Mood:  quizzical

The weekend was great! Mike and I made love TWICE on Sunday, it was so wonderful. We nearly got snowed in though. Been having nasty weather for here, which has been strange in of itself.

In other good news, my cousin Melissa had her baby..11 pounds sheesh. His cousin is soon to follow in 7 months, Lil' Rocks woman is pregnant as well. I want to have babies! BUT I want to be married first!

Bad news:
I'm tired.
I got hit in utopia twice today.
My nose bled for no reason around 2pm. (just out of one nostril)
I don't feel good.
I have a gyno appointment tomorrow and I'm agitated, cause it's uncomfortable to go through..I'm not clean, and I don't think I'll get a shower tonight so I have to hope mom will give me one, though I'm sure she'll be irritated over it.

On a slight upside, Mike bought another Orphen tape but wants to postpone the wedding for another year. I feel like crying...

My emotions are so mixed up, RP has been good, but Mike still won't. Should I just give up and with them...my dreams of a family and having that special someone?

I wish my world would make more sense.