"Taylor,"I use his full first name, not "Tay," and I say it as coldly as I can, which sadly isn't very, "I'm pregnant."
Shit. I said it. I didn't even think about it, but I said it. Oh shit.

I wish I knew what he was thinking. No, I don't. I know I don't. He looks up at me. I'm still looking at the piano but I see him move out of the corner of my eye and I look up to meet his gaze.
"But how...did..we...were..but..." he uses his hands to talk, and looks near to tears.
"Not careful enough, I guess," I mutter. His girlfriend steps in softly, peeking around the door. Diana stands up and walks out and we hear her walking down the stair way.
Amy walks over to a stunned Tay, who hasn't quite grasped what I just told him, "what happened, Tay?" she says lowly.
"I...I'm going...I'm..." it's hard for him to tell her, because saying it again makes it sink in more, makes it more real.
"I'm.." he looks at me, "I'm going to be a father..." as the words tumble from his mouth he looks more dazed than ever. She looks shocked and kind of angry. She glares at me when she thinks I don't see, but I don't care. I stand up.
"I guess I better go," I walk to the door, and Tay turns to me, white as a sheet and barley able to talk.

"No, don't go yet," it takes him alot of strength to say that, and it makes Amy just a little more angry.
Tay stares past the drums, and I can only guess he's turning memories over in his head like I had done. His eyes fill with tears and he breaks down and cries. What I had done for two days before and what I had forced myself not to do today, he did, falling to his knees and sobing.
It was about the last thing I expected and it made me lose everything and break down and cry. I started to walk to the door, slipping past an enraged Amy. Tay shakes his head and I stop walking.

Ike walks in, "what the hecks going on here?"
Tay looks up, his face distorted from the tear that burned his cheeks,
"Mia...Mia's" sob "having, she's having my baby, Ike."
Ike just stands there, shocked but not surprised. Amy storms out. Ike looks at me then at Tay, "well then, what are you going to do?"
Almost as if they were the only two in the room they continue to talk. Ike looks down at his younger brother. "I know you still love her, and so did Amy," he sighs, "but what are you going to do about it now?"
Still loved me? What? Then why the hell am I alone? What's going on?

I just sit and listen, with a million thoughts and questions running through my mind.
"I don't know," Tay answers, still sobing, "I know you knew, I told you, and I was pretty sure Amy knew, but I don't know, now that I find out...that..Ike, I cannot believe this, I'm 21 and I'm going to be a father, God help me."
"Bro, slow down, first you have to decide what to do about Mia, Amy, and the kid," Ike says softly.
What do you mean about the kid? There isn't really anything I can do. I don't know about the rest of it," he moans.
Domenica slips out the door, and I can't stand this anymore.

" If you still loved me so much, why did you leave me?" I ask, almost on the verge of tears again.
He looks up, remembering that I've been listening to him this whole time. "Things with you just went way too fast, and I got restless. I had to do something before I settled down, and everything was so good it just...it was so routine lately, my whole life was, I had to do something. I didn't want to end up without you, but I needed time off before something happened...like this, I guess. We were happy the way we were, I know, but eventually we'd have to do something and I wasn't ready to face that. Now I guess I have to be. But I need to break the routine and same old song and dance that my life had become, and since I already had a reason to.. to be an idiot, I did it."

He sighs and looks at the ground. What he says makes sense, I felt that a lot, too, but it wouldn't have made me feel any better a week ago. It does a little, now, but although I'm no longer confused, we have to go somewhere from here.
"I guess that makes sense, I felt that way sometimes, but I didn't want to do anything about it, maybe I was more ready for it. But I still wasn't ready for this...but that's the way things go I guess. I was scared when I found out, because I'd lost everything that would have been family, but I was happy too, because it was a part of you I could keep when I watched you walk away with Any. God I must sound stupid, but...I...I wasn't going to tell you." I conclude.