TITLE: The Color of Midnight - Chapter Four
AUTHOR: K.Daniels	
FEEDBACK TO:krdaniels@earthlink.net (public discussion okay)
ARCHIVING: Fine, please tell me where
SPOILERS: None
KEYWORDS: Scully/Other; ScullySlash
RATING: PG
SUMMARY: Scully's past catches up to her, and turns out to be
dangerously tangled with an X File.
DISCLAIMER: Scully, Mulder, Skinner, etc. etc. all belong to Chris
Carter and 1013, except for Jane, she belongs to me. Please do not sue
me, I am making no financial profit from the unauthorized use of these
characters.

The Color Of Midnight

CHAPTER FOUR

*Friday 8:00 p.m., Scully's Apartment*

Scully was running around her apartment trying to clean up in
preparation for Jane's visit. 'What the hell was I thinking, calling her
to come over tonight?' Scully thought. 'I just saw her this afternoon.' 

She was pulled from her thoughts by a knock on the door. "Shit." She
muttered. Scully opened the door and Jane was smiling on the other side
holding a bottle of wine with one hand and a bouquet of flowers in the
other. "Hi beautiful." 

Scully was made a bit nervous with this gesture, but motioned for Jane
to come in and took both the wine and the flowers from her friend.
"Thanks" She said on the way into the kitchen to get a vase. "These are
pretty"

"Your welcome. You're pretty"

"Jane." Scully implored, looking back at the beautiful officer. Jane had
changed from her uniform and was wearing a faded pair of Levi's, Havana
Joe boots and a ribbed Gap turtleneck in powder blue. She looked
stunning. Scully quickly averted her gaze.

"I'm sorry, but it's true. I promise I will behave." Jane said, eyeing
Scully's apartment, and agent Scully.

"Have a seat."  Dana said as she returned to the living room with two
glasses, the wine and the flowers neatly arranged in a crystal vase. 
Scully set the flowers and wine on the table in front of the sofa and
sat next to Jane. She poured a glass for them both and then sat back to
clink glasses.

"To old friends?" Jane toasted.

"Yes, old friends" Scully repeated and took a sip of the wine.

"You know, Kate, I've never really gotten over you." Jane started

"Janie·" Scully laughed, resigned.  "You really don't believe in beating
around the bush, do you?"

"No, not when I know that you feel the same way." Jane answered "And I
know you do feel the same way or you wouldn't have called me."

Scully just stared at her friend and wondered how she could have such
mixed emotions about this person. On the one hand, Jane was the one
person she could trust, save Mulder. And on the other hand, she was the
one person that could elicit in her the most fear.

"I suppose I do still have feelings for you, Jane, but that part of my
life is over. I can't go back."

"How about going forward, then?" Jane asked, lifting Scully's chin. 
"You said you would explain to me why this is so hard for you."

Scully sighed, took a big swallow of wine and tried to sift through her
thoughts. "To be perfectly honest, I don't really know why it's so hard.
I guess once I joined the X Files, once I met Mulder, my life changed."
Scully took another sip of wine and realized how lame that sounded.
"Actually, I guess it was even before that. During medical school" 

"What happened?" Janie asked, tenderly taking Scully's hand in her own

Scully looked at their hands together, it seemed so right so familiar,
yet so frightening at the same time. "I don't really remember. I guess I
made a decision to focus on my career. I decided that a personal life
was too much work. It was too hard."

"Kate, I don't buy that. You were one of the most care-free, happy
people I knew." Jane implored "Now you are all business. Serious.
Doubtful. You always had so much confidence in yourself. I wonder where
that went?" 

"Oh, I'm still confident. Ask me anything about the FBI, the X Files,
medicine and I have no problems. I'm not a weak person·"

"I wasn't trying to imply that you were·" Jane interrupted "It's just
that you were never afraid of *love* before."

Scully looked at Jane and felt a lump form in her throat. 'She's right,
I've been afraid to love.' Scully lifted Jane's hand and held it to her
lips. "You're right" She whispered. "I've been so afraid" Scully started
to cry "I don't know why, I honestly don't" 

Jane moved over to her friend and wrapped her in her arms. "Dana, I love
you, I've never stopped loving you and I wish I could help you figure
this out. I *want* to help you figure this out."

Scully continued to quietly sob. She felt so stupid, what was going on?
Why was she losing it? "Janie, I..I guess it's been so long since I have
even entertained the idea of being with someone, that I'm overwhelmed by
everything that you bring up in me."

Jane tilted Scully's face to meet hers "And what do I bring up in you?"

Scully answered by lightly brushing her lips over Jane's. Scully's body
exploded with excitement when their lips touched. She allowed the kiss
to become more passionate and leaned back against the armrest while Jane
moved her body to lay on top of Dana. Their tongues met and danced,
eager to explore and express their mutual need. Jane placed her hands at
Scully's waist and moved her mouth to roam down Dana's neck. She planted
little kisses all along the way. 

Scully felt her body come alive. Feelings, emotions, excitement that she
thought had been long dead were now raging within her; screaming their
desire to her. She felt her heart pound, her hands moved to explore
Jane's body, she tugged at Jane's turtle neck and slipped her hand to
feel the hot stimulated skin underneath. 

Their mouths met again, and Dana passionately kissed Jane, exploring
inside her mouth with her tongue while letting her hands float up and
down Janie's back. She could feel the contours of Janie's body against
hers, and her need was growing.

"Dana, I want to make love to you." Janie whispered between kisses. "I
want to feel your naked body against mine, I want to love you, to make
you come, to give you pleasure."

Scully was near the brink with Janie's kisses, caresses and words. She
so much wanted to make love to this woman, more than she wanted to even
live. But still, something prevented her from saying yes. 

At the same time it was the arousal within her body that prevented Dana
from saying no. 

She was at a crossroads.

Sweaty and disoriented, Dana allowed Jane to unbutton her blouse. She
felt Jane's warm hands caress her naked stomach and find their way
beneath her bra to massage her breasts. Jane pushed the bra up and
placed her mouth over Scully's nipple. Scully arched her back in
response and let out a small cry. She was becoming wet between her legs,
and ached for Jane to relieve the mounting tension there. As if on cue,
Jane slipped her leg between Dana's and gently applied pressure to
Dana's throbbing clit. 

"Oh, God."

They continued to kiss and explore and gently sway together. Dana was
lost in the passion of the moment, and wouldn't have even been able to
remember her name if she were asked. Jane encircled Dana's breasts with
her tongue and very slowly and softly stroked her stomach and thighs,
inching her way to Dana's dripping cunt.  

"Oh, Kate, you are still so beautiful, you are so hot. Let me make love
to you. Let me show you the color of midnight."

Dana froze.

Something inside of her snapped and she grew rigid.

Jane looked up, startled at the response in her lover. "Dana?"

Scully sat up and pulled her bra down and her blouse closed. She began
to tremble, but didn't know why. All she knew was she couldn't do this.
She couldn't allow herself to do this again. It hurt her too much.

"Jane, I'm sorry, I·I don't know what to say, I can't do this, please,
I·Oh God." She could feel the tears well up.

"Dana, no, don't stop, don't be afraid. Let me love you like I know you
love me."

"No" Scully said as she stood up. "Janie, I think you should go now. I
need to be alone, I need to think." Scully rubbed her temples as the
tears flowed down her face.

Jane stood up and went to Scully. "Honey, please, let me help you. I
know we can get past this. We can be together. Whatever it is, we can
figure it out."  Jane reached to wipe away her tears, but Scully moved
away and swiftly headed for the door. 

"Please, Jane, just go. I will call you tomorrow." Scully promised,
unable to look her friend in the eye.

Jane's shoulders slumped and she walked through the door, she let her
fingers brush the back of Dana's hand as she passed her.

"I'm sorry." Scully said, staring at the floor.

"Me too." Jane replied

Outside, walking down the sidewalk from Scully's building, Jane couldn't
believe what had just happened. She was so sure that if Dana could just
remember how much they loved each other that she wouldn't have any
trouble picking up where they had left off. What could have happened
that Dana was so afraid of her? What kind of relationship did she get
into, or out of, which had made her swear off love? Why did she freeze
up all of a sudden? Jane was committed to finding out what was going on.
She needed Dana too much to just give up. Jane came to DC for two
reasons, and one of them was the woman on the other side of the door
that she had just exited. Jane was determined to get what she wanted,
even if that meant having more patience than Job. 

Janie decided to forgo the cab ride home and instead walked, it was only
a little under a mile away and the exercise would help relieve some of
the residual tension she was feeling after her encounter with agent
Scully. She turned the corner and mulled the evening's events over in
her mind. 

Jane was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even notice the dark
figure that emerged from the bushes below Scully's window, and was now
following her home.

End Chapter four