Why Blog?
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Goals for my Blog
Topic: Emotions & Healing
Eventually someone besides me will read some of these blogs. I've entitled the main blog "Living Well", maybe I feel I have something to say on the topic. I could write about a hundred topics, most of which I have little real knowledge about, but maybe a strong feeling. So why Blog at all, maybe because I can. Some thoughts: My career as a graphics guy has not built much that is permanent, in the world or in my life. The results I thought I could achieve are not what I had hoped, but as with most things it is a matter of energy, time, and desire. I've been able to live well by my definition, and that is all the definition I need. Do I have regrets, yes, and I can't even imagine not having some, mine have to do with the feelings of not having accomplished more, that I feel really expresses who I am. More money would be nice, I can imagine, but I try to live my whole life, and not leave anything out, I've always believed balance is a high, and reasonable ideal. My life choices have led me here, and guidance from the universe (God to those who don't know me, I use the two synonymously). And, my wife LaShawn, whos own path alongside me has been especially rough for many years now. This last statement is not about the quality of the marriage, but speaks to two souls each finding their way, mostly in synchony with the other, good and bad. The path to being a psychologist for Shawn has been a long one, and blood sweat and many tears have been put into it, the sacrifices will be worth it, there has been tremendous growth along with it for both of us. I am very proud of her. We ares still learning what is best Not to do with ourselves as we relate to the world, how to handle stress, how to communicate our needs to one another, and how to compromise for the good of staying a team. Little Tony is the product of our continuing to do this, we love him and each other tremendously. Having him as my son has made life harder to do, but easier to take. I hope that makes sense to someone besides just me. I think the rest of this blog will have a soft focus on healing, and personal energies and ideas as I see them in my life.

Its Alive
Mood:  caffeinated
Now Playing: New Bonsai
Topic: Bonsai
No Shit! There I was. Looking to go to a local nursey in Laurel MD, we stumbled across this guy who sells bonsai trees on the side of the road. This dude sells stuff from his shop in Southern MD somewhere, and brings his wares up for a Saturday morning. So, I had a look around and talked to himabout what ould be a good plant for mostly indoors where I can get albsolutly No direct light, except maybe two weeks a year, in late afternoon. Its an Hawaiian Umbrella, about 7" tall, and four years old, it feels like a tropical plant, smooth firm leaves that spreasd out in clusters of about seven. It needs water about twice a week, and after three days, it has a teensey bit of mold on the suface that shoulod go away as it dries out a little.
So far so good. I also looked at some other stuff at the Kmart nursery, and saw a few evergreens, maybe potential there, but those are strickly outdoor, can't do that yet, I live in a condo with north facing windows.

Non Suckage
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Nothing
Ok, so far the job does not suck, ever after 1.5 years

Tree in a pot
Mood:  down
Now Playing: I think I killed it !
Topic: Bonsai
What the hell happened? I think as a novice, I really don't know what I'm doing. I'm getting ready to kill some plants this way. What did I do? I just set what I think is a Ficus plant (weed) in the sun for a few hours, I think this is the kind of plant that hates sun! the leaves burned to a crisp in just hours! and its only april, WTF.

On another note, I harvested up some kind of sapling (before you report me to the authorities, the land I took it from is being bulldozed anyway), I thing its an evergreen, maybe a cedar, or a pine of some kind, or it could be just a weed? I should post a photo soon, so someone can help me out, its so young, I havn't found an accurate enough picture to be sure.
Horticulture/Gadening sites only show older more fully grown trees.

It Works!
Now Playing: Some Movie I'll never see in the Theaters
So, it works just fine, am I impressed? Well not really, this is just me talking to nmyself, and I'm not much of a writer. Here I am after having a very long day, and suffering from eye strain. The main question I have for myself is Why would I want to do this, any topics I'd like to discuss with other people, assuming they ever find this blog? No, I've not spell checked this.

First Blog by Me (TSR)
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: What is this, a subtitle, beats me?
Topic: Emotions & Healing
Hi, this is me on my first blog, maybe this is just a rant, maybe it goes somewhere into the social media realm? we will see.