That dream don't read it's more for my own preference, it appear boring to you SO DON'T READ
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Two nights ago or so, I had a dream; and in that dream, I saw my grandma. Though it was not much, i was surprised to the point of no escape, if that was what it was, it made sense to me. The funny thing was, why had my grandma finally appear to me now when she had appeared in dreams to my mom, my sister, and my grand aunt. Those appearances were all near her the few week days and weeks and months since her passing. When my mom and yaddy yadda had told me about their dream with my grandma in it, i was curious. Two points had arisen. Firstly, they have dreamless sleeps most of the time and secondly, what the hell was going on? Don't ask why i was thinking all that, but this is not about why or whatever that's technical about all this. This is just about feelings that i can only try and share with words. All the dreams that my family had were not frightful dreams like some ominous deadly ghost is haunting them in their sleep but peaceful, yet surprising dreams.
Sis's dream:
My sister had said that she had a dream, just one dream of my grandma in the kitchen, one of the favorite places that my grandma liked to be in. In that dream my sister saw my grandma with me and my mom and we were smiling and acting pretty normal. Meanwhile my sis was shocked and was wondering why was grandma here?! Wasn't she--? One thing that I really want to make clear was that my grandma appeared in the dream with a smile on her face and nothing more from her lips as recalled from my sister. In a way, I believe it was a departing dream. It was as if my grandma had chanelled through to my sister and told her not to feel sad. When i heard of that dream i was thinking, that's weird, my sis and my grandma never really got along...it was almost as if they hated each other. In a way i was thinking, HELLO WHAT ABOUT ME? HaH...well that dream was about a few weeks or so after my grandma's passing. My mom also had a dream around the 70th or 75th day after that time.
Mom's dream:
My mom had a dream as i said about the 70th day after that faithful time. Her dream was brief as well, but it as she had told, like this....We were all going on a trip, my grandma, mom, sis, and me. Who knows where we were going does not matter. It was what happened after that that really counts. When we returned, someone told my mom that grandma won't be coming back with us. That was also a departing dream for my mom. My mom I believed had feel probably the saddess out of the three of us. It was a reassurance type of dream, letting my mom know that, she's leaving for who knows where, heaven, nirvana, the utmost light in the universe, who knows. Later after that dream from my mom, i heard more coming, now from one of my grand aunt. My grandma's youngest sister. They never got along.
Grand aunt's dream:
My grand aunt lived in Virginia since i don't even remember when. My grandma and my grand aunt never really liked each other and i would remember my grandma saying how she doesn't know why her sister would hate her and why things are bad between them and it was vice versa with my grand aunt. Well now her dreams weren't really exactly full out dreams, they were more like visions where my grandma would appear. She had these dreams recurringly<---forgot the word right now, w/e...well she had those visions more than once. Now the funny thing is at that time, my grandaunt was planning on moving my grandma's other sister and herself to live here with us, but she was really not definitely sure about it. However, my grandma kept appearing in the moments of my grand aunt's nights. Until one day my grand auntie decided to pack up and really leave for to come live with us. My grandma stopped appearing. That i perceive was a message through a dream. She wanted some kind of point to come. Since she no longer had a physical body with a voice she could do not other thing to communicate with the living. She must have forgiven and wanted to make her last help for my mom by asking her two sisters to come live with us. (i cried when i heard that) My grand aunts have officially moved in with us for about 3 months now.
My dream:
Yes finally now my dream. I had it recently as mentioned above. Mine came 7 months after my grand ma's leave. In this dream, my mom, my sis, my grandma, and myself, we were all on a bed in my mom's room. My grandma smiled and nothing more, of course, she's only a spirit. Somehow i felt that this was really the final time that i will see her again and only in pictures then after. So i took that time and all i can really say that happen was i hugged my grandma for the first time ever with feelings that i never really had for her. I was pretty much like my grandma's favorite. I was always there with her, EVERYWHERE she went. Europe, Canada, who knows, anywhere. But i had never truly felt comfortable being around her when she was alive until that dream. There was this feeling inside me that was calm and soothing that i just wanted to hug her for so long before she disappears, forever, but somehow when i woke up, i felt as though she never left but left a part of her in me. I had never in my life truly loved my grandma and felt comfortable and happy with her as in those few minutes or hours of my time in the dreamworld. It was as if she had finished everything that she had needed to do and paid her last visit to me before goes and join all the departed ones. My mom had said that maybe she was visiting me now since it's almost time i'll start the new school year, senior year. I then recalled a time not so long ago that my grandma had said that someday, if i would still be alive i will see you go to college and then getting married. Then i would cry again and again thinking back, why aren't you here?....but you are, you're everywhere now that you are not confided to a physical body, you can be everywhere....and i feel comforted.
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