I Don't Want To Fight
Seven O'Nine
From Liam's point of view...
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I don't want to fight with you. Can't you see that?
When I first met you, I thought that you were close to perfect. You radiated
it like a sun
radiates heat. You advised me, willingly gave me information that I couldn't
get from anyone
else, protected me from the other Taelons who would have picked me apart
in a lab.
We argued, but not often.
Then you seemed to grow more suspicious, because I was part of the Resistance.
I miss the
friendship we had before—where we trusted each other, despite the fact
that I was standing on
a dock while you were on the boat. You've lied to me, killed my friends.
The word
"contradiction" doesn't start to describe you.
Why don't you see that I will not harm you? I made a vow not to hurt or
allow anyone else to
hurt you, and I keep my promises.
It hurts that you don't trust me anymore, now that I've lost my first innocence
and optimism.
I'm young, but I don't think I'm a child anymore. Are you afraid of me
as a part-alien man, or
as a Resistance leader?
In a way, I fear you. I fear that someday you'll go too far, and do something
you'll never be
able to forgive yourself for. To the Taelons, or to humanity—you've gone
the extra mile for
both, and that is a horrible choice to make.
Do you know how you've hurt me? Have I hurt you?