Updated: February 15, 2002
I've been 18 a month today!!
I honestly don't know why I'm at school and working on my website. It's weird I know... but Pettey isn't here so we have absolutly nothing to do. At any rate...I'm pissy today... for one main reason. hmm.... I've lost all my friends, and I guess I deserve it. Wes says there is one thing that I have to do to umm...umm... I don't know. But my question is, why should I? He is making me take sides, I hate taking sides and I absolutly hate being put on the spot when I didn't do jack shit in the first place... He says I wasn't there for him, but I swear to the trees that if he had let me know he needed me THAT much, I would have been there. I don't understand him...I don't understand guys all together, probably a good thing I'm a girl then.
Marissa has me confused. I guess I deserve that too. I'm soo not bitching about our relationship, if you can call it that, but the fact of the matter is, I've waited SOOOOOOOO long to have a relationship such as this....
Thomas is pretty pissed at me right now, and he has a very good reason to be. I just don't know what to do to make it up. I guess there isn't much that I can do.... what a bitch what a bitch.
Alright...it took me about 5 minutes to type this... now I'm going to go and play with the hampster Brandon left with Asher... it's soo cute, it reminds me of mine. :o(
February 11, 2002
Umm..let's see just how long I can go on with this..blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah BLAH blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...hmm...is that enough? HELL NO! blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...
Alright bitch. Listen up. Everyone needs to grow up here. I'm not some kind of fucking toy to fight over alright? I'll choose to do what ever the hell I want to do OK?? No, you don't understand that.. you don't understand jack shit.
Well....I guess I'll end it here tonight. Bitch bitch bitch bitch. Yeah.... sounds like a good place to stop.
Mika
January 1, 2002
Well, I have a lot on my mind, so I've decided after much debate to put a piss off page back in circulation. Yeah yeah, hold down the applause please!
Anyhoot... I'm starting this one out with an apology....wow, how wonderful! This apology goes out to someone that I honestly care about, and hurt Sunday night/Monday morning. It was our first...umm..I don't know if you would consider it a fight, but it is the first time we've had it out so to speak since we started dating.... Thomas, I'm so sorry for Monday night..but there was nothing to worry about. I swear to the tree's there is nothing to worry about. And I'm going to keep apologizing until I'm blue in the face...but I got hurt Monday night too. It's a shame you can trust me, but not enough. You say you trust me, but if you did, you wouldn't have been so worried or upset.
Now...Next on my list is Eric. Why Eric? Because he's a fucking asshole! that's why. No one treats my girl the way he has treated her. I'm pointing most of the blame on Bill though. He's so damn controlling and then he talkes about Beth like a dog, but no one tells me until it's over, if I knew about it when it happens, I'd hurt him. Cousin or no cousin, Bill is such an asshole anymore and I for one am sick of it.
Hmm... There was a lot more to complain about, but I just don't remember. Grr...
If I think of more later, I'll definatly share.
Mika