Betrayal by the Heart
see parts 1-8 for disclaimers
Part 9
He slipped into her room, quietly walking over to the bed he sat. The urge to touch her is just too much and his hand slips his hand into to the silken fire of her hair. Stroking oh so gently, making her moan in her sleep. God it was hard... hard to want something so bad and know that it wouldn't happen.
It was easier with Buffy. That relationship was doomed from the start. A vampire and a vampire slayer just are star crossed. Doomed by fate to love and lose. He had not expected it to last.
But with Willow it was different. She didn't love him. And that had nothing to do with the fact that he was a vampire. She just didn't love him. It was no ones fault but his own. Buffy could be blamed on his being a vampire. And it wasn't like he'd asked Darla to suck the life out of him and make him into one of the undead. It wasn't his fault that they would never be eternal. But Willow she didn't love him just cause. Oh she liked him, she even thought he was cute; but she didn't love him. Not how he loved her. She wanted to be his friend, to comfort him. He wanted to do things to her that he shouldn't be thinking about while sitting this close to her.
She was so beautiful. It hurt to look at her. To see that kind of purity and innocence that just shined around her like a hallow. The kind that burned those that were to tainted and gazed for to long.
He burned for her, because he just couldn't turn away. It hurt so much and he couldn't stop himself. Being near her was a torment that he wouldn't give up. He loved her and that love scorched his soul.
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"Angel?"
"Shhh. Don't worry Willow. Nothings wrong, I just- came to check up on you. And your okay so I guess that I'll be going now."
"Wait."
"Don't hate me Angel. I know that I was ungrateful for all you've done and that I hurt your feelings last night. I'm sorry."
"Oh god, Willow did you really think that I hated you? I mean yes my feelings were slightly hurt but that's got nothing to do with you. But those are my psychological hang ups."
"Maybe hate is to strong a word but I know your mad. And it doesn't matter why your feelings are hurt. Just that its my fault."
God you are so thoughtful it only makes me love you more.
Angel sighed turning to look out the window. " None of this is your fault. Your a sweet innocent bystander in a world that doesn't deserve you."
"What?"
"Nothing Willow, just go back to sleep. You have school tomorrow. Besides your eyes keep closing, I know your tired."
The next time Willow's eyes reopened it was morning and Angel was gone.
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"I saw him leave your room last night you slut. 'We're just friends' my ass."
"Buffy what the hell are you talking about. Never mind, I have to go to class. You know the place your supposed to go when your mom drops you off at school in the morning instead of skipping at the Library."
"I'm the slayer Willow. I have bigger things to worry about than sucking up to teachers so I can get A's."
"I do not- look I earn my grade. God if your going to have Xander do your homework you should least make sure he knows the assignment."
"Why you little bit-"
"I have to go Buffy. My education still matters to me."
"Fine, go I don't need you and I don't need him."
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"She hates me."
"She doesn't hate you Willow, she's just upset right now."
"Angel she's skipping all the classes she has with me, which happens to be like almost all of them. Then she has Xander do all the work she misses. Xander! She might as well not do it herself. She's going to flunk out and its all my fault."
"It is not your fault that Buffy can't be mature about anything! She is the one that refuse to listen to us. She is the one who refuses to see reason. She is the one skipping class and letting that moron not do her homework for her."
"She saw you leave my room last night. She thinks we- that you and I- are close."
"She thinks that I sleep with everyone woman I look at."
"I don't want to be the cause of your relationship ending Angel."
"Don't worry Willow your not-
Buffy and I are handling that quite well on our own."
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End part 9
