Friday May 22nd, 1998
I've had some nice, almost lazy days with Jamettiz this week! It's been quite harmonic, and I haven't been thinking about her cancer very much.
She's walking pretty well by now, and she makes a lot of sounds and noises, of which some actually mean something. Today, for instance, she sat at the floor and browsed through a children's picture book while talking to it, or perhaps about it. It was a sweet, harmonious sound from a happy, contented child.
But she's also a stubborn, very determined young girl, who thinks she should get her will through ALWAYS. Neither my hubby nor I agree with her, which can upset her really much. Quite a normal little girl of 13 months, wouldn't you say? :-)
My friend John Faulkner has written me so much lately that I've hardly had the time to read all of it. (Maybe it is because I've written him frequently, even if most of what I've written only have been little cards). Most of his more recent letters and cards have only been read once by me.
He's really an amazing man! He's got so many ideas, I can' hardly keep up with him. Some don't apply to me and /or my situation, but many do. Unfortunately I don't have the kind of personality that easily gets things done, so though he's got great ideas that I could benefit from trying to realize, I haven't been trying to make all of it happen.
I've had a period now when I've been writing a little bit more than ordinarily. Writing to friends, acquaintances and family, that is. I haven't been writing much poetry and stuff for almost 2 years (since when I became pregnant with Jamettiz until now). I miss it, 'cause it's relieving, and also because I still get influenced to write by a lot of things, but I don't seem to get the words out. Partly because I don't feel I have the time and opportunity to grab a pen and write things down, and partly because it feels like I more than before think more in images than in words. It bothers me a little bit but it doesn't exactly worry me that I don't write that much poetry at the moment. There are a few things I wish I could express, because I think I would feel better if I could do that, but it's no use in trying to force it coming. If it does, it does, and if not I'll just find another way to deal with it.
Well, it's soon 11 in the night, and I'm really tired so I'll finish here.
Have a good night!
~*~Teenah~*~
