When I saw the episode "You had me at goodbye", I was crying deeply. It was so sad. I never really liked Andie in the past seasons. This season I liked her and now she’s gone. I think everybody is going to miss her. Especially, Pacey, Jack, Jen, Joey and Dawson. I put a page on her so that no one will ever forget her.
First, I put her little speech at the end which was really deep and sad. So here it is :
I'm leaving Capeside. And that's why I asked you all to come here tonight. To say goodbye and also, there's something I need to say to you guys. All of you, before I go. So Jen, Jack, please stay. (everyone sits, clockwise from Andie, Jack, Dawson, Joey, Pacey and Jen, in a circle. Andie stands and addresses everyone.) You know what, it shouldn't have taken a scheme to get you all here tonight. When my dad first made me the offer to take the rest of the year off, I sat down with my trust #2 and made my list of pros and cons. The pros were pretty obvious. Opportunity of a lifetime, right? Then came those nasty cons. You know what got top billing? You guys. The thought of leaving all my friends. I mean you guys are the one's who have supported and consoled and understood unconditionally. But look at us now. We are a mess. And let's talk about why, starting with last week's fiasco. Okay, enough with the blame Jen game. If I don't, you shouldn't. Yes, she had them. But I took them. It was my fault. And Pacey, Joey, Dawson - you guys are so lucky. Do you have any idea how rare it is to have friends that you've known your entire life? So please don't underestimate that. Because in the end you always go back to the people that were there in the beginning. And in the beginning, there was the three of you. And you two (Jack and Jen), you know what? This is just… it's really inexcusable. (To Jack) The biggest reason that was keeping me here was the thought that if I left, you wouldn't have a sister around. But then I realized you would. (to everyone) When I first met you, I didn't know much about love or friendship. And each of you taught me a lot about both. So maybe by my leaving, I can return the favor. Because the thought of it ending like this, the way things are right now… it's just… it's not how I want to remember us. Do you?
Secondly, I put an e-mail that Andie sent to her friends :
Dawson, Joey, Jen, Jack, and Pacey,
I thought I said everything I needed to say at the "party" (we seem to have a lot of those lately)… but I thought of a few more things I couldn't leave without adding.
You guys are my family. These past few years have been difficult. I've done some things I'm very proud of and I've done a few things I'm not so proud of. I've had to overcome a lot of obstacles and with your help I was able to rise above many painful circumstances that were beyond my control.
Jack – My brother. My optimism comes from your quiet support of me. I am so grateful to you for everything you've taught me, most importantly, to have courage, to be true to yourself, and to follow your heart. Although my heart is taking me away from Capeside, it will never take me away from you.
Jen – My "sister." You are the sister I never had but always wanted. I had so much fun with you last summer. I will never forget all the laughs, the tears, the late nights. I know you blame yourself for the recent events – but Jen nobody could convince me to do something I didn't already want to do. You are not responsible for anyone's behavior but your own… certainly not mine. Remember how much I respect and admire you. I know we'll keep in touch and be friends forever. You really are my sister. We're family now. Take care of Jack while I'm gone, ok?
Dawson – My partner in optimism. I got to know you so much better last summer. You are the one other eternally optimistic person I know. You always see the glass as half full – and it really is, Dawson (and those days when it feels like it isn't, I know I can count on you to SING THE BLUES – :)). We both know heartache and disappointment but we also know love and that's a feeling that can't be learned or taught. That's a feeling that must be experience by putting yourself out there and letting fate handle the rest. I know you'll accomplish your dreams, Dawson, even if you can't pinpoint exactly what they are. The whole world is out there and we'll both get a chance to see it.
Joey – My friend. I know for a while things were a little awkward between us but Joey, you are one of my best friends. You have overcome just as challenging obstacles in your own life and your strength inspires me. I know you'll go far in college and beyond. Maybe you should run for office (not class president again although you were a great running mate)… Don't be too cynical, Joey. Life really is good…and you've got a great person to share it with.
Pacey – My first love. I love you, Pacey. As a friend, as so much more. Leaving Capeside is easy compared to letting you go. You believed in me, Pacey, sometimes when I didn't even believe in myself. I'll never forget dancing under the twinkle lights with you. You are my most cherished memory and I know what's past is in the past, but I will always hold it dear to my heart. There's always a little room in everyone's hearts for their first loves. I hope there's a little space in yours for me.
I love you all so much. This isn't good-bye. We'll all be together again, I know it. But for now, I'm going to see the world and hopefully I'll come back with perspective on what's important. But I already know what's most important -- my friendships with all of you. Love each other and take care of each other. I'll be thinking of you all fondly.
No goodbyes but much love,
Andie McPhee
P.S. Jack – if you're reading this, get off your butt and come help me close my suitcase. It's stuck!!! :)
In memory of the gang with Andie for the last time…
See you Andie!
