I got a message on my answering machine today.They said for me to go down to the hospital.I got into my car and drove down.When I finally got there the nurse said that my current girlfriend Manduh was shot by a drive by shooting not to far away from here.She was in surgry right now.I don't know what I would do if she died.Could I go on being all happy and go-lucky or be miserable all my life and not ever find anyone right for me ever again?I was waiting patentily in the waiting room.I had a couple of BSB fans come up and ask for autographs and such.I saw the doctor walking this way.I prayed to god that she was alright.I was getting really nervous.My heart was pounding like a drum.I was starting to sweat. "Nick?" "Yes"I said swallowing. "She didn't make it.The gun shot was too deep into her heart to save her.I'm sorry."I cried.What was I going to do with my life now?There was no one important anymore.I went home.I couldn't take the preasure any longer.I unlocked my door and went in and then locked it back up.I went into my kitchen and I grabbed a steak knife.I just wanted to kill myself.As I went down my chest with the knife I thought about Backstreet Boys and how we have helped other people now only if they could return the favor.I put the knife back.I couldn't do it.I wanted to live longer than 20 years of my life.
~2 Years Later~
I finally met someone new.We have been dating for a year now.I love her a lot.I know she loves me too.The 2 year anniversary of Manduh dieing is today.I stopped by her grave and put some flowers down.I still haven't gotten over her.I love her so much,and nothing is going to change that.I realized walking back to my car that nothing was going to get better it's only going to get worse each year.I thought long and hard if I should end my life that I have been living.Not caring about anything going on? or should I care and stop myself?I went on pondering about my problem for another 2 hours.I finally came up with a conclusion.End Nick end.I thought over and over again.It just wasn't right for me to be living a lie on my feelings for Manduh.I didn't know how to kill myself.."knife?"I said."Nah...to normal."..."gun!"I screamed."Perfect"I said putting a little smirk on my face.I drove down to the nearest gunshop and got a gun.I hid it in my drawer so Spring could see it.
~3 hours later~
Spring came over all happy to see me.She knew what day it was.She knew I was going to be sad.She didn't mind it.I sat her down on the couch in the living room. "I have a surprise for you."I said. "Okay."She sounded all excited to see what this so-called surprise was.She didn't know what was coming.I went upstairs and grabbed the knife.I walked back downstairs. "Close you're eys."She closed them.I held the gun up to my chest.I pulled the trigger.
*Springs P.O.V.*
I heard a gun shot.I uncovered my eyes.I saw Nick lieing there.He shot himself.I sat there and cried.I saw that Nick was still alive.I went over to him. "Why did you do this?"I asked. "I'm sorry I couldn't live my life any longer."he said taking a slow and deep breath. "I love you Nicky!"I screamed. "I love you to...don't you ever forget me." "I won't."He died.I picked up the gun I put myself in Nicks arms.I pulled the tigger.
*Brians P.O.V.*
I went on for days wondering why Nick hasn't shown up for any of the press conferences or anything.He won't answer his phone either.I went to his house to see what was wrong.His car is in the driveway.I saw Springs too.The door was locked.I remembered where he keeps his spare key just in case.I went back around to the front and unlocked the door.There was a horrible smell. "Nick? Hello?"I walked into the living room.I thought I would never see this.There was Nick lieing there dead with Spring in his arms.I thought what day is it? I remembered Manduh.It was the 2 year anniverary,but that was like a week ago though.I called the police and reported what happened.I thought 'Was this meant to be?or was is just fate lieing in gods hands?' I walked over to Nick... "It was nice knowing you Frack."
