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Subject: Extreme Priority – Same nightmares Objet: Priorité Extrême – les mêmes cauchemars URL: https://www.angelfire.com/sk3/decontracte https://www.angelfire.com/sk3/decontracte/hier-yesterday.htm https://www.angelfire.com/sk3/decontracte/images.zip (ENCODED - different - THE BEST WAY TO UNDERSTAND IF I CHANGE THE FILES WITHIN THE ZIP FILE OR ADD NEW ONES IS TO DOWNLOAD IT EVERY TIME AND COMPARE IT WITH THE PREVIOUS ZIP’S SIZE) ****I DO NOT WISH TO KEEP LIVING ALL THE SAME THINGS IF THEY REPEAT ALL OVER AGAIN AND IF THEY ARE NOT VERY UNPLEASANT EXPERIENCES. WHEN ONE WOULD EAT THE DISH OR THE DESSERT HE LIKES ALL THE TIME, HE’D GET SICK OF IT OR IF THERE IS SOME APPAREL YOU LOVE TO WEAR AND IF YOU WEAR IT EVERYDAY YOU’D GET TIRED OF IT AND IT WILL BE WORN OFF. SO WHEN PLEASANT THINGS CAN BE IRRITATING IF THEY ARE REPEATING AND WHEN YOU LOOK AT UNPLEASANT THINGS AND WHEN YOU SEE THEM REPEATING ALL THE TIME, YOU DO NOT QUITE FEEL THE JOY OF LIVING AS YOU SHOULD. SLEEPING AND WHEN I LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS IS RELATIVELY COMFORTABLE BECAUSE I GROW APART FROM THIS TROUBLESOME MESS I AM CONFINED TO AND SO THE NIGHTMARES BECOME THE DAYLIGHT ACTIVITY AND THE NIGHTTIME BECOMES THE REFUGE. AND I DO NOT WISH TO “PRIMARILY” DEPEND ON ANYONE THAT CANNOT UNDERSTAND OR HAS GROWN DISTANT FROM ME, BECAUSE MY STATE OF MIND IS VERY SENSITIVE AND HAS NEVER SEEN ANY TRUE STATE OF PEACE AND I DO NOT WISH TO WAKE UP REMEMBERING TIMES OF UNREST OR GET THE FEELING I STILL LIVE THEM. IN FACT WHEN I DRAGGED THE KEYBOARD CLOSER TO ME, I DECIDED TO CALL THIS MESSAGE AS “GOING HOME” BECAUSE I WANTED TO HAVE A HOME, A TRUE HOME, WITH NO STUNTS, NO PRIVACY VIOLATING FACTORS OR PEOPLE THAT DO NOT GENUINELY ACT LIKE A FAMILY AND I REALLY WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS QUAGMIRE BECAUSE I REALLY HAVE THE FEELING OF BEING A TRAMP, BEING FORCED TO SPEND LONG, PAINFUL HOURS OUTDOORS AND THE MORE I GROW FRAGILE THE MORE I FEEL LIKE SPENDING TIME KEEPING OFF FROM PEOPLE AND I DO NOT FRANKLY THINK I CAN DEPEND ON THE PEOPLE ONCE AGAIN; BECAUSE IN ORDER TO ENABLE ME TO BE FULLY SOCIALIZED AGAIN, THERE OUGHT TO BE A THOROUGH SHIFT IN WHICH SOCIETY I LIVE IN AND THE SOCIAL STATUS HAS TO CHANGE, BUT EVEN THEN I WILL NEED TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH THE FEELING OF DISTRUST, HAVING BEEN OFFENDED AND ASSAILED IN PUBLIC PLACES IN BOTH LIVES AND HAVING BEEN FORCED TO LIVE THINGS WITHOUT MY SECURITY AND SECURITY OF SANITY AND THE WAY I REVOLT AGAINST ALL THIS HORRIBLE CHAIN OF EVENTS IS BEING INTRODUCED AS IF THEY ARE MEANS OF MY IMBALANCE BUT I HAVE NEVER LIVED IN A PROPER SOCIETY MYSELF AND I LACK THE DISADVANTAGES OF IT. I WANT TO START LIVING NORMALLY AND WISH TO START THINGS WITHOUT ALL THESE AS I WISH TO SAY; ONE IMPORTANT PART OF THIS HAS TO BE MY FAMILY LIVING; THUS I MADE MY FINAL DECISION TO PROMPT THE NEIGHBOR’S ELDEST DAUGTHER TO BE THE TOP CHOICE NOT BECAUSE I KNOW WHERE SHE LIVES AND HOW MORE FREQUENTLY I SEE HER, BUT THERE IS A FACT THAT STARTED TO BOTHER ME WHICH IS THE FACT THAT THE ONE THAT CAME UNDERCOVER CAME TO REPLACE SOMEBODY THAT GRASPED MY ATTENTION FOR FLIRT AND IF I WILL KEEP BEING INTERESTED IN HER AND KEEP DEMANDING THAT I WANT HER, THE RISK IS THAT I MAY NOT EVENTUALLY HAVE HER BUT THAT BUCKTOOTHED BLUE EYED ONE WILL COME AND APPEAR OUT OF THE BLUE AND OUT OF DISGUISE, SO NOW THAT THE YOUNG GIRL THAT I WAS INTERESTED IN AND HAVE REALLY LIKED WITH THE LOOKS OF A MODEL APPEARED AS A SUBSTITUTE FOR SOMEBODY I HAVE LOOKED FOR AT MALLS SHE SAID SHE HAD GONE TO AND LOOKED FOR ALL AROUND THE TOWN, I AM AFRAID SHE MAY HAVE THE PHYSICAL LOOKS OF ATTRACTION JUST AS PERFECT AS ONLY A SHOP WINDOW MANNEQUIN AND WHEN I GO INSIDE I MAY COME ACROSS A TOTALLY DIFFERENT THING, SOME PAGE I’D RATHER NEVER OPENED ONCE MORE, A PAGE IN MY NOTEBOOK I WISH TO MAKE NO LONGER VISIBLE TO EYE JUST AS YOU POUR SOME GLUE BETWEEN PAGES AND STICK THE SIDES AND MAKE ONE TWO-SIDED SHEET OUT OF TWO. I CAN’T TAKE THE MORE IMPORTANT STEPS I WISH TO TAKE IN MY LIFE, ESPECIALLY IN ASPECTS I WANT TO TAKE IN MY PRIVATE LIFE, WHEN THERE IS A GAME OF CONTROVERSY ATTACHED TO SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL LOOKING BUT IN ESSENCE REALLY TWISTED AND REALLY UNWELCOME; JUST LIKE A DREAM TO END AND FINDING THAT WHEN I WAKE UP I FIND MYSELF STARTING OR BEING IN THE MIDDLE OF A RELATIONSHIP I HAVE OBJECTION MORE THAN PREJUDICE AND I AM SCARED THAT GIRL WOULD AT THE LAST MOMENT WITHDRAW AND I WOULD HAVE TO BE WITH AN INTRIGUING PARTNER RATHER THAN SOMEBODY AS INITIALLY TO DEPEND ON AND IT MAKES BETTER SENSE TO THINK THAT SOMEBODY CLOSER MAY BE WHO I AM LOOKING FOR, NOW THAT THE NEIGHBORS WILL NOT ALWAYS BE WATCHING US FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES; HAPPINESS SHOULDN’T BE THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY BUT MAY BE A STAIR BELOW; I AM SICK OF LOOKING FOR SOLUTIONS FOR THINGS THAT SEEM THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY. AS THERE IS A FRIDAY 13TH KIND OF AN ANXIETY THAT HAS TRADITIONALLY BEEN WITHIN LAST WEEKS, I WISH TO FOCUS ON WHAT I SHOULD BE CONCENTRATING ON, BECAUSE THERE IS A LAST MINUTE WARNING I WISH TO SHARE AFTER OPENING THE DEEPER PART OF MY EMOTIONS AS “STRANGERS IN THE NIGHT” NEVER HAS BEEN MY FAVORITE CHANT BECAUSE I WANT TO PLAY THE GAME WITH SOMEBODY WHO I KNOW MUCH BETTER AND WHO I WISH TO HAVE INFORMATION ON HOW SHE’D RESPOND TO ALL THE MOVES. BUT NOW FROM THE FUN SIDE OF IT TO THE DARK SIDE, WHICH IS THE FACT THAT THE PREGNANT WOMAN SCENARIO HAUNTING HOW HORRIBLE THEY CAN BE, NOW THERE IS A FAR WORSE AND PROVOKING PART OF IT; THERE IS AN ASSOCIATION OF MOTHERS OF MARTYRS HERE AND IT’S WELL KNOW THAT I DO NOT WISH TO BE RE-DRAFTED BY THOSE THAT REGARD MY BRAIN AS IF IT’S A TOY OR MR. POTATO HEAD TO ALTER IT THE WAY THEY LIKE, AND THEY WILL TRY TO TAKE ME UNDER CUSTODY FOR HAVING MADE BOMB ALERTS IN FOR THE OFFICES OF THE MARTYRS’ MOTHERS’ ASSOCIATION AND I WILL BE FORCED TO BE RE-DRAFTED AS THERE IS NO SIGNAL YET THAT I WILL NOT FACE RETRIAL. **** There that tape is about the bomb alert to martyrs’ mothers’ association bureaus. The tape for today starts. This was recorded from a call made within a period about more than 24 hours ago, roughly around 26 or 27 hours ago; one of the lines belongs to something blue and the other one belongs to a building with some political party bureau of here; that's all I can tell about what I hear, and the duration of this conversation is about 5 minutes long. 1: Even the best plans may need modification; your bureau appeared with a marvellous plan, using a pregnant woman and we would demonstrate an abortion as if she had a miscarriage and we would be having a bigger gain. 2: It's not my fault if it's revealed. But I am by some folks here, they are really nice fellows and they said they would help. You know the little girl poked her long nose into something real big. Even a wooden puppet telling so many lies should pay for these, not be exempted. If there will be a bomb alert to .... (the name of the martyrs' mothers' association in local language, but says with an accent) things will be very much different. 1: Then we may associate the images of formal buildings with that too. 2: It will be great and she will be retried this time losing the advantage of talking about demanding a return by retrial of the guys (or guy) that they hate here most. 1: Crystal clear, bright as water. So do whatever necessary and don't screw things up this time. (I INSIST A RETRIAL OF THEIR TOP ENEMY OF THE STATE TO START IF I WILL BE RETRIED OR WILL BE FORCED TO GO SOME PART OF THE WORLD I DISLIKE OR STAY HERE - BEFORE THIS CONUNDRUM IS OVERCOME, I DO NOT REGARD IT ETHICALLY CORRECT TO NEGOTIATE WITH EITHER THE FORMER LAND OR HAVE DIRECT ASSOCIATIONS WITHOUT MODERATORS WITH MY MOTHER'S COUNTRY; WHICH MAY CONSIST OF SOME THAT THEY HAVE FOUGHT AGAINST AND IN A COUNTRY WHERE PEOPLE REGARD ME AS A HERO, ME BEING IN OPPOSITE LINES WOULD NOT BE SUCH AN ADVANTAGE, NOW THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN SOUTH OF THE FORMER LAND AS A CITIZEN AND ALSO HAVE AN ALTERNATIVE LAND CITIZENSHIP - WHICH BY ITSELF WON'T BE ENOUGH BECAUSE ORIGINS WILL NEED TO BE EMPHASIZED LIKEWISE EACH TREE IN AN ARBORETUM HAS AN ID PLATE. EVEN IF I MAY NOT BE GONE BEFORE THE TRIAL, DISABLING ME FROM IMMUNITY THROUGH BONDS OF NATIONALITY IS A NEGATIVE POINT AS NEIGHBORS MAY LOOK SOME OTHER SIDE WITH REMOTE ORDERS AND I WOULD HAVE HAD ALL DONE WITHIN THE BUILDING INCLUDING MY EXPERIENCE WITH SOMEONE MORE FEASIBLE AND THEN FINISH IT ALL AND GET LOST, BECAUSE I MAY HAVE TO COME BACK FOR MY STUDIES AND AS A RESULT A NEW WAVE OF SUCH MESSAGES WILL PENETRATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN DEMANDING A SOLUTION AT THAT FRONT FROM THE VERY BEGINNING SINCE LAST FIVE YEARS). Thank you for visiting my page at Angelfire. Please come back and visit again!
