-===soft voice===-

...I couldn't hardly believe it! When the time I was inside my mom's womb, at first I had to fit myself in a small, dark room...in a crumpled-paper like position where no one else was there with me. All I could do was sleep, move my hands a little bit, followed by my feet and sip some of my mom's food.

And as time went by, I suddenly heard a voice of a woman. I couldn't clearly understand what was she just sayin'. All I know was that she was talking to me. I could feel that she was sad, she was crying. I tried to figure it out why, and she kept telling me this and that and soon I realized and understood what it was. She would tell me that SHE WASN'T READY YET. It almost ripped me in half! Though I was just-as what people call- a FETUS, and my emotion hasn't been developed yet, I felt sorry for myself, pity me, pity me. But wait here...I am just a CONSEQUENCE!!!

I got mad at her since then, and I gave her a little cramp and I stopped to grow. Her tummy was so small that made less noticable by other people. I promised to myself that" time will come and you'll be proud of me someday..." soon, she said she was sorry and she would make it up to me. She started talking to me everyday, telling me stories and singing her favorite songs and some nursery rhymes. She would touch her tummy and give a soft, warm and meaningful masssage while whispering "I LOVE YOU". Her sweet voice gave me comfort and security, made me realize that I wasn't alone.

We became best friends, we were sharing food and stuff, and the thing I liked the best was that she would go to the mall and buy me cute clothes and other pretty small things which I appreciated the most, and sometimes I would gently kick her tummy and play innocently with her so she could feel that her best friend is ready to see the world outside...

~x~o~x~o~

...It was my mom's birthday when I finally got the chance to know what a cake tastes like. Hahah... just a lil pleasure! It made me feel more excited so I decided to come out a week after her birthday. At last I've finally seen the light!

At first my mom looked stranger to me- and vice versa. She couldn't even believe herself that she's a MOM, now. She was crying when she visited me for the first time in a nursery room to feed me, but this time, I could tell that the tears flowing to her face down to mine were tears of joy.

When we got home, I became the center of attraction. And I liked it...hihihi. I know my mom suffered a lot for me. I was always awake by night, playing and looking around the room. Which made my mom to be underslept. She would clean the bottles, wash my cute clothes, play with me especially when I'm having tantrums, etc.

We became so close and I never thought that time would come and she had to LEAVE ME! I didn't have any choice but to say GOODBYE. I know it was hard for both of us to be apart from each other, but life has to move on...

[Johanne's Album]-take a look at me as I grow up.

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