"See- I solve all problems. It's a gift. I think it comes from my mom?" Bianca said hesitating, "No wait…that's creating problems." Both girls laughed.
"Thanks Bianca. I needed this more then you could ever know. You once again saved me from making some stupid rash decision."
"What are friends for," Bianca smiled. "You going to use all that hot sauce?"
"Knock yourself out," Maggie laughed pushing it toward Bianca.
"Ohh I love this song," Bianca said as she heard the tune playing in the background. "It reminds me of…of…this song," Bianca said pathetically covering up her slip of tongue. 'God why can't I just keep my mouth shut? Why? Cause once again, I'm Erica's daughter!' Bianca thought to herself.
"This song reminds you of a song? Right," Maggie said. For her own part she thought she knew what Bianca was going to say. 'This song reminded her of Frankie I bet,' Maggie thought.
"So what do you want to…" Bianca began to ask, but Maggie held up her hand and shushed the young girl.
"Shhhh- I want to hear the song now," Maggie said tilting her head sideways and looking into Bianca's eyes. "If you love it, it's got to be good."
Bianca swallowed hard and broke eye contact. Sometimes lately, when Maggie looked at her, she felt naked. Almost like Maggie could see into her soul and know what she was feeling. It made her uncomfortable. She wished she could be anywhere but there at that moment. So she did what came naturally. She ate her nachos and smiled back. 'There's no way Maggie would ever figure out this song reminds me of her. Just sit here and smile.' And she did.
Find me here and speak to me. I want to feel you, I need to hear you.
You are the light that is leading me to the place where I find peace
again.
You are the strength that keeps me walking.
You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the life to my soul.
You are my purpose.
You are everything.
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands you won't let me fall.
You still my heart and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in?
Would you take me deeper now?
'Cause you're all I want you're all I need
You are everything
Everything.
"Wow. That is a great song."
"Yeah it is," Bianca smiled.
"So what song does it remind you of?" Maggie asked. She didn't understand why Bianca just didn't say it reminded her of Frankie. Maggie came to understand over these past few months that Bianca would never be over Frankie. She accepted it and moved on.
"Song? Oh…umm…you know that one with the guy? The long hair?" Maggie just looked at her. 'Gotcha.'
"It's okay if it reminds you of Frankie. It's okay to talk about it you know?"
"Frankie?"
"Yeah…I mean I am sure she'd be flattered."
"Maggie…this song doesn't remind me of Frankie. It reminds me of you."
"Me?"
"Yeah, but don't freak on me okay? It's not like that. I just. I mean I've come to depend on you so much Maggie. You're everything to me you know? I…what I felt for Frankie was in some ways the same…but it's different with you."
"Different with me how?" Maggie was intrigued now. She wondered where this conversation might be going?
"It's different with you because…you are not Frankie. I've never thought you were. I mean sure, you're her twin and you look alike but you are two very different people. And I love you both for some of the same reasons and for different ones also."
"Love? Really?"
"Of course silly you're my best friend," Bianca smiled.
"So you've never gotten confused by us. I mean…you've never thought of me as Frankie?"
"No. How could I? You two are so different."
"And when you leaned in to me, and put your hands on my cheek that night at our birthday party celebration…was it me or Frankie you wished you could have kissed?"
'BUSTED' Maggie thought. She now had Bianca right where she wanted her. And there was no way she was letting her out of this one.
"I wasn't going to kiss you…I was just," Bianca hesitated.
"Just what Bink? Just removing the chocolate from my lips with yours? Just wanting to get a better look at my smile? What?"
"I thought we put this behind us?" Bianca feared Maggie was still holding resentment about her attempted kiss that night.
"We did. But it jumped back out. So who were you trying to kiss?"
"I…I was drunk. I wouldn't have done it. I'm sorry. I just…you looked so beautiful and I wanted too much to kiss you. I don't normally do things like that. I mean crushes on straight girls just aren't allowed. No one wins…" Bianca was running on at the mouth.
"Crushes? Do you have a crush on me Ms. Montgomery?" "Maggie smiled evilly?
"You're enjoying this aren't you?" Bianca asked shyly.
"Every second."
"Yes. It was you I tried to kiss. Not Frankie. I just said that so you wouldn't be freaked out by me. I mean I saw the look in your eyes Maggie. I knew you were upset. I mean it was clear. Who can blame you? I'm sure not many of your female friends try to kiss you on a daily basis."
"No. No you've got a point there."
"So there. It's out. Let's move on shall we?"
"So that's why you pushed so hard with Tim? Cause you were afraid of your own feelings?" Bianca only nodded her head.
"So do you still feel the same way? Do you still have a crush on me Binks?"
Bianca shook her head no. Maggie felt a small part of her hopes that this might be leading someplace shatter. "No, no crushes. I haven't had a crush on you since the night of the prom. Cause on that night I realized I loved you. It was way beyond a crush."
"You love me?" Maggie said softly.
"With everything I am Maggie. Can't you see that?"
"I…I should have. But no. I didn't. I was too busy I guess. Too busy trying to sort through my own feelings."
"For Tim?" Bianca asked looking down at the table.
"No Bianca. Not for Tim. For you."
"Me?"
"Yeah. It's not just any girl I give my hot sauce too you know?" Maggie teased, "Remember that night at the boat house? When we had been swimming?"
"Sure. That was a great night," Bianca smiled.
"It was then. We were sitting there, drying off, and I thought 'I want to spend every waking second with this girl,'"
"So why Tim then?" Bianca asked
"Tim was a mistake. A mistake you took part in creating Binks," Maggie smiled.
"I know. I'm sorry about that. I promise though…no more hook-ups." Bianca crossed her heart.
"Only one more Bink," Maggie smiled.
"Oh. Who?"
"You. Duh."
"Oh."
"I love you." Maggie said softly.
"I love you too." Bianca answered.
"So can I have some of that hot sauce now?" Maggie smiled and leaned over, kissing Bianca's lips. "Ummm…hot."
Bianca laughed and the girls stood up to go. "Swim?" Maggie asked.
"Swim," Bianca answered.
FIN
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