OFF: Thank you Ensign Koptuka for welcoming me back, it was very 
generous of you. I hope to chat with you sometime in our post! 

ON:

LOCATION: {First Officers Office}

:: I stand there at attention, wondering what the First Officer was 
going to say to me. I knew that she was upset with me, mostly hurt 
though, because I could tell that she not only valued me as a crew 
member, but she valued me as a friend as well. ::

Tolbin: "Counselor, please give me a moment to finish what I was 
doing then I will get with you, take a seat please." :: She turns 
away from me to continue her readings on the situation the Excalibur 
was facing. ::

:: I sit there, still and upright. I was scared to face her, it was 
like coming in front of a King or someone glorious and asking them to 
spare my life. It was like time had just stood still during the 
moment of waiting for her to turn to me. I knew that I had failed 
her and the Captain, and then returning to ask for my job and life 
back, would she understand my fear? Would she understand that I was 
scared of being the failing and/or being rejected by the crew. I 
know that I am a good counselor, I know that I could help alot of 
people, I didn't have any problems when I was the counselor at 
Starfleet Medical, but I always had someone to turn too, if I had 
questions, but now it was just me, I was the counselor, I do not have 
another on board to help question my opinions and decide if I am 
right or wrong, I have to do it myself, and that is a big fear, but I 
have to face it head on, especially now with our mission, I have to 
be the back bone of the ship, facing my fear head on. I am going to 
take the challenge if the First Officer lets me. And I will win and 
succeed, just like the whole crew of the Excalibur will. ::

OFF: I know this was shorter than what I usually post, but I was 
trying to get this out before the next day....but its the next 
day...I will probably post again later, and longer like normal. Have 
a great day.

Ensign Crystal Jade
Ships Counselor
USS Excalibur, NCC-2997