Title: Never Be The Same
Category: poetry
Archive: yes, feel free- just let me know where please.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never were, make no profit, have no money- do not sue.

Author's notes: This is the first xf poetry I've ever written. It has been a long while since I last practiced writing poems, I've never been one for structure. Please let me know your thoughts on this, I live for feedback. The title is homage, yet again, to one of my favourite bands- Crowded House.

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Never Be The Same
By xenoprobe

It stopped.
His heart stopped and I jumped into action.
I became the doctor he'd wished me to be-
If for only long enough
To save him.
But the panic
And anguish that ripped through me
As I shouted orders for resurrection
It was not the anguish I have felt for you.
That was the first step.

Those times
When you have suffered and knocked at death's door
When you have been outside my reach
I was struck down with grief
Struck silent by the weight of it.

And I tried.
Tried to place those revelations into context
But you are without category in my soul.
You are as much a part of me as I am of you.
Something no one else has ever shared.

So when I came to finally accept it-
To realize that this was the only path
Of all the quantum choices-
I did so knowing
That things would never be the same again.
I would no longer keep it in
I would share with you openly
And let the meter of our relationship
Tic and toc
With the beats of my heart