"Darkness is surrounding me,
nothing is everything I see...
The world sees of me what they
want, but who they see exists not...
Inside this shell lives a heart that's
lonely, and a soul that's far from holy...
If, me, the world would see,
it would be so easy to be me...
But, my wishes didn't come true,
and I kept going as my heartache grew...
Always stuck in the middle,
unable to understand my heart’s riddle...
I know, some have been where
I am, I also fight what battles I can...
Trying to find the love I seek,
but, after many defeats, I am so weak...
How can I live with a heart
cut in two, unable to give it just to You...
I need both in life, a
husband and a wife...
It’s not a choice of my mind,
it’s a need, my heart has to find...
I wish I could compromise, but
my heart nor mind accept lies...
I belong to Sylvia and Chris, my heart and soul are hers and his...
They make my life so complete,
my heart will never again suffer defeat...
I hope they stay by my side,
and lift me up during the fight...
Without them I again will fall
back, to walk the dark bisexual track...
As love and life goes on, an
endless night with no dawn..."
© Diana C.J. aka silkentoes
I am born in Amsterdam, The Netherlands on Feb. 1, 1972... I still live here, and work as a R.N. (Registered Nurse) in the E.R. (Emergency Room) of a hospital... I am partly Swedish (my grandmom) and French (my dad's grandfather) but most of me is genuine Dutch...I am married to Sylvia, (same gender marriages are legal in Holland) we got married on Oct. 10, 1999... Syl is also born in Amsterdam on Dec. 23, 1971 and is half Spanish (her dad) and half Dutch... She works as a nurse in a centre for senior citizens...
I have brown/blond hair, green eyes, am 5ft 11inch (1.79 mtr), weight is 162 lbs (69.5 kg), measurements: 37C/30/35 (94-72-86) and my shoe size is 8 1/2 (39 1/2)...
I like: Fitness...dancing...swimming...water-ski...tennis...the beach...movies...music...open minded people...dolphins & dragons...almost all animals...silk, satin, and latex clothing...bdsm...foreign languages...the smell of jasmine...my hot tub...a nice long massage...making love...candlelight dinners...vegetables and fruits...poetry and mIRC...:-)
I dislike: Alcohol...hatred...violence...dishonesty...machos...narrow minded people...crowded places...spiders, flies, muskitos...lack of personal hygiene...and junkfood...
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