SPAZOID FREAK OUT (for jay)

OBSESSION

i built this pedestal for you made from the twigs and leaves of dream remnants and the ends of hope my ramshackle column towered too high and teetered with the breath of gods

yet i thought it ludicrous to try and be in all those places at one time so i picked a spot and i just stood there watched it fall all around me

and i looked around gray jay buried in the pieces

REFRAIN:

the difference i think between admiration and obsession is the level of possibility of climbing on to the pedestal with the prize and i want to give you no more height not because you don't deserve it but because i'd like to think that i do

ADMIRATION

this time i built it steady this time it would not fall made from the bricks of accomplishment held with the mortar of success this time it stood just beyond the bridge of my nose and my eyes could still brush the surface

yet i thought it ludicrous to wanna be in all those places at one time so i picked a spot and that's where i wanna be and i'll do what it takes to get there

and i look around blue jay sings a tune for me

REFRAIN

not because you don't deserve it but because i'd like to think that i do

SPAZOID FREAK OUT, IT'S A NICE FREAK OUT, IT'S A COOL FREAK OUT