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{Ingoldos crew quarters}

:: After his session with Counselor Jade, Ingoldo is off-duty feeling 
frustrated after his hour with the counselor. The morning has been a 
emotional rollercoaster with the maiden voyage and the suggestion 
that _he_ is feeling guilty. ::

:: During "a little shake down cruise", (he had to ask Commander 
Tolbin what that meant is not everything of the ship fixed in 
place?) , he was on the bridge at the science station calibrating the 
scientific instruments within the long range sensors. ::

Ingoldo: (How can I get the Counselor to understand? To use words 
when speaking about your emotions is hard for a telepath. Talking is 
so limiting when so have to express feelings. :: Sights :: I got to 
do something else for a while.)

Ingoldo: "Computer is there a Holodeck aboard which is free?"

Computer: "Holodeck Four on deck eleven."

Ingoldo: "Reserve it for me." :: He walks from his quarters towards 
the turbolift. ::

{Holodeck Four on deck 11}

:: Ingoldo is on the holodeck. He looks at the empty room with a 
curious gaze, he is impressed by the size and the limitless 
possibilities it represents. Where to begin? ::

Ingoldo: "Computer please access my personal files and download 
computer program Alpha One to this holodeck." :: The computer chirps 
a positive respons. ::

Ingoldo: "Activate program." :: A humanoid female appears in the 
middle of the floor dressed in a pyjamas looking sleepy. ::

Ingoldo: "TeSandra did I wake you?" :: Smiles ::

TeSandra: "_What_does_it_look_like_!" ::Turns and glances with a mean 
look at Ingoldo.:: 

Ingoldo: "TeSandra you do _not_need to sleep because you are a 
hologram." :: Big smile now :: 

TeSandra: "Are you sure about that?" :: Winks. :: "Then a must change 
into something more normal." :: In a flash TeSandra has a blue 
jumpsuit instead of her pyjamas. ::

:: TeSandra is a spinn of effect from Starfleets Emergency Medical 
Hologram program developed on Jupiter station by Dr. Lewis Zimmerman. 
With the help of the Bynars Starfleet has created a new type of 
interactive holograms. Through a positronic network they have created 
a sentient life-form that can learn from data, experiences and even 
to be creative. When Ingoldo was on Starbase 123 she was assigned as 
his labassociate. And when he moved to USS Excalibur she came along 
to continue their work here. Through Holographic projectors she is 
able to work in the laboratory and participate on the holodeck. When 
she is not active she resides in a independent computer system in the 
laboratories. Now she and Ingoldo are great friends. :: 

TeSandra: "So what is going on?"

Ingoldo: "Nothing is up."

TeSandra: "Come on, I can read you like a book. Something is on your 
mind I can always tell."

:: Ingoldo tells here about his session with Counselor Jade and about 
his feelings and what she believes. ::

TeSandra: "She is wrong about you suppressing your abilities. She 
does not understand what your mental shields are for. I know that you 
use them to protect your mind from other non-telepaths minds. Without 
them you would "loose" yourself. To screen out other beings 
telepathic noise is vital to Betazoids.
"She does not understand that you feel the emotions of others all the 
time. 
I know that some are bothered by the fact that you can sense their 
emotions and thoughts."

Ingoldo: "I know it, I was right and she was wrong."

TeSandra: "However I belive she is right on one thing, you feel 
guilty."

Ingoldo: "What?" :: A surprised look ::

TeSandra: "I belive she is right about you feeling guilty on a sub-
consciences level, but from their reaction to your abilities. You 
feel guilty when you sense their reaction to you, somekind of 
mental "spy" reading their inner thoughts and emotions. Even if they 
feel it on a sub-consciences level it makes you feel guilty."

Ingoldo: "_Thanks Doctor!_"

TeSandra: "Do not get angry, you know I am right. Sometimes as a 
friend I must tell you the truth. They do not understand that reading 
minds without their approval is despised by betazoids. And you do not 
wish to bring up these negative emotions in them."
Ingoldo: "Well," :: Smiles :: ", I had to hear it from a friend I 
guess."
TeSandra: "Talk to her again during the next session. And she told 
you to exercise your abilities one hour everyday, did she know?" :: 
She asks with a smile ::
Ingoldo: "Only one hour per day? Try every hour of the day and 
night. :: Smiles :: "I will talk to her again tomorrow and if she 
allows communicate with her mind to mind so she can understand my 
emotions."
TeSandra: "Good." :: Looks at the holodeck walls :: "What shall we do 
now? Some unarmed combat?"
Ingoldo: "You choose."
TeSandra: "Lets see. We have 400 OHDs per cm2, medium-duty electro 
plasma taps, twelwe subprocessing layers and force field in three 
dimensions."
"Why not go swimming!"
:: With those word the floor disappear under Ingoldos feets and is 
replaced by water. The result is a short fall and a very wet 
Ingoldo. ::
::It is not far to the beach and he swims towards the beach to change 
into a bathing-suit.::
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Ensign Ingoldo
Chief Science officer
USS Excalibur NCC-2997