I see the bad, the corruption in this world.
I see all that holds me back as well.
How ironic how much I can’t stand it
because I have it all in myself as well
and I have to give up part of myself
because this sin is now part of me
and I have to give it up
and let God replace it
these people
people full of sin and wanting self-satisfaction
sometimes I wonder if I’m different from them at all
and maybe i’m not
but i’m going to keep on fighting the fight
I’m gonna keep running the race
because whether I am in first or last
whether I win or not, its glorious
because God is glorified either way
as long as my intentions are true
and I have the right intention
sometimes I hate it
that I do things against my own beliefs
simply to save face
or to do something for myself
and Its as if I’m watching myself on camera
watching me make my own mistakes
and continue to do so
sometimes I just don’t feel adequate
I wonder why You even think of me
even care about me
I am only a tiny speck of sand in the beach of Your plan
yet I’m just as important to You
I can’t even comprehend
so I’ll just continue to follow
my blind faith will lead me
better than all the doctrines of this world
my eyes of blind faith see more than their open eyes
so blind they don’t even realize they are
what a tragedy
yet
I’ll love as best I can.