Tony: I can do Area damage

Jonathan: I can do Area damage too! I walk into an area and damage everything!

2/20/00 - Greetings and welcome to "My New Life" this includes all moments from 8/11/99 on. This was the moment in my life, I decided to make all the changes neccessary to make my life fulfilling. I am pleased to say that now in February I have indeed made the right decision. I am leading a life which I enjoy and one which brings me new found happiness every day.

Granted much was sacrificed along the way. Many friendships were severed and many people I love were hurt. This was unfortunate, but a neccessary step to my own happiness. Again I say that I am sorry to those I hurt both directly and indirectly.

However, that is now in the past. The present and the future are whats important. And I intend to seize both. My newfound friends at my university have inspired me in ways I thought not possible. Also there is Rachel, who is what I live for, day and night. I find inspiration in her and everything we have to live for.

I also look forward to new friendships. Especially one that has been hindered by at least 3 different forms of miscommunication. "Well thats something we shall have to remedy..."

Finally I hope this sheds some light on the visions. What everyone thinks they know about them is most likely false, as I have heard everything from A-Z on the matter, and few times have I heard the correct assumption. The closest I've seen to the truth is Emily who stated "I see my subconsious in the form of 'visions'"

Most notably is the vision of myself dying at the hands of two gunmen, one who fires and one who looks on. By analyzing the context and the situation, I have come to the conclusion that this is me seeing the end of my relationship with Inna. It is me knowing the end was near, trying to run away... by time caught up to me and killed me. Time is the gunman, with Reason looking on. My death symbolized the end of my first relationship. That part of me was dead, never to be reborn. However, I would be reborn, and I would see a new dawn, in the life that I live now. I hope this helps. Be well all.

2/23/00 - Recent events in my friends have made me quite concerned. Everyone's so far away, and I feel so helpless out here. Sigh....

On a positive note I have attained Cosmic Encounter, a wonderfully sick and twisted board game that will provide limitless enjoyment.

Ah, and Congratulations to Turner for reaching six months with Christine! I hope to hear more about this relationship upon my return in March.

Bringing me to my final point, I shall be returning on March 3rd. I hope to see all that are home. I think this includes my darling Rachel, Turner, and Frosh. Everyone else is home later. The week after I believe. Oh well, I guess it happens. Be well all.

3/21/00 - I feel quite far away, my love is over 300 miles away and my best friend just left for home... I am here again, far away from everyone. I can't wait until we are all togeter. Preferably playing Cosmic Encounter :) Lange has played it now, and he gives his heartfelt approval.

I need quotes, I need to put more quotes on my IM profile. Any suggestions? Also I need to start typing up some of my stories. The first of which will be my first set of screenplays, Advisor Wars. This series includes the epic tale of Charlette Faltermayer and her training to become an advisor. Other characters include Philip Jan, Jessica Hu, Adam Gregory and the former Hi's Eye staff.

Be well all.

6/26/00 - I am home now, and have been for almost two months now. Times have changed greatly, and I must now turn to face these new situations. I find new friends in my life as well as old ones deciding their fate. I am faced with difficult decisions. Unlike some of my friends, I am quite capable of breaking communication with a former friend. I do not feel loss, and I do not look back. I have considered this to be one of my worst qualities, and as someone close to me once told me, "I am emotionless and cold." However, I do not feel cold, and I am far from emotionless. Though I do not feel loss in losing old friends, I do feel regret. Though I am happier now in my life than I ever have been, I often times wonder if I could have attained this without hurting so many people along the way. I know now that Andrew will never trust me again, that Jess and I will never be able to talk the way we used to, and that Inna is a friend that is lost forever. As I have said, I am happy, but does happiness have a price so high that one must make so many sacrifices to attain it? Perhaps. Be well all.

8/1/00 - Perhaps I have misjudged an old friend, in my previous statement I stated a number of people who I believed were "lost" to me. I have misjudged one of them. Granted I believe there is much mending that needs to be done, but I forsee possibilities. As for the other two, I was correct in my assessments. Recent events have once again proven the validity of my original thoughts. Somethings are better untouched, and as I have learned from my past I will not act the role of the mediator to try and fix things. I do however respect those people who come to me and try to fix things, I say this to encourage the old friend to persist in her attempts to strengthen a friendship. I shall persist as well. Be well all.

9/12/00 - I'm getting older... Soon I shall be nineteen, with only one year remaining until 20... Its Scary in its own way. Recently at college I have been experiencing a great deal of stress. Friends and aquaintences are all in need of help and guidance, and I am just a ball of stress. Sigh, at least I can try to be there for them. This weekend I will be traveling home, for a much needed break with Rachel. I am at a loss for what to do here... I really do not know what to tell those people who so eagerly seek my advice. I am only human though, a flaw that will catch up with me one day. Until later. Be well all.