Brief and Bittersweet


Dawn had been back for two weeks. Boot camp and subsequent training had trimmed her little body into a crazier buff state, and her tan had lasted through the fall months to land on his eyes when she pulled into his driveway. The country night was bitter, but not chilly enough for the time of year. A dull smell--part mud, part garage, part cold air--made them remember these two weeks, nights just like this spent in his front yard.

“Heya Benji,” she said. In six days she’d be going to Europe, stationed there for two years.

“Hi Dawn,” Benji breathed. She put her arms around his neck.

Their history was dotted by declarations of friendship. Countless times, Benji or Dawn had set the other up for dates with their friends; they had dated each other for four months. Last spring, Benji’s girlfriend-of-the-moment broke up with him when she saw Dawn kiss him. Dawn was graduating and leaving for the army in eleven day’s time when it happened, but everyone knew they never really got over each other.

“I have to tell you something.”

She stood in front of him and behind him. She would never get to tell him if it wasn’t now, and he’d never know unless she opened her mouth for something other than his tongue.

“Benji, I wanna go to Germany. I wanna go really bad.” He nodded. “But I don’t wanna go to Germany just the same.”

“Why?” he asked.

“Because I... I wish my leave had been longer. I wish I didn’t have to go so soon.” She played with the longer bits of his hair at the nape of his neck. “There are so many people here I want to see more of before I leave. And I wanna see you.”

Several years had been building up to this moment. She didn’t want to lose him again. It was now or never.

“Benji, I just want to let you know that I love you, and I mean it for real. I want you to understand that. I’m still going to Germany, and when I get back, I’m going to find you and I’m going to marry you.” She kissed him.

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Benji lay sprawled out on the edge of the hill next to his house. Dawn sat on some old tractor parts nearby. So many stars could be seen. She counted them and hummed nervously to herself. Benji wasn’t talking much.

“How are you feelin’, Benji?” she asked.

He was looking up at the sky when she turned to him. He had a look on his face.

“Benji?”

Suddenly he grinned. Benji blushed. “You’re gonna come back and find me...?”

Dawn hopped down to the sparsely grassy ground, crouched near his head. “Yup.”

This time, he kissed her. Funny how proposals can work out.

"Forever," Benji said quietly.

In the meantime, there was nothing else they could say, and no time for finding words. They had only six days.


Issue 4:
Intro
brief and bittersweet
hair dye party
quotes
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