I call him Lucifer. Most think of him as Satan, the devil, the demon, etc. To me, the name Lucifer seems more personal. Did I have a personal relationship with him? Yes I did. I was told that I was conceived for him. He has claimed my birth right. As an infant I was adopted by those whom I call my parents. I was raised Roman Catholic and attended parochial school. Someone like me could only be in God's eyes correct? Wrong. This is how Lucifer wants it to be seen.

You see, my life with Lucifer was in the darkness. Hidden. Today my family refuses to believe that I could've had any part of that existance. They have never been given details of my life, yet the idea of Satanism could only lead them to guilt and disgust. Disgust, is that where you are now? How could anyone belong to Lucifer? To Satanism, demonism, wicca, etc? How does one dance with the devil?

So many of today's life issues seem to be tied with, "how", "why", "but if", "if only". Have you used those words in your life? I'm sure you have. I have. Imagine how life would have been "if only". We can't change anything from one breath ago, so how can we even think of changing yesterday, last year or ten years ago? The past is over. Done. Too often, things from our lives are put into storage in our memory banks. These memories come out when we want them to the least. These thoughts can relate to anything... a first kiss, the birth of a child or being raped. We aren't always allowed to be selective about what comes to our minds, yet we can control what we do with them. This page isn't going like I "thought" it would. I believe that God is giving me direction, so I will follow His lead.

At some point everyone, in their life has done something they aren't proud of. Often unintentionally. Maybe you didn't know right from wrong. Maybe you were brainwashed. Maybe you were forced. I can go on and on with a list of maybe's. With maybe's, too often we're looking for a way to lose the responsibility for our own action. Then we can plead innocent.You see folks, my life has been the good, the bad and the ugly. I honestly believe that if I can help one person, free one person from the bowels of this hell on earth, freedom from the darkside, my life will not have been in vain. I am not going to go into details, I'm just going to say what I believe God is leading me to say. Because I have given my life to Him. I am hoping to give you the greatest gift that a person can give, the gift of love and freedom. The gift of God the Father, Jesus Christ His Son and that of the Holy Spirit. You can choose to stop reading this - either because of disgust of my life, because you don't want to hear about God or because Lucifer says "enough, you're not reading anymore". That is YOUR choice. You the person.

Back to the dance. If I were to give you a description of Lucifer as I have seen him, I would tell you to imagine a handsome dude, muscular and sexy. That's the picture I'd would paint. Such a smile, add a dimple and those eyes... He can sway anyone off their feet. Those eyes... Much of what you'd see in him, you could also see in the people around him. Beautiful women, handsome men, he wanted the beauty around him. He didn't want to settle for anything less. (Could that maybe be why in our lives the focus is on beautiful people? Hmmm, think about it!) People, doctors and lawyers, your next door neighbor, somebody's grandmother. Never! Never say never. These are some of the people who are in cults. These are some of the people that you despise. Don't start looking over your shoulder at your friends. Don't question people, it's unlikely that they would ever tell you anyway. These despicable people probably go to church every Sunday, give 10% of their income to "God". One of these despicable people is me!

I belonged to a cult. I participated in ceremonies. I chanted and praised and worshipped Lucifer. I danced the dance. I lived the life. I married Lucifer. Yes, married him. I became high priestess. I worked my way up the ladder like anyone else would do. I earned my position. I let Lucifer become part of me and I felt I became part of him. There was no question to right and wrong, because there was no right and wrong. What was - was! What is - is! There are no morals in Satanism. None. Things were not seen as a choice! Things were never questioned. The main question that I get asked is how did I walk out of there alive. How did I? You see, the dance wasn't supposed to be over until I would stand up and make full declaration to Lucifer as I would plunge a dagger into my chest. I was to be my final sacrifice to him, my master, my husband. I was to be my own final sacrifice.

I didn't finish my dance. You see, I had a new partner step in. Lucifer had no choice but to step back and let my new partner lead me back onto the dance floor. My new partner? Jesus Christ, Son of the living God. He with some wonderful friends have brought me to the place I am today. He has led me to you. You see, friend, it doesn't matter where I have come from, because I have been forgiven by the one that matters, Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. I have broken all ties with Lucifer, though he seems to have some major misconceptions about me. He still thinks I belong to him. Right now I am fighting for my life. I am also fighting for yours.

You see, that handsome dude I was telling you about, he's a master of disguise and deception. He's really a beast. I have seen him on his knees! I DO see the demons. I can smell them, taste them and touch them. Because of this I can be here for you. This is possible, only because of Jesus Christ and because I have given my life over to him.

If you or someone you know of is having demonic problems please, don't turn away from them. Don't criticize and preach. Find someone who can help. I have 2 wonderful friends who are taking this journey with me. They hold my hands, let me cry, scream, berate myself, etc. They are the human flesh of God. Everyone needs someone like that. Don't do this alone. If you have any questions, concerns, comments, etc. send us an email. Remember Jesus, through this web page has brought us together...

Those eyes? Avoid them, don't search for them, don't seek them out. His eyes will try to penetrate your soul. Wear the full armor of Jesus Christ!

Mercy

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