Rating - R or NC-17
Buffy felt like she was flying above the clouds as she and Faith broke into the store to get some weapons. For the first time in her life, Buffy felt so free, without worrying about the consequences and Faith was teaching her how to do it and soon she caught on. Buffy felt like she could do anything she wanted, have anything she wanted just by simply taking. Want, Take, and Have as Faith had taught her tonight.
She remembered exactly what had happened when they had break in the store. As soon as they turned to leave, they heard the Police car outside, so they ran from the window behind the store and got away. Now she was here with Faith in her apartment building.
"So, B how do you feel", she asked with smile.
"Oh, I mean I really feel bad for breaking the law and everything, but I also feel so free, and wonderful", she answered with smile.
"I knew you'd enjoy it, now lets talk more", she suggested.
"Ok, I am listening", she told her, sitting beside her on the couch.
"I know how you feel, it's the greatest feeling, to know we could have anything we want because WE are the slayer", she said. "So B, tell me what do you want the most, but couldn't have until now because I think you should change that by taking it", she suggested with laugh.
Buffy thought about it for a second. What was the most important thing she wanted? What did she crave the most? One answer came to her mind and heart, ANGEL. He was everything that she ever wanted. She loved him so much, and knew Angel felt the same feeling toward her. Yet, they couldn't be together, they couldn't touch each other the way they wanted to because of the damn gypsy curse.
Ever since Angel got back, Buffy wanted him to make love to her, to have him touch her everywhere, touch the places where she ached the most and have him sooth that hurt. She spent her every night dreaming about him, making love with him, and woke up each morning alone in her bedroom.
"Hey, B, where did you go", Faith asked by waving a hand in front of her face
"Sorry, I was just thinking of what you asked me couple of minutes ago", she said coming back to reality.
"Well, let's hear it, what do you want the most", Faith asked curiously.
"Angel", She said.
"I should've guessed it", Faith said and continued speaking "So what's the problem, remember: Want, Take, Have".
"But we can't. I mean I want him so much, but we can't be intimate because of the gypsy curse, that's the big problem", Buffy answered opening her heart to Faith. "Look I know you love him and he loves you, but you can't go on like this B forever".
"I know that, but if we make love then he would gain moment of happiness and he would lose his soul", Buffy said with sadness as she remembered the past events.
"So he loses his soul, at least two of you would be at peace", Faith said, making Buffy open her mouth in surprised.
"Faith! You don't know what it's like when he looses his soul. He kills and tortures people. Also you don't know the way he taunted me, attacked me and my family and friends", She answered.
"Look, don't get me wrong, but do you mind if I asked you couple of questions about that", Faith said.
"Yeah, sure, what do you want to know", Buffy asked.
"Ok, first of all, when Angel lost his soul, what was his main reason for torturing you besides the fact that you are the slayer and you two are natural born enemies".
"Well, I guess, it was because I made him feel like a human being when he had a soul".
"Ok, my next question, and please tell the truth because I will not tell anyone about this. Did you still wanted him after he lost his soul", Faith asked.
"No, of course not. How could you.? I mean." she trailed off while looking at Faith's face and continued "Yes, well sort of, but you can't tell anyone about it or everyone would freak", she answered shyly.
"What do you mean sort of. So if you are saying you still wanted him, why?"
"I don't know. It's just that after the night we made love, Faith, it was so amazing and beautiful. But after he lost his soul, I didn't have him anymore, he just left me and he had the face of the man that I loved and wanted the most. I wanted. I just wanted him to touch me again that way because I was hurting all over", Buffy answered feeling somewhat relieved that finally she was admitting not only to herself, but to someone else also.
"I can understand something like that. You still loved him and wanted him", Faith said before continuing "So tell me did the way he acted or did something that made you want him".
"Well, whenever I saw him, he was wearing black leather pants and silk shirt with cruel but seductive smile, it just made me want to reach out and kiss him", Buffy answered now feeling more comfortable with this conversation.
"Okay, my next question, did he want you too in any way", Faith asked more curiously.
"Well, he wanted me dead that's for sure, but he didn't attack me a couple of times when he had the chances", she said.
"Like what", Faith quickly added.
"Well he was obsessed with me as you know. He didn't kill me when I saw him at the apartment in the morning after that night. And the night when he followed me without my knowledge and came into my bedroom when he had access and he just watched me sleep. He could've tired to hurt me, but he drew my picture in sleeping form and left on my pillow for me to find it", Buffy said answering her question.
"He also send me red roses for Valentine's day, but I guess that was to hurt me emotionally, and he wanted me to break like he did Dru", Buffy added.
"Wow, that is interesting, and let me ask you this, did you ever kiss him or dream of kissing him?".
How could she ever forget that? She remembered every detail when he had kissed her. Buffy smiled at Faith and said, "Yeah, he did kiss me. The first time at the apartment, but that was just for greeting. The second time at the school later on when he just turned around and grabbed me by shoulders and kissed me on the lips hard and threw me at the wall and third time when ghost of two lovers at the Sunnydale high took our bodies. I just remembered kissing him and felt him kissing me back before he snarled and left me there standing", Buffy remembering that particular moment.
"So, how did the kiss feel like, did you like it", Faith asked with smile.
"Well it was sort of same, yet different somehow, I know it's weird, but it's hard to explain. When he kissed me, I felt like there was some electric current going through my body. Angel had always kissed me with gentleness, but as a demon he was forceful and his kisses were full of more passion and hunger and I really liked it", she said blushing.
"B, I think, you should take what you want. You deserved it, and don't think about other people. Just think about what do you want and how bad do you want. From what I leaned from your answers to my questions is that Angel had wanted you too He just didn't want to admit like you did. I say screw everyone and just claim what do you want", Faith suggested.
Buffy thought about it and said to herself that Faith was right. She and Angel did deserve something. She was so sick of thinking about what other people would think of her. She had already made lot of sacrifices in order to protect the world, but now she didn't care that anymore. So she headed toward the Mansion after saying goodbye to Faith and thanked her for the advice and to get what she wanted the most.
Part 2
Buffy entered the Mansion quietly and reached his bedroom. She held her breath as she saw him lying on his bed, sleeping peacefully. He was only wearing his pants, so his chest was opened to her view. Buffy just watched him with hunger as she stared at his hard, muscular chest.
It was so smooth and velvety. Buffy wanted to kiss and ran her hands on it. But she just stood there, few feet way from the bed watching him. Buffy remembered earlier tonight, when he had came to see her at the Bronze to warn her about the amulet. He was surprised when she jumped on him, straddling his waist.
She was rubbing herself against him, but he quickly moved away before she had any fun. Well who said she couldn't have fun with him right now, she thought to herself as she claimed on his bed with him, lying beside him. She was careful not to wake him up, at least at this moment.
Buffy took her shoes and coat off. Then she reached out and touched his silky hair, running her fingers in it so softly. She moved lower, cupping his face. His beautiful face. Buffy ran her hands on his forehead, ears, nose, both cheeks, and his jaw. And Angel moaned at the sensation.
She smiled at him and continued her journey then she started kissing him on his face. She was also licking and nibbling on his soft skin. She entwined her fingers in his hair as she brought her soft lips to his. Then she kissed him, licking, softly biting and planting small kisses along his jaw. Angel growled in his sleep and moaned her name.
Buffy started kissing his throat and moved on his chest. She first ran her hands over it and then bent to plant kisses over it. She moved and straddled his waist so she could kiss him better. She tasted the soft skin by licking it. Then she took one nipple in her hot, wet mouth and sucked on it. Angel made noise in his chest like a soft purr causing Buffy to smile. She repeated the same thing with other nipple.
Suddenly Angel's eyes shot open and he saw Buffy straddling him, smiling down at him. "Buffy", he asked confusingly because he didn't know what was going on. When he felt Buffy kissing him, he thought it was just a dream like so many other dreams he had of her. But after opening his eyes, he still saw Buffy, and he wondered if he was still dreaming.
Buffy looked at him with passion and hunger in her eyes. She licked her lips all while staring at him and then bent her head and stroked his cheek with hers, while running her hands over his well-built chest. She buried her face in his neck, kissing and licking it making Angel arch toward her body.
"Mumm, Angel", she said kissing his face, his throat, and his chest. Angel hissed in pleasure as he felt her soft touch because he was so hard instantly when he felt her touch and his cock was so hard that it was painful for him to bear this.
Then Buffy brought her lips on his and kissed him passionately and Angel growled which gave Buffy a chance to slip her tongue in his cool mouth. She sucked on his tongue, tasting his mouth; she ran her tongue over his sharp teeth. Angel had no choice left but to kiss her back, returning the favor of sucking on her tongue.
Part 3
As they continued to kiss, Buffy started to stroke his chest and face with her hands. Then Angel remembered the cost of their act, and pulled away from her mouth breaking the kiss with gasp.
"Buffy! We shouldn't. I mean you know we can't do this. The curse, you know what will happen if we do this and we have to think about the consequences", he said.
Buffy didn't say anything as she stared down at him. "Yes, I do know what will happen, but I don't care anymore. I learned something very important today; Faith taught me that I could have anything I wanted. I feel so free not worrying about things all the time. And I ache so much Angel, I hurt all over and you are the only one that could make it better." she said whimpering and softly moaning.
Angel couldn't believe of what she had said about not caring. "But I do care Buffy, we can't." he was cut off by Buffy.
"No, I have been waiting forever Angel for you to touch me again, and tonight I am going to get what I want", she said forcefully and then kissed him hard on his lips.
Then she tore her mouth away from his and started kissing his chest. She felt Angel trying to move her off of him, but she pinned his arms with her slayer strength "I know you want me as badly as I want you Angel. I want you to take me Angel, make me yours again, I want you to end my ache and I don't care if I have to pay its price by dying", she said with moan at the same time grind her hips on his hard member, causing him to moan.
Angel couldn't think anymore, here was the woman he wanted ever since he saw her for the first time and she was begging him to claim her. He was losing his rational thoughts as his need for her grew. Then Angel gave up and ran his hands over her body. He turned her over, so now she was beneath him panting and her eyes were closed.
He kissed her hard and passionately He kissed and licked her face, ears, and neck. He took her tank top off her body and Buffy arched her back to make contact with his chest. He cupped her breasts in his large palm, and then he took one nipple in his mouth sucking hungrily.
She cried out at the sensation. Soon they tore each other's clothes off, eager to feel each other's skin. Angel licked, nibbled and kissed every inch of her body. When Buffy thought she couldn't take this anymore, she whimpered with need and she wounded her legs around his waist mentioning him to come inside of her.
He positioned himself on her clit and then slowly he thrust himself in. Buffy arched her back and pulled him more inside of her. She felt so good. He closed his eyes as he slid inside of her completely. She is so hot, tight and wet, Angel thought.
Buffy sighed in relief when she felt him inside of her. Then he started to move in and out of her slowly. Soon they were thrusting madly against each other as their passion rose. Angel buried his face in her neck, kissing and licking it. Buffy moaned and cried out as he continued to make love to her.
He started feel Buffy's orgasm and he thrust even harder, sending Buffy in ecstasy. He moved inside of her making her come again and again. Then he felt his own climax and Buffy bared her throat.
He changed into vampire face and sank his fangs in her vein, causing her to come again. As soon as he swallowed her blood, his body shook and he came inside of her with roar. They both lay limp in each other's arm. He moved out of her and placed her head on his hard chest. Buffy looked up at him and gave him a smile.
Part 4
Angel was stroking her back and hair, as they lay in his bed in complete silence.
"Buffy we should talk now", he said softly breaking the silence. Hundreds of thoughts were going on his head; beginning with the realization that they had done forbidden. Now they have to pay the price.
He didn't have time left because soon he will lose his soul. So he needed to tell Buffy to kill him before he hurt people. He was so afraid of hurting her especially.
"Ok, what do you want to talk about", she said looking in his eyes.
"Buffy, you have to kill me before I hurt someone, I can't go through that kind of guilt again, and I wanted to tell you I've always loved you and always will", he answered her.
"Ok, I understand what you are saying, but I can't kill you Angel again and if I have courage, how will I know it's not you."
"Well, when I lose my soul, I have to go through physical pain, and you'll know when it starts to happen".
Buffy didn't say anything; she just lay her head back on his chest, thinking how will she able to kill the man she loves more than anything does.
"I want you to tie my with the cuffs in the drawer over there, so I can't hurt you right away and that will give you the time", Angel suggested.
"Ok, I'll do that and I want to tell you that Angel, I love you so much", Buffy said while wondering if she'll be able to do what was he asking for.
Buffy tied him to the bed and snuggled close to him and they both fell asleep in each other's arms. After few hours, Angel jerked and he screamed in pain. She wrapped a bed sheet around her body. Buffy looked at him with tears in her eyes realizing it was happening.
She started looking for some kind of weapon to fight him with, and found a wooden stake in his drawer. Before Angel had a chance to move from the bed, Buffy grabbed him and put her arms around him, trying to soothe his pain.
She stroked his back and hair. Surprisingly, Angel let her do whatever she was doing because he wanted to spend some few moments in his beloved's arm. Buffy peppered his face with tiny, soft kisses and saying "I love you" over and over.
Soon he stopped whimpering. He quickly moved away from her arms and looked at her with wicked smile on his face Buffy recognized that look from anywhere as she stared at him Angelus was back once again. "Hello Lover", he said in his smooth tone, making Buffy slightly shiver.
Part 5
"You know I am so glad that you brought me back because being that wimpy soul boy was starting to annoy me, but now that I am back, I can start having fun", he said with smirk.
Buffy didn't say anything. She was frozen in one place. Her mind and her slayer instincts screamed at her to fight him and kill him, but she didn't move from her spot. Then she remembered what Faith had said. She said that he also wanted her after he lost his soul, just like she wanted him right now.
Buffy couldn't help to feel warm tingling going inside of her as she watched him. Her eyes ran over his face, chest and moved lower where the rest of him was covered in sheet. Buffy wanted to feel him again and kiss him. If Faith was right, if he did want her then it was time to test that theory.
"You know every time you lose your soul Angel, instead of thanking me, you always try to kill me. Why is that?" Buffy asked, making him raise his eyebrow in confusion.
Angelus was surprised when she didn't move to attack him to fight and try to kill him. But mostly he was surprised by her odd question. Then he grabbed her roughly by her hair and he laughed while saying "I guess, it's time for you to die because you are not trying to kill me like I instructed when I had that pathetic soul".
But Buffy didn't protest or feel afraid of him, which made him angry. "I don't want to kill you because I thought we could do something else", she said boldly while looking into his eyes.
"What are you talking about?" he asked frustratingly.
"Well, we are on bed, wearing only bed sheet, I am way passed being worried about other people's reaction, I am not trying to kill you, and probably don't want to, so can't you guess?", Buffy said, really surprising him.
"Ok, you are not the Buffy I know. She usually does things depending on what's more right for other people. But you are being so...such a bad girl", Angelus said it with smirk.
"I think you like me when I am a bad girl", Buffy whispered to him and then suddenly she grabbed him on back of his head and brought his lips down to hers. She kissed him hard, nibbling and biting on them, leaving him in shock.
With a great effort he tore his lips away while wondering why on the earth she did that. She knew he lost his soul and still she kissed him. He looked at her in disbelief. She looked so damn beautiful. She was naked beneath that bed sheet. He clearly remembered her goddess-like body because only few hours ago, they had made love for the second time.
He still couldn't figure it out why Buffy refused to stop when he warned her about the curse. She knew it would make him lose his soul and she still made love to him. She was staring at him, while licking her dry lips time to time, making him hard again. He was so angry with her because she still had strong hold on him. He always had wanted her, he tried to deny it by hurting and taunting her, but that didn't help.
Now, here she was, wrapped only in a bed sheet, sitting on his bed, staring at him. Then his arms reached out to bring her closer and he bent his head to catch her soft lips. He kissed her hungrily making Buffy moan. When she felt him pull her closer, she went willingly and returned his kisses.
She realized that he had never kissed her before so forcefully and hungrily, plundering her mouth like he was doing it right now and she loved it. She wound her arms around his neck to bring him more closer and they continued to kiss.
Part 6
He broke the kiss, letting her breathe enough air. Then he removed the bed sheet from their bodies and moved their position so he was on top and Buffy moaned. He looked down at her and Buffy opened her passion filled eyes and looked at him. "I want you" she cried out and kissed him again.
Angelus can smell her arousal and he knew she was wet. He loomed over her and thrust into her willing body. Soon they began to move against each other, harder and faster. Their mating was savage and as their passion rose, his face turned into familiar ridges. They both clung to each other. No sounds can be heard except for their bodies moving frantically and their moans, gasps, growls, and cries of pleasure.
Buffy screamed his name as she came and bared her throat. He sank his fangs into her vein and drank her blood and soon orgasm crashed through his body. They simply lay limp in each other's arm, sighed in contentment. He rolled off her body and lay besides her.
Buffy calmed down and couldn't believe she had just let Angelus fuck her. But she felt so good. Angelus licked her cheek and said "You were right, I do like you more when you are a bad girl".
"So now what?" she asked
"Well, if we can do this all the time whenever we meet then I am in, what about you", Angelus said it with smirk on his face.
Buffy nodded her head and said "Yeah, me too".
"But what about your annoying friends, I don't think they'll be happy to know we are fucking each other".
Buffy moved on top of him and said, "I am sick and tired of worrying about them. They are so busy with their life that sometimes they forget I am there, so I say screw them", she said with smile.
"Oh, God, I love you like this Buff", he answered, while stroking her hair and back.
"Me too, actually you can thank Faith for that. She was the one who told me to come here and take you, she taught me lot of things and we broke the law".
Angelus smiled at her wickedly and asked "Tell me about it, lover".
"Well, first I skipped my classes, blew my chemistry test, broke into one store, and got away from the police. I felt so free and wonderful, not worrying about things."
He laughed and said, "Wow, I can't believe I missed that".
"I want to ask you something. Did you want me when he lost your soul for the first time", she asked curiously.
"Of course, I did. Why do you think I was obsessed with you? Why do you think I didn't kill you when I had the chance?" he answered her.
"I have always wanted you, but I didn't want to admit to anyone, not even to myself. I wanted you to touch me again and again, Angel", she said with moan. "I liked it so much when you kissed me, I wanted more, I wanted you more and more ", she added, making him growled deep in his chest.
He pulled her down for a long hungry kiss. "Who said we can't make up for lost time", giving Buffy smile.
"You are absolutely right. Can we start making for the lost time right now?" she asked innocently.
"Hell yes", he answered and pulled her down for another long kiss. Soon they too busy to talk and were once again lost in each other's arms, finally happy to be with one another.
The End
Disclaimer - I own nothing. The characters in this story do NOT belong to me, but to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, WB, Fox. I am not making any profit from this work; this is just for more fun
Author's Note - This idea just came into my mind after I read Lex's Revisionist History X: The Claiming
Summary - This story takes place in third season and during the episode Bad Girls. But I made the story go MY way. Faith gives Buffy some advice that is going to make Buffy do something unthinkable. But the results are not that bad, just read what I mean