Hope

i sit and wonder to myself, what is to become of me? of my life? and when will i get my answer. i used to know what i was going to be, to do, i even knew who i was going to love for the rest of my life. now, i know of nothing. i don't even know what i want to be anymore. i have lost that security that i once had. but maybe it's just better not to know. we all need a little wonder in our lives. it gives us something more to hope for when we have nothing. and though it may seem that we have nothing, we always ha ve our dreams, even when we're not quite sure what we want out of life.

all i know is that i want to be happy. i want a nice house, a family of my own, a job that i like, and friends that will stand behind me when i'm starting to fall. it doesn't seem like to much to ask, but maybe it is. maybe i'll never have that security, but i'll always have my dreams. and my memories. and my pride. some things just cannot be taken away, as long as we hold on to them.

i can be anything! i can do anything! i am a free preson and have my own choices to make. and soon, i will be a legal adult, even though i have seemed to be an "adult" for years now. just now, that will be recognized by the government. hope has a place, and i have found it. and i am holding onto it with all that i have. it's all i have now and if i let go of my hope, then i have nothing. but with it, i have the entire world at my fingertips.