Response To An Echoing Silence
A million words filled the emptiness that could haven given me time to think,
But that is just what I was afraid of a year and a few heartaches ago~
I was afraid to hear the silence (even if you did think I talked to much),
Afraid to realize that I only wanted you to know me (even if you had no idea who I was).
I was afraid a moment of silence might give us time to realize I was not all you ever wanted and you were not all I needed you to be.
So your silence grew and my words fell,
Fell on deaf ears as you walked away without ever moving,
Until your body caught up with your mind.
Afterwards, in your absence, I grew up.
I became a woman I did not know I could be.
That is until you reappeared,
Then once again a child ~ a little lost girl looking for reassurance, affection, & approval only you could give.
So you saunter onto the scene for a night, then turn and go again
Leaving months worth of destruction in your wake
Forcing others to dry the tears, you never cried.
Summer nights soaked in
Tears for your sake,
Tears for the woman you would never see me as,
Tears for the harm I did to you,
But never a tear for the pain of one played-
Never until today.
12~6~98
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