Author: Kerry
Disclaimer: Not mine, don't sue.
Category: M/L Lizs POV - set during the connection scene, The Pilot
Rating: PG
Feedback: Yeah! I would love it! Please don't flame though, I'm fragile.
Comments: A friend sent me lyrics to a song, wanting to inspire a fic out of me as soon as I read them, I thought of this.. so Kirsten, this fic is for you!
Authors Notes: The lyrics belong to Depeche Mode. There is no infringement intended.
I Feel You by Depeche Mode
I feel you
Your sun it shines
I feel you
Within my mind
You take me there
You take me where
The kingdom comes
You take me to
And lead me through Babylon
This is the morning of our love
It's just the dawning of our love
I feel you
Your heart it sings
I feel you
The joy it brings
Where heaven waits
Those golden gates
And back again
You take me to
And lead me through oblivion
This is the morning of our love
It's just the dawning of our love
I feel you
Your precious soul
And I am whole
I feel you
Your rising sun
My kingdom come
I feel you
Each move you make
I feel you
Each breath you take
Where angels sing
And spread their wings
My love's on high
You take me home
To glory's throne
By and by
This is the morning of our love
It's just the dawning of our love
We watched each other, eyes flickering back and forthdarting away if caught, slightly embarrassed.
Our feelings for each otherthey never would have come to the surface if it wasnt for this day when we shared.we shared the very essence of ourselves.
I have to touch you, he had said, watching me with those intense brown eyes, warmly sparkling even in their seriousness. He watched me as though half fearful I would run away from him.
I could never run from him. Even in my wariness, I knew that.
I felt myself nod cautiously, not even letting myself think about it. Deep inside, I knew I didnt have to. This was Max.
He had risked everything. For me. For a nobody.
Now just take deep breaths and try to let your mind blank out, he had murmured, quietly, gently cradling my head between his capable palms as though I were a precious gift that may break if he wasnt too careful.
I took a deep breath as my mind filled with images of him, afraidalonein love. I saw me and my heart swelled, sang, flewnot with my feelings, but with his.
He had watched me for years, loving me from afarnever realising that I had watched back, wanting him, needing him.
To him, I was somebody. To me, he was more than just Max.
It was as though realisation had struck me with a blow straight to my heart, zinging straight down the connection we made. He was my other halfhe was what made me whole.
How could I have missed this? We had wasted so much time.
Did it work? I heard him ask, removing his hands from my head, causing an internal protest deep within myself.
Yet all I could do was nod numbly.
We had finally found it, what people spend years of their lives looking for, some seeking without ever finding.
Love. Pure. Unconditional and without a doubt.
We smiled tentatively at each other, both knowing that things had changed. Nothing would be the same again. A gate had been opened that couldnt be closed.and in all honesty, I wouldnt want it to.
A bullet had brought us together.let nothing tear us apart.
And, now, as I watched the tail lights of Maxs jeep disappear into the darkness, I knew this would only be the beginning.
Already I could feel myself changing, making room, yet filling up the emptiness I had felt inside me, all at the same time.Max was entering my soul with his essence, making me whole, making me feel complete.
I leant my head on the door of the Crashdown and tipped it back to look at the starsto thank every one of them for the gift they had given me.
They gave me Max.
My soul.
My heart.
My love.
Thank you.
The End
