Til The End Of The World
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Disclaimer: Mine, I wish.
Category: Drama, humor (I hope), and romance
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None beyond season 5
Summary: What goes through Buffy’s mind during a major battle, like the end of the world. And there’s some stuff about the Scoobies too. Just read it.
Author’s Note: A follow-up to my last fic, See the Sun. It was supposed to be a stand alone, but now it’s kind of morphed into a series. Starts out during a major end of the world battle. (lets see how many times I can type that today)
Feedback: YES! But if you hate it, be nice. J
‘Til the End of the World
Part One
It was hard. Sometimes she just wanted to give up. There were some days
when it was all just easier to crawl into bed. But when she woke up, she
knew, she knew she hadn’t done it all. This was one of those days.
The end of the world, wasn’t that supposed to happen once? And yet,
how many times had she managed to stop it. This was no biggie, compared
to the last few times. Some stupid demon had power, wanted more. Did a
spell. Opened the hellmouth. And yet it was so hard. No matter how many
times she stopped it, the world just tried to end again. Did everything
she do take place in vain?
* * *
“Okay, does anyone else have the feeling we’re losing?” Willow asking.
“You just now got that?” Anya asked staring at her.
“Hey! There’s no need for that kind of talk! We’re going to win, right mate?” Spike demanded.
“I told you not to call me that,” Xander snapped.
“Will you two shut up, now is not the time,” Willow sighed. “When the world doesn’t end you can go back to fighting.”
“Willow’s right. Right now we have to back up Buffy,” Tara nodded.
“Okay, let’s just charge it,” Spike offered.
“That’s called suicide,” Anya said rolling her eyes.
“Anya is right, we don’t want to do anything stupid,” Xander sighed. “So that’s enough from the vampire.”
“Hey! Ex-vampire,” Spike growled.
“Stop!” Willow sighed.
* * *
“Giles, what are you doing?” Dawn asked.
“I’m trying to find a spell that will kill this thing,” Giles nodded.
“Oh,” Dawn smiled.
“Is something wrong?”
“Do you think Buffy can survive? I mean last time…” Dawn’s voice trailed off.
“She’ll do fine,” Giles said. “She’s strong.”
“I mean, inside, can she survive?”
* * *
Everyday it gets harder. Spike told me that once. I always wonder, am I strong enough to realize one day, something will come, and I may not be able to win? I have to win though. For all my friends, if I lose, then they wouldn’t have a chance. For Giles, he works so hard, and tries so much. For Dawn, I can’t lose her. She’s, she’s my whole world, I don’t know what it would be like with out her. For Spike. What am I saying, I’m winning for Spike? Oh, who am I kidding? I’m in love with the guy. It sounds crazy, it really does, but I’m in love with the guy. I actually smiled. I never smile till these things are over. Wow, who would have thought, the thought of Spike got me to smile, during the end of the world.
* * *
“How about a spell?” Spike offered.
“Giles and Dawn are working on it,” Tara sighed.
“Oh that inspires a lot of courage,” Spike grunted. “Look, let’s just sneak up on the bloody thing and chop its bloody head off?”
“And how do we get the hellmouth to close?” Xander asked.
“Well that’s what I have you lot for, right mate?”
“I told you not to call me that,” Xander snapped.
“Will you two shut up, I’m trying to think up a plan,” Willow growled.
“By the time it takes you to think up a plan, I could have its head cut off!” Spike protested.
“Fine, let him go, let him kill himself,” Anya offered.
“Buffy’s going to die out there with out us, do you want that?” Spike demanded.
“Okay, how’s this, Spike and Xander charge it, while Tara, Anya, and I try to close the hellmouth,” Willow offered.
“What!” Xander cried.
* * *
“Giles, Buffy told you to kill time with me,” Dawn said. “I’m not stupid.”
“Well, yes,” he nodded.
“I’m scared, for Buffy. I mean, she’s so lost right now,” Dawn whispered.
“She’ll win.”
“Will she?”
* * *
I hate this kind of demon. They’re stupid and jealous, and greedy. I hate them. I wish I could wipe the whole world of them. I’m losing right now. I don’t need anyone to tell me when I’m out of hope. I know when the blades up against me neck. That’s the moment I know it’s over. That’s the moment I know I have to jump. That’s the moment I realize it’s all over. I hate that feeling. I’ve only had it twice before in my life. It scares me. The feeling that you know it’s all over. I can see the mark of the hellmouth slowly starting to open. I can see the snake thing slowly starting to come out. This demon is ugly. I can hear him laughing. I’m very tempted to kick him into the hellmouth. In fact, that’s what I’ll do, as soon as I can figure out how to get this damn blade away from my neck.
* * *
“Okay, one,” Spike said.
“I didn’t agree to this,” Xander snapped.
“Deal with it. Two.”
“Spike, no,” Xander groaned.
“Do you want to save her?” he demanded
“Three!” Xander yelled.
* * *
Throw him into the hellmouth. That’s how you close it. Come on Wil. My messages didn’t seem to be working. I could feel my neck becoming sore. For a split second, I wanted to dig my neck into the blade and end it all for good. I just wanted it to be over. But that was when I saw Xander yelling something obsene at the demon. The blade dropped and lifted towards Xander. My heart screamed no, I couldn’t lose Xander. Then I saw Spike fly towards the demon at full force. I laughed. Suddenly I hated myself for wanting it to be over. Xander and Spike had it harder, and they hadn’t given up for a second. Spike and Xander took turns hitting the guy yelling: “That’s what you get when you mess with my best friend/the girl I love.” I stood up. I had enough of this. Giles seemed to be doing a good job keeping Dawn out of the thick of it. Whatever Willow was doing was keeping the snake thing down. I smiled. I couldn’t believe these two guys. It was love, that was what kept them going. Suddenly I realized, that was all I had needed before. Love. Love would beat the hell out of this guy. Literally.
* * *
“Hey, it’s the slayer!” Xander cried and pointed to Buffy as she moved towards them.
Buffy rolled her eyes. “You thought you had won, huh?” she demanded. She kicked the demon back. “Well, you mess with me, you mess with my crew. Never mess with a lovesick vampire,” Buffy ordered and shot the demon down.
“Ex-vampire!” Spike yelled.
“Sorry,” Buffy blushed.
“Now, who’s the boss now, huh?” Xander screamed.
Spike and Buffy turned to stare at the Xander.
“I’ve always wanted to say that,” Xander grinned.
“Wil, stop, it’s the demon, he’s the thing, we have to throw him into the hellmouth!” Buffy yelled.
Willow looked up and stopped chanting. The crack in the hellmouth widened.
“Okay, let’s stick this sucker in!” Spike cried. Buffy snorted and grabbed the demon.
“Don’t ever mess with these guys, see what happens?” Buffy demanded. She dropped the demon into the hellmouth. And jumped back.
“Get back!” Spike ordered to Willow and the others as the hellmouth shot close, sucking back everything it had brought out. Then the gate to all hell locked shut.
* * *
“See, Dawn, I told you it would be all right,” Giles nodded.
“Yeah,” Dawn smiled. “Buffy’s going to be fine.”
* * *
“You’re hurt,” Spike said indicating to the mark of the sword left on my neck.
“I guess,” I nodded.
“I meant inside,” he said. “Are you going to be okay?”
“Someday,” I nodded.
“Just remember, we’re all here for you. We all need you,” he smiled.
“I need you guys more, with out you guys. I’d be so far gone,” I admitted.
“Hey, even if you leave, we’re always here to bring you back,” Dawn called.
“Yeah, I always come through with the CPR,” Xander grinned.
“And the magic,” Willow and Tara laughed.
“And the crash,” Giles grunted.
“I meant about love, how’d we all graduate high school?” I demanded.
“You blew it up, remember?” Anya laughed.
I snorted. “Yeah, I guess I did.”
“Hey, we stopped the world from ending, it’s time to party,” Xander grinned.
“Sounds fun,” Dawn said.
Everyone slowly started to move. I glanced back at the hellmouth. “We stopped it.”
“Yeah, all hell demons beware of us,” Spike grinned.
“Spike,” I asked turning to look him in the eyes. “I think it’s time to live. We keep pretending there’s a tomorrow, but the world could end tomorrow.” I kissed him. “I’ll love you forever. And I’ll try to be there.”
“Well slayer, I’ll love you ‘til the end of the world. But I’m living for now.” He kissed me.
“’Til the end of the world.”