that had been his home away from home
for so many years now. He committed every detail of the room into his
memory as though this was the very last time that he would see it.
"Good night,
Caroline." He said. "Good night, Sir, enjoy your
meal."
Walter smiled weakly at her. "I'm sure I will."
Walter didn't hurry home from the office.
When he got there, he dressed in his best conservative gray suit, chose a
fresh white shirt from the dozens in his closet, and he picked out a
light, non-descript tie to complete the outfit. In a bizarre parody of
getting ready for a date, he even carefully combed his remaining
hair. The
night was a wet and balmy one—the type of rainfall that his mother used to
refer to as a 'crying day'. Odd, he thought, the things that come into
your mind at times like these. When he was first infected with
Krycek's toys, like a man diagnosed with a terminal illness, he went
through the stages of grief. First came anger—white, hot, blazing anger.
Anger that Krycek would do this to him, anger that Krycek would use this
to play him like a marionette, pulling his strings this way and that;
anger that Krycek would strip him of his dignity and integrity in this,
the worst possible way. His denial of his condition arrived next. His mind
unable to fathom the ways in which Krycek would use this device to force
him do god only knew what. Then came the feeling of helplessness in the
face of his infection. The younger man's demands were small at first, but
with time they became more intense and demeaning. And now Skinner feared
that Krycek would force him to betray his lover in more and more
debilitating ways. When Walter realized Krycek had used him basically as
an accessory to cold-blooded murder, he'd come to the realisation that he
wasn't living; he was merely existing. Tonight, however, in the pit of his
belly, acceptance came. He felt at peace with his fate. The windshield
wipers moving across his field of vision in a methodic and predictable
fashion lulled him into a sense of calm. Incongruous as it might seem with
the fate that he was sure awaited him, he felt at one with the world. His
only regret now was Fox. The love they could have shared; the life they
might have built together. Too late now to cry over spilled milk. Maybe it
was for the better, in a way, to let Fox get on with his life; to find
someone who might just be able to help him instead of being tied to one
who would only be forced to stymie him in his efforts in still
unimaginable ways. Skinner caught himself dozing off
twice during the long drive to the restaurant. Finally he took the detour
off US Highway 211 and in no time he saw the building. Skinner had to
smile at the hubris of the owners for not having a sign on the building
announcing its presence. But then, if the reputation of this world-class
restaurant was true, maybe it wasn't hubris at all. With the small army of
workers and visitors gathered around the entrance of the building, Skinner
was sure he'd found the right place. Even before he had the door of his car
closed, he was approached by what appeared to be an employee of the
Inn. "Are
you checking in, sir?" With the rapid attention that his
arrival had prompted, Skinner felt somewhat like the prodigal son
returning.
"No," he said, rather too quickly, "I'm here to meet Mr. Charles for
dinner." The
man smiled at him in welcome and beckoned another employee standing not
too far away. He came over to join them quickly. "Good evening Mr. Skinner. My name is
Duane and welcome to the Inn at Little Washington. I hope you enjoy your
visit with us. Mr. Charles is expecting you. Please follow me." He held
out his hand for Walter to take and Walter shook it firmly. Skinner
followed closely behind him and when he entered the building, he was
struck by the Victorian opulence of the place, its dedication to
historical detail, and the impressive and costly materials used to
reproduce an architectural style long since gone out of fashion. It was a
little too bourgeois for the AD's personal taste for understatement, but
nonetheless, it was certainly impressive. Entering the dining room, Walter got
his first glimpse of Krycek, who was dressed in an expensive-looking,
green suit; designer, of course. The younger man wore a pale green shirt
with a darker green tie. The green satin glove covering his faux hand was
the exact shade of his suit. The green motif was completed by the small
peridot stud Krycek wore in his left ear. The result of all this was to
make Krycek's eyes a striking shade of green—eyes, which seemed to be lit
from within. Alex was seemingly oblivious to everything around him, but
Skinner knew this was an act. He was eating some kind of finger food that
looked, to Walter, like puff pastry filled with a meaty substance.
As Alex saw them
approach his table, he stood up and smiled genuinely at Walter. "Uncle
Walter, I'm so glad you could join me!" He held out his hand but Skinner
refused to take it. Krycek turned to the waiter and
mouthed a thank you and he left. "Kry...Alex, what's this all about?"
Skinner asked with a slight snarl in his voice. Alex motioned for him to sit and he
did. "Can't two friends meet for dinner, Walter?" "We're not friends,
Krycek." Skinner growled as he moved to sit. "Yes, well, there is that," Alex said
with a little smirk on his face that showed Walter that he was besting him
already. "But Walt, in a place a long time ago and far, far away, we were.
We were something more than friends, weren't we?" "So," Skinner asked
again, "what's this all about." "Patience, Walter, just slow down and
smell the foi gras. You work too hard for a man of your age. One of these
days," Krycek tapped at his temple for emphasis; "you're going to fall
down dead with a stroke." "Is that a threat, Alex?" "Did it sound like one?
I'm just concerned for your health, Walter. You represent a considerable
investment to me." Krycek's voice sounded sincere to Skinner, but his eyes
told another story. Krycek tracked the path of the waiter
making his way to their table. The man placed a plate in front of Skinner
containing the same delicacies that were in front of the younger
man. "Eat
Walter, they're delicious." He pointed to the sesame-crusted puff pastry
on Walter's plate. Alex picked the same item from his own and popped it
into his mouth, closing his eyes in epicurean delight; he made a little
moan of pleasure. Walter looked at him as if he were
some strange, exotic creature that he'd never seen before. This aspect of
the younger man's personality was one that he'd never seen or suspected;
the immaculately dressed sensualist sitting across the table from him only
made Walter's sense of nervousness greater. "Come on, Walter, eat. You know you
want to."
Skinner felt like a lamb being fattened up for the slaughter. "Okay,
Krycek, what's this all about?" He asked again. Alex stared directly into his eyes and
smiled. "Patience is a virtue, Walter. Come on, just let your hair
down...figuratively speaking, of course...and enjoy yourself. Eat, it's
worth it. I remember when I was a kid and my birthday rolled around.
Excited, as all children are on their birthdays, I'd get up in the morning
and all I'd get out of my mother was 'Happy Birthday, Alex' and she'd set
my breakfast before me. No festivities at all, no presents, no nothing.
She had this idea in her head that all birthdays were to be celebrated at
the family's evening meal. So there I was on a tenterhooks all day just
waiting for the evening to come." "Touching story, Alex." "I thought you'd like it,
Walt."
"But," Walter said, "I'd like to point out that it's not my
birthday."
Before Krycek could reply, a different waiter appeared and placed a
selection of breads on their table. Alex looked at the strange and
delectable foodstuffs and licked his lips. "Are you sure," he said, "about
the birthday thing, I mean?" "I'm fairly sure, yes." "Well, we'll just have to
see about that," Alex said as he reached for a currant and nut studded
piece of rye bread. He looked at Skinner and smirked at him. Within seconds the wine
waiter approached their table. Skinner glanced at the man and thought that
it wouldn't quite be fair to call the man eccentric—he'd be an eccentric
in a nation of eccentrics. The older man fully expected the waiter to
click his heels together and make a popping sound by bringing his hand to
his mouth; but he didn't. He looked directly at Krycek. "Bonsoir, M'seur,"
he said.
"Bonsoir, Gaetian," Krycek said. And as the waiter was trying to pass the
extensive wine list to him he said: "Non! Le vin ordinaire est la
specialite de la maison, n'est pas?" "Oui, M'seur." "Eh bien!" Krycek said.
"Rouge..." and Alex held his hands apart showing the man what he wanted
and mouthed the word 'gross' before the man could leave. "Bien sur, M'seur," the
waiter said as he left. "Alex, I didn't know you could speak
French—it isn't in your file." "Lots of things aren't in my file,
Walter. I spent a few years in Paris. And then there was that unexpected
and totally unsatisfactory trip to Quebec." Alex smiled as Skinner
realized immediately what he was talking about. "When in Rome,
Walter...I've found that it's always helpful to speak as the natiaves
do—it makes things easier and raises fewer questions. Skinner nibbled
absentmindedly on a piece of fruit encrusted bread seemingly mesmerized by
the forest green of his dinner companion's eyes and the lullaby quality of
his voice. He put his bread back on the plate as though he were
burned.
"You're still working for them aren't you, Alex?" Skinner grew angrier and
angrier with the situation by the minute. The patrons at the next table would
have enjoyed the melodious sound of Krycek's laughter, thinking him a very
happy man. But Skinner heard nothing but the underlying bitterness
betrayed by the laughter, which never really reached Alex's eyes. The AD
had known the younger man long enough to know that Krycek's eyes were the
windows of his soul and that if he didn't want you to know what he was
thinking at any given moment, he simply refused to look at you. But this
time, he stared at Skinner with defiance. "You and Mulder," Alex spit at him,
"you're cut from the same bolt! I don't work for them, Walter, I work
through them. If you have to give me a name, then think of me as an agent
provocateur. I have one little piece of advice for the both of you, stop
looking a gift horse in the mouth." Skinner snickered as though nothing
this man ever had to say held any value. The wine waiter returned and with
great ceremony placed a wineglass in front of Alex and poured a small
amount out of the large carafe of wine he carried. Alex took it to his
mouth, sipped, swirled the heady liquid around his tongue and through his
teeth bringing it back to wash over his taste buds once again. He sniffed
deeply of the ambrosia and smiled. "A votre gout, M'seur?" The waiter
asked? Oui.
Tres bon, merci." Life, Skinner thought, was just an
endless series of rituals. A waitress come by and placed small
bowls of soup before them. "Eat, Walter!" Krycek instructed him.
Skinner brought his
spoon to his mouth but put it down immediately. Again he asked, "What's
this all about, Krycek?" "Do you really have to ask,
Walter?"
"Yeah!" Walter replied. "I really do?" "Do you feel like the condemned man,
who's just had his last meal placed before him?" "What do you mean, Krycek?" Walter's
anger reached his face, and he turned a bright red. "I've mentioned before
about the secrets you and Mulder keep from each other. The last time we
met, I gave you an order, Walter. I told you to drop Mulder or there would
be serious consequences. You didn't do what you were told. You know, don't
you, that Mulder told me it was you who made him meet with me two weeks
ago when he gave me the kiss-off. He knows about those little buggers in
your blood stream; I don't know what you were thinking of, Walter."
Skinner shook his
head in reluctant agreement but without any contrition. "Not only," Krycek
continued with a surprised look on his face, "didn't you have the guts to
tell me yourself, you sent Mulder instead to do your dirty work. Is this
how lovers act, Walter?" Skinner just stared sheepishly at his
food. "You're not planning on killing me here?" The young Russian smiled malevolently
at him. "Why
here?" Skinner asked. Alex slipped his hand down to his lap
and pressed a button on his machine. Immediately the veins in Skinner's
temple turned blue and he let out a low groan of pain and had to rest his
head on his arms. A waitress passing by was so startled that she stopped,
placed a hand on his shoulder and asked him if he was ill. Krycek took his
finger from the button and Skinner recovered almost immediately.
"No, thank you, I'm
fine." He told her. Krycek smiled. "Why here? Can you
think of a better place? I'm here with my uncle—an older man—who's just
had some kind of episode. The waitress noticed it. You'll fall dead in
your soup; I'll scream and moan...'call 911, quick; my uncle's sick.'"
Krycek gave Skinner his most effective don't-fuck-with-me look. "Oh god,
I'll be so upset, insisting that I go with you in the ambulance. Such a
dutiful nephew, you know, so concerned over his favourite uncle. You know
me, Walter, I'll disappear as soon as they wheel you into the ER on the
gurney. Do you think that Mulder is going to recognize me when he
interviews the staff here and they remember someone dressed as I am? Do
you really think he's going to figure out that it's me?" Skinner glared at him and his
chocolate brown eyes were filled with the fatalism of his situation. With
Krycek's finger on the button, as it was, Walter couldn't even get his gun
out fast enough to shoot him—he'd be dead before he got it
un-holstered. "So shut up and eat, Skinner. This
will be your last chance. I wouldn't worry about heart-smart choices if I
were you; it won't make a damned bit of difference. I hope you don't mind,
but I ordered medallions of lamb for us. So eat and enjoy your last
meal."
Almost before Alex had finished speaking, a waiter arrived and cleared
away their untouched soup. Another waiter placed their entree in front of
them. Skinner looked at the meal set before him; he didn't have much of an
appetite at the moment, but he refused to let Krycek see that. With his
fork and knife in hand, Skinner got up from his chair, leaned over the
table and slowly and methodically began to cut up Krycek's meat for him.
He was undeterred by the daggers in Krycek's eyes or the snarl on his
lips. "Just
trying to be helpful," he said caustically. "It must be difficult eating
with only one arm." "Cute, Walter, but not funny. You'd be
surprised the things I can do with only one arm." "I'm sure." Skinner
replied as he started to slice and eat his own meal. They ate in absolute
silence, and both men waved away the dessert tray at the same time.
"Well, Alex, why
don't you get it over with? Kill me now and finish it." Alex smiled at him. He
lifted the machine up to his chest, and pressed it to his heart where
Skinner could see it. "A marvelous little toy, this, don't you think,
Walter? The things I could have done with it but...happy birthday, old
man." He passed the small machine over to Walter and placed it in his
hand. The look of astonishment on Skinner's face was priceless.
"Why are you doing
this, Alex?"
Alex looked wistful as he answered. "I could have made you do so many
things, betray so many people; I could have made you ruin your career if I
wanted. But don't get any big ideas in your head. I'm doing this for
Jarod, not for you. He wouldn't want you forced into helping us. He's
funny like that...moral...good...just...he'd want it to be your
choice...and I care about him so..." "You mean there's someone besides
yourself that you care about?" Skinner said with a touch of malice in his
voice.
"Strange, isn't it, Walter? If you live long enough, you learn."
Skinner turned the
small machine around in one hand and looked at the cause of his distress
for so long now, examining it, studying it, as though it were the Holy
Grail. "What makes you think I just won't take out my gun and kill you
now, Krycek?" The younger man chuckled at this.
"Maybe I know you won't because of the gun I have trained on your cock and
balls. Believe me, Mulder doesn't like his lovers mutilated." "Checkmate," Walter
said.
"Checkmate," Krycek agreed. The waiter came by and Alex
asked him for the check, which he quickly signed, and got up to leave the
restaurant. Skinner left his chair immediately afterwards.
Outside the night was warm and balmy; the
rain had stopped, and the world smelled fresh and clean. Skinner realized
that there could be another reason besides the meteorological for his
feeling this way. Against all reason, both men walked side by side at an
even pace, neither trying to out step the other as they made for their
cars. Characteristically, Krycek had parked his car away from the glare of
the streetlights, in a small alleyway where no one could see it. Skinner
followed him and roughly turned him around. He looked directly into
Krycek's eyes as he unbuckled the younger man's belt and slipped his hand
down the loose-fitting trousers and inside the silk boxers that Alex wore.
He took Alex's cock in his hand and squeezed it lightly. "It feels just like I
remember, " Skinner said, with a smile on his face. "What do you think you're
doing?" Krycek demanded. "I don't know," Skinner whispered
close to Alex's ear, "maybe I enjoy danger." He took the younger man's
earlobe into his mouth and gently sucked on it, running his tongue over
the small jewel-encrusted earring that Alex wore. He gave Alex's cock a
few hard, quick pumps. Alex groaned in response; he was hard,
rock-hard already. Skinner licked a path down to Alex's
mouth and gently traced the pouty lips of the younger man with his tongue.
"Maybe," Skinner moaned, "I like rough trade." Alex opened his legs a bit
wider to give Skinner more access and Skinner took it, jacking him faster
and harder with each pump of his fist. He noticed that Alex's legs were
getting a bit weaker with each jerk of his hand on the younger man's cock.
To keep Alex in this helpless position, Skinner supported him with his
hip.
"Maybe," Skinner mumbled as his hand pumped Krycek's cock almost to the
point of no return, "I like bad boys." Skinner forced his tongue between
Alex's lips and delved inside. He met no resistance as Alex welcomed him,
and sucked Walter's tongue into his mouth. Alex groaned louder with each
movement of Skinner's hand. Skinner moved away from the kiss and
licked at Alex's jaw, lapping down to his throat, like a kitten, and began
suck on him in earnest. Skinner felt the blood so close to the
surface of the skin he was sucking and knew that Krycek would have a
world-class hickey in the morning. Alex's pelvis mimicked Skinner's hand,
pistoning back and forth in unison with Walter's movements. With a howl
and a jolt he splashed his fluids all over Skinners hand and his own silk
boxers. Skinner took his mouth from Krycek's neck and stared into his
eyes. He rubbed the younger man's dick head against his boxers to clean
him and saw Alex shiver. Walter removed his hand from Krycek's underwear
and wiped the rest of the semen on the younger man's pants. As he patted the outline
of Krycek's still erect cock through his trousers he smiled. "Or maybe,
Alex, I just don't want you to forget me." Krycek's jaw dropped in astonishment
as he watched Skinner walk away from him. He put himself back together
while still watching the older man's retreating form. "Oh! Believe me, there's
no chance of that." He said, but Skinner never heard him.
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